I stare outside beneath the window of the bus as I lean my head on it.
The sky is a clear blue tinted with pink along the edges already darkening to a Navy Blue as trees and buildings pass by but they all pass in a blur as thoughts cloud my mind.
The bus comes in to a halt making my mind stop wondering and I look around to see that it came to a stop.
I push myself up from the seat and dodge my way through the few people left on the bus.
I step out and I'm instantly greeted by a breeze getting goosebumps all over my body making me self conscious that I'm only wearing my band t-shirt.
I fold my arms tightly over my chest to get a little warmth and pace through the streets passing a few left blocks before I reach my driveway.
I put in the code number to securities and reach for my keys in my pocket for the front door when my phone suddenly started vibrating in my bag.
I pushed the door open and closed it behind me before digging in my bag for my phone.
My heart immediately starts pacing bit faster when my Dad's name shines through the screen.
"Hello?" I ask my voice a little bit shaky.
My dad rarely calls unless he wants to announce that he's visiting but it has nearly been almost a year since he did.
I really hate whenever he calls anyways cause every time he did my mind quivers in the thought that it might be the military to inform me...if something happened.
"Hey zow!" I hear my Dad's cheerful voice throug the line and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.
"Hi Dad, How are you doing?"
"I'm doing quite good honey. I was just calling to check up on things."He says and my eyebrows arch over the obvious nervousness laced in his voice.
"Everything is fine Dad." I reply with a forced smile eventhough he can't see it.
He said something afterwards but I couldn't get much of it cause the lines were muffled by sirens.
"I gotta go now zow. I'll call soon, I love you." I hear him call out before the line get cuts off.
"love you too."I whisper pathetically eventhough he can't even hear me before putting the phone back in my pocket.
I throw my bag on the couch and trail the stairs to my room before jumping on my bed with a loud tud making it groove a little as I nestle my face in the pillows.
I feel a bit uncomfortable lying on my stomach so I turn to my side staring blankly at the ceiling hovering above observing the delicate swirls on the side.
That's all that I've been doing for as long as I remember, well ever since my mother left then in the middle of the summer.
I actually locked myself im my room for weeks after that and I didn't even care about school.
I didn't care about anything.
Alex used to knock on the door all day begging me to open up. I used to find her little sleeping figure on the edge of the door every night.
And that's when I decided to try to stop my trance and suck it up.
My eyes feel heavy and I close them for a while before flattering them open again blinking away some tears.
It feels like it's been a while since I even had sleep cause all I get are nightmares and noises of my parents fighting And that exact night if I let them close for too long.
I guess my eight year old self gave the teachers a hard time as I barely even talked and so the school board decided to make me see a couple of therapists but all they've done was trying to get me to talk.
I still remember the broken look my father had when they told him his little girl wasn't normal, that she looked broken.
But I'd like to think I'm getting better.
My eyes trail back to the ceiling and I get under the duvet of the mattress and try to close my eyes again and this time it stays long.
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I woke up to the familiar sound of my yet again blarring ringtone, I actually used to love it when it was my ringtone until I made it my alarm.
I answer the call not bothering to even see the caller ID.
"Hello?"
"Hey zoe"I hear Alex chirp from the other line
"Alex, you gotta stop calling me early, seriously!" I shout glancing up the clock. 6:01
"Well you know I usually wake up early, and I just love being the first ever person to annoy you every day." She exclaims escastily making me glare slits at her eventhough she can't see me.
"Ok I'm hanging up on you if you don't get straight to the point."
"Looks like someone's on their time of the month." She pouts making me roll my eyes.
"I just wanted to let you know that cody's picking me up."
"Ok whatever, Have fun with your boyfriend." I tease her making kissy noises suddenly wide awake.
"He is not my boyfriend!" She pouts clearly annoyed.
"Ooh but you wish he was"
"I wish not"
"You wish to"
"I don't!" She shouts hopelessly making me chuckle.
"But You doo"
"Ok this is pointless, I'm hanging up now." She strides annoyed hanging up.
I fall off the bed with a loud tud rolling on the floor with laughter.
I sit slightly straight after I ease up and pat my self on the back as a point for tipping her off.
Its beyond me how she manages not to miss a single morning to call me but yet again the whole being of that girl is a mystery to me.
I get off the floor and stand straight to head to the bathroom to take a shower, suddenly feeling my mood lifted.
I walk out of the bathroom with a towel draped around me after I took my time in it and open my closet eyeing my clothes to inspect what to wear.
I settle for a black skinny Jeans and a white t-shirt with a black converse to go with it, taking me a few minutes.
I put my hair in a loose ponytail leaving a few strands out.
I don't usually wear makeup eventhough I got a full kit that I got from my Grandmother last month for my Birthday.
I think I should be offended
I grab a few books from my desk and pace down the stairs rounding the living room.
I take a few steps to my couch and grab my bag were I left it chucking my books in it.
I was about to open the door placing my hand on my door knob when my stomach started making weird noises basically screaming at me to feed it.
I turn back on my heels and head to the kitchen to the fridge opening it but all I find is ketchup.
I close the fridge again with a sigh thinking that I could grab something on my way when my phone started buzzing in my pocket and my eyebrows furrow when I see its from an unknown number.
'I'm in your driveway, Get out'
Wait, what?
I try to sort out who might it be, when my thoughts got shot interrupted by a loud honk from outside.
I scurry the curtains and peek through the window to see a black car parked in my driveway.
I open the door cautiously and lock it behind me.
I take closer steps to the driveway and look through the gates to notice that it was a Mitsubishi Outlander parked strangely on the side end.
"Noah? What are you doing here?" I ask curiously when I see him seated in the car looking closely at my house.
It's not even friday yet.
"To pick you up." He states when he notices me.
"Why?"
"Well, I know that you still didn't pick your car up from the party, so I wanted to offer you a ride."
How the hell did he know that?
"How did you even know where I live?"
"I kinda asked your friend." He says rubbing his back of his head nervously.
"You mean Alex?"
"Yeah"
Great, Now she's giving out my address to everyone.
"Well thanks, but I'm really good taking the bus." I state opening the gates and head over to the other direction.
I hear a car door slam shut and I blink when he abruptly shows up infront of me stopping me in my tracks.
"Come on, I already told your friend that I'd pick you up and besides you get to spend a ride with the hottest guy in Cali." He exclaims with a smirk making me snort.
"Maybe you should take him for a ride." I state shaking my head making his smirk grow bigger.
I glance at the time on my phone to see I'm already late and I feel my nerves grow slitter comprehending on what to do.
"Ok fine" I say looking up at him and my mind comes blank for the first time when I stare in his green eyes observing the small blue spectacles bright as he stares back at me.
"We should get going" He mutters and I snap out of my trance turning my gaze to his car.
I nod and make my way to his car and clime into the passenger seat closing it behind me with a loud tud.