And… I hope you will falsify that first kiss.
I-I-It was forced!
There was no affection in it!
Yet, the second those words came to mind, a strange, unsettling feeling rose up within me.
Like... I was feeling guilty for ly--
W-Who cares?! Hmph.
...
Sleeping (with my eyes open—yes. This is a thing) through my animal behavior course, I pushed open the door to get to my next class.
Ahh! I felt so much better after an hour of sleep! You can't exactly blame me for sleeping in the class since I hated Animal Behavior studies to my guts, and the professor's voice was so soft and gentle it was like a lullaby!—or rather, it was more like a buzzing fly.
It didn't matter if I slept anyway since I was gonna relearn everything after getting to my dorm tonight anyway.
Though I'll probably sleep a bit earlier tonight… perhaps around 2 am?
(VA note: Please don't try this at home, kids!)
Urghhh! That kiss got me feeling all weird…
Shaking my head gently to clear my thoughts, I resisted the urge to stretch.
2 more classes until lunch!
Speaking of which, where's the Hall brat?
Normally, she'd be around my classroom, offering to walk me to my next class…
I couldn't help but strain my senses as I flipped through my schedule, readying myself for her bombardment of affection.
Nothing?
Holding my books in my arms, I had arrived at the literature wing without any interruption.
Entering the Loenese classroom, I somehow felt a little sad…
My eyes widened.
S-S-Sad?!
No! Why would I be?!
Because you're lonely? A tiny part of me offered an answer.
N-No! Why would I be?! I repeated, berating the inner consciousness that spoke up.
Because Lancera isn't here to bother you? The inner consciousness continued, unfazed by my protests.
H-H-H-How dare you even think of such a thing?! Stupid! I feel glad that she isn't here! GLAD! YOU HEAR?!
But despite what I said, I felt a flush creeping up my neck again.
My eyelashes trembled. Stop thinking about this matter this instant!
I pushed the matter to the back of my mind.
But...
Throughout the entire language class, I felt like I was in a daze, unable to focus on my work nor on the teacher's words.
What was wrong with me?
Even though the class was usually incredibly dull (yes, yes. ), I've always been able to gather my willpower and focus.
But today… I was out of it.
The teacher's words went in from one ear and went out the other.
Even the person who sat next to me looked at me with concern. "Asura, your face looks very pale… Are you alright?"
Tch. What a stupid question—my first thought.
Need you even ask if I'm alright if my face looks very pale?!
"No, I'm not!" I answered sharply without thinking twice.
But then the color of my face drained even further.
W-What did I say? Oh no… Did I answer too harshly?
My head felt a bit dizzy.
What do I do…?
But contrary to what I thought would happen, the girl just looked at me with even more concern. "I'll ask the professor if you can go to the infirmary… wait here."
Infirmary?
Just as she was about to stand up, I pulled back. "I'm fine! I-I don't need to go to the infirmary."
She furrowed her eyebrows. "But didn't you say you weren't feeling alright?"
Eh?
I-I said I didn't feel alright?!
W-W-Why did I say such a thing?!
Suddenly, I thought of something.
The flush that I thought I had overcome came creeping back, taking over my face.