Cherry POV

I just got back from work , will was still at his work. I open my front door and saw scanty playing with my baby Lucas. Zanla who is my babysitter looked looked up at me and got up, I walked over to her and paid her $50 dollars. She thanked me as she walked to my front door and walked out. I looked at Lucas who was on the floor, I walked up to him and sat in front of him . he giggled as he reached for me, i chuckled and picked him up. I started playing peek-a-boo, he started to giggle more and clap his hands, he smiled and grabbed my nose," Mama!" he said. I smiled and teared up, he..he called me mama.." Y-yes that's me , I'm M-mama.." I smiled weakly. I got up with Lucas still in my arms, I butterfly kissed his nose , he giggled .Wow only one seven months old and his first word. he tried saying more but couldn't , I laugh as I held him close,"What are you trying to say?" I asked confused. he just looked at me and giggled. My little goofball, I kissed his head, "My little beautiful Sunshine". he yawned as he cuddle me into my chest, I smiled down at him and walked to the couch and layed down on my back. he softly snord as he moved a bit. I smiled and looked up at the pictures on the wall in the living room. The picture were will and me , him and lucas ,some of lucas by himself. I smiled to myself as I felt my phone buzz from my back pocket . I slowly pulled it out and  trying not to wake lucas. Once I did, I saw it was one of my sister's. She went me a video her daughter taking her first steps. I chuckled , she has such a beautiful family , her and her wife are strong and beautiful like their relationship….unlike mine and ex husband , he stop saying 'i love you' and showing me love. I turned off my phone and put it back in my pocket.I smiled to myself as I thought of my past, I had the support of family, beautiful older sisters and mom. A beautiful rare mom , a mom that's strong like a bull, a one to protected you, to love you, and to care for you. My mother was a beautiful redhead with freckles and grey blue eye, he looked like an angel came down to earth to help the world and had nether little angels of her own. I.. wish she... never left....and just like that I drifted to sleep.

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I waved bye to my gang as I walked to my car and drove away, to home. I got out of my car and I walked to my front door, I unlocked my door and open it,  what I saw broke my heart into million of pieces.  I saw my husband will having sex with a other women "what the hell is going on here will" I shouted in rage.  he looked at my and the women was hugging him.  he looked in shock but satisfied...he looked at me,  dead in the eye and said "I never loved you,  I only used  you for your money,  ,looks and power ". I tear up as he got up and disappeared . I start to huff and puff fast. I screamed on top of my lungs. I started to cry. I sniffed and wipe my tears away. My throat burns and my eyes are filled with water "I don't need that bitch, I have my gang and my Son". I smiled and took off my shirt and pants.  I was only in my red bra and black panties. I walked to my kitchen and open the fridge and grabbed my vodka cola and walked to my bedroom and started to drink it. I rapped up my hands and knuckles with cloth rap and started punching and kicking my punching bag.  I stopped and hold the pushing bag. I jumped on my bed and chug the rest of my vodka cola. I layed down on my back and slowly fell asleep. I closed my eyes and snapped up while gasping...it was all a nightmare....I groan and layed down. great I'm wide awake.