Thinking about the future, I
Remember the little activity pages
My teachers used to hand out
With topics asking about your dreams
How are you? What will you be?
Why don't, we have a look. And see?
How's your job? And the family?
Show us your plan
For the perfect wedding day
Fade in. Fade out. Fade in. Look around
Facing you now; a crowd so loud
Fade out. Fade in. Look around
A thousand options to decide
How things, turn out
Leave it to me to
Sit here and dream
But when I imagine meeting my in-laws
They hail from overseas.
Like having my Lover be from far away
Kind of like an extended metaphor
Relaying how far away my soulmate is, from this day
I don't care how they look, or what they come as
So long as they are gentle with a big heart
Because it will take a bonded pair to raise a family
Fade in. Fade out. Fade in. Look around
Facing you now; a crowd so loud
Fade out. Fade in. Look around
A thousand options to decide
How things, turn out
The proper way to multitask
Is still quite a reach
But I know more things that aren't taught
At least my diaper skills are proficient for
Their job of caring for the little ones
Now handling intermittent cries, sure are a long night
Though I like to think that I'm closer to
Reaching that bar each time, a little more
Every night I hug them tight
A kiss on the forehead, evermore
Fade in. Fade out. Fade in. Look around
Facing you now; a crowd so loud
Fade out. Fade in. Look around
A thousand options to decide
How things, turn out
I wanna adopt teenagers, be their friends
I wanna shower the ones who have given up
On finding a family, with tons of love and support
And low key looking for 17's, Since they are running out of time
Before they are abandoned by the shitty support system
I'm stockpiling these experiences away
A little bit at a time, just as they come
I dream of raising kids my own someday
And every experience is another lesson
Carefully learned solely for them
Fade in. Fade out. Fade in. Look around
Facing you now; a crowd so loud
Fade out. Fade in. Look around
A thousand options to decide
How things, turn out
But right now I'm building up my savings for them
I want to have enough so I can support them
Blood does not mean a thing, I'll support them for all their dreams
If they have siblings or friends, they'll come home too
I would never bring them to separating
I would also not deny myself a singular pregnancy
Though scared of pain, I still carry babies inside of me
Usually people who plan for one, get
Overwhelmed when they are blessed with more than that
But for me inside my mind, it's always triplets I carry
Fade in. Fade out. Fade in. Look around
Facing you now; a crowd so loud
Fade out. Fade in. Look around
A thousand options to decide
How things, turn out
Freezing up, no sound comes out
Caught in this daze, fading in and out
Looking around I see all that could be
A thousand ways to get here
A mother -to-be's… Silver Lining