Zeke? Zeke was the reason Stella bullied me the last two and a half years. What the hell?!
"Oh trust me Stella. I want nothing to do with your precious 'Zekey'" I said and stormed off to lecture.
Zeke followed close behind. The seats next to me where taken so he took the one directly behind and leaned in and whispered in my ear
"Liv, we need to talk, please"
I turned around, "I don't really have anything to say to you anymore Zeke".
But its like the universe was against me. Dr. Cohle had assigned us to pairs to spend the 80 minute lecture doing an exercise and of course I was with Zeke.
"Liv. Please. Talk to me." He pleases as I sat in silence staring him down.
"What do you want to talk about Zeke? That you don't want me to be happy? That I confided in you and you used it to embarrass me on my date? That you made me feel ugly just like Stella did on Monday in your room?! What zeke. What do you want to talk about?!"
"Liv, I want you to be happy. I didn't mean to embarrass you. I just don't think you should have had sex with Jake, I don't think he can make you happy. I didn't think you were ugly, I don't think it. I just couldn't tell you!"
"Why?! Why in the wild cant Jake make me happy? Hmm? Because he made me really happy last night, and all week when we would text. He's your best friend. Shouldn't you be happy for both of us?! No instead you are acting like you had to tell me I was ugly! What couldn't you tell me Zeke?!"
"I want Jake to be happy, and you. It's just you shouldn't be with him."
"Who should I be with then Zeke? Because Jake likes me and he makes me feel pretty and I like him. So who should I be with if it's not him?"
"me" he whispered. That was the last answer I expected to hear him say. Why. Why now? Does he actually feel that way?
"Excuse me? You're with Stella. You don't like me, you like Stella."
"I know Liv. I keep trying to convince myself the same thing. But I just broke up with Stella before class. After hearing about you with Jake and realizing how much it hurt me, I was forced to accept that..."
"That what Zeke? You have a crush on me? You don't like me Zeke. If you had you would have done something in the last two years if ya working together. But all of a sudden I'm with Jake and you what? You realized your crush?!"
"No Liv, I realized that I'm in love with you!"
No. What did he just say? Why did he say this now? I couldn't have said that.
"I'm sorry, what? You've just realized this?" I'm mumbled.
"I guess I've known, for a while. But I just haven't been able to admit it. Every time one of the guys would tease me about being into you, I'd deny it. I was with Stella. I was supposed to be in love with her. I even bought a ring. I tried convincing myself we were just friends. That was it. But it's not just that. I've fallen in love with you Olivia Elizabeth Madison. I love that you always show us to my dorm with wet hair. That's why I chose for our meetings to be so close to your practice, because you aren't afraid to be you. I love how you are so stunning, but you don't know it. I love how you snort when you laugh, and how you kind of start to yell when your passionate. I love how invested you are in your classes. How disciplined you are in cross country and that you can just get lost in a run. I love your body. I love your sense of humor. I love how kind you are. I love you."
"Zeke... I can't do this."
I got up and left class. Without a notice. Just left. Before I knew it I was in my room, changed for a run and back out the door and on the running trail. I just ran. I couldn't stop. I needed to try to run away from all this. What was I supposed to do?
I've been in love with Zeke since freshmen year. But Jake makes me feel things I've never felt before. I wasn't his second choice. He wanted me! I ran until I broke down in tears. I just cried for about ten minutes before scooping myself up and heading back to campus. I went to coaches office and let him know I panic ran so and asked to get out if pre-meet practice. Luckily he was understanding.
I got out of his office and as I got ready to leave the building, there he was Jake.