He stripped away my self-worth, layer by layer until even my bones held no trace of my personality.
Someone whistles as if calling me. "Hey Miss, you look so pretty." said by the guy who continuously following me. I feel the creep in me, for his voice is too deep like a clap of thunder with sure malice in his tone, I walk faster ignoring what he said.
I am too nervous for I still feel him following me. Bullets of sweats formed in my forehead as I continue walking.
It was almost nightfall, I'm walking back home to my house right after my class.
I lost sight of the girl I used to be, she was caged in my chest, they swallowed the key as I stood there and watched.
"Hey! I am not yet done with you! Don't be such a snob! I hate hard-to-get-girls!" he sounds so pissed of me avoiding him. Who is he anyway? I feel like I have encountered him a few times already.
I just forgot who he is. Maybe because my mind isn't functioning well due to what's happening, kaya hindi ko mawari kung sino nga ba ito.
I walked faster than my pace earlier. Scared of what he would do if ever he'd reached me. I held tightly at the strap of my bag to hide the fear of running in my veins.
You drained me of my identity, injecting self-doubt into my veins.
I shrieked out of shock and a bit of pain in the way he grabbed me in my right pulse. "S-sir, please let go of me. I-i do not even know you." I uttered softly as tears begun to form in the side of my eyes. It feels like my heart is being pulled out inside of my chest because of its fast heartbeats. I tried pulling my hand to get away from his grip.
"You already forgot who I am? That hurts. You're already scared of me eh?" he said while laughing loudly as he tightened his grip to my hand. I saw him smiled evilly at me. He's not fair nor dark, he has hooded eyes whose reddish and you can see it in the way he looks at me that he has an evil plan. His hair is messy and he smells like alcohol mixed with cigarettes.
He doesn't look like a cheap man.
You let me think of questioning my own sanity, walking anywhere aimlessly.
"L-let go! I wanna go home. L-let go!" I cried. I felt the pain from a scratch that marks in my pulse for I keep insisting to get away from his hold. But I did not pay attention to it, for I was more scared of what will happen next...
He sniffs on my nape, ๐๐๐พ ๐๐พ๐บ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐จ ๐ฟ๐พ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐บ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐พ๐ ๐๐. My tears kept falling in my face while he does that. I slowly lost my ability to think straight ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐๐๐๐พ๐๐บ๐๐พ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฟ ๐บ ๐๐บ๐ ๐๐ ๐พ๐๐ผ๐บ๐๐พ.
"You smell nice, damn it! Just one Nash, I'll let you home or maybe you want me to walk you home, so that I would know where you live." he forcefully dragged me ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข ๐๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐พ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐บ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐บ๐๐๐พ๐. He knows my name! Who is he?! Who is he!
At war with my own body every day.
"N-no, no, no ... D-dont! Have pity on me, I'd like to go home. Iwon't report you to the police! Please, let go!" ๐ ๐ถ๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ฉ๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ข๐จ๐จ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ฆ.
I sob serially as I noticed that he can drag me for he has a huge and masculine body!
"Sir! Have mercy on me, I do not want this. Help!" I shouted out of desperation. My face is full of tears but I do not give a damn about how I look at all.
Why would I think of how I look like in this kind of situation?! Will he going to harass me? Will he?!
It's hard for me to scrub your touch off my skin and my mental state has been shaken to its core falling on the floor.
"Damn it, Nash! Just one!" he growled angrily. He pushed me with enough force to make me feel an excruciating pain when my back got hit at a broad tree, ๐๐พ๐๐พ ๐๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐บ๐๐พ๐บ ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ฟ ๐๐บ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐บ๐๐๐พ๐. I grunted in pain.
"Why are you groaning? You're so excited. How about you groan out of pleasure?" as he kneels in front of me to level my vision. I'm terrified as I see his evil grin.
I shake my head as I begged for him to stop. ๐จ๐ ๐ฟ๐พ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐๐๐พ๐๐พ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐พ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐บ๐ ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐บ๐ ๐ผ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐พ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐พ๐บ๐. He grabs my jaw tightly while his nose explored the back of my ear.
I pushed him with all my force ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐พ ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐๐ฟ ๐๐ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ. He's huge than me! Am I gonna die? Am I?! ๐จ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐พ ๐๐! ๐ฑ๐บ๐๐๐พ๐ ๐๐๐บ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐บ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐พ! ๐ง๐พ'๐ ๐พ๐๐๐ !
I don't know who I am anymore.
"Don't wriggle Nash, there's no way I would let you escape." ๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐๐พ๐ฝ ๐๐๐๐ ๐พ ๐ ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐๐. I felt his lips on the back of my ear ๐๐๐พ ๐๐พ๐บ๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐พ ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐พ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐บ๐ฝ ๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐บ๐๐.
"Fuck it!" ๐จ ๐๐พ๐ ๐ฝ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐บ๐ผ๐ ๐ผ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐ ๐บ๐ฟ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐พ๐ฝ ๐๐พ ๐๐๐พr๐พ. "That's what you get for disobeying me." ๐จ ๐๐บ๐ฝ ๐บ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐๐๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฟ ๐๐พ.
๐จ ๐๐๐ป ๐ผ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐พhile he kept on kissing me at my collarbone ๐๐๐๐ e ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐พ๐ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐๐๐บ๐ป๐ ๐๐ ๐๐บ๐๐. "You smell really nice." ๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐๐๐๐ ๐พ ๐ ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐พ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐.
His lips went from my neck to the back of my ear and to my left collarbone while his hand is now entering what's inside my shirt. I sob loudly when he caresses my waist.
I should be over it but I am not, it still haunts me every damn day.
"Why are you even wearing pants? Damn it." ๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐๐๐พ๐ ๐๐พ ๐๐บ๐ ๐บ ๐๐บ๐๐ฝ ๐๐๐๐พ ๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐พ๐๐.
I hardly closed my eyes and silently cried ๐บ๐ ๐จ ๐ป๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐พ๐ ๐ฟ.
I was almost got raped.
People who knows it, keep telling me to "let it go."
This ain't fucking Frozen.
This is rape.
My virginity was almost stolen.
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WARNING :
CONTAINS MATURE SCENES. THIS STORY IS NOT FOR SOMEONE WHO ARE EASILY OFFENDED, NARROW-MINDED, AND A FIRM BELIEVER OF FAIRY TALES AND HAPPY ENDINGS. THIS MAY TRIGGER YOU SO READ AT YOUR OWN SAKE.
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