Xian's Pov

I saw Josh my boyfriend for 4 years making out with the Slut of our school, I walk up to him and tap his shoulder and when I did "What!" he shouted annoyed for interrupting their Suck off.

When he saw that it was me he froze but I stood there looking at him, he quickly push the girl away "Its not what you think, I can explain".

Oh no you dont need to "why did you push her you can Continue, I just want to get your attention to inform you that I saw you cheating on me. Its okay its doesn't matter to me anyway".

"What the hell are you talking about, Are you breaking up with me?" he ask slowly getting angry at my reaction, what does he expect me to to do? Cry? no way in hell that is happening.

"No Im not breaking up with you so you can calm down, You can continue Im gonna wait in our apartment dont worry here's a Condom just dont get home too late okay." I said as I gave him the condom and then I walk out of the Party.

I got home in our apartment, I was gonna go to bed but I still have to finish my essay for English Lit.

I started working on my assignment that I didn't notice the time, Oh its already midnight I yawned, I should get ready for bed.

As I was just about to got to bed I heard the door open meaning Josh is back, I came in the living room to greet him "Oh your back have eaten already?" I asked.

"Yeah I already ate"

"Look about what happen earlier it isn't what you think, she forced herself on to me" Josh tried to explain the situation, But Im not that stupid to fall for those lies.

"Dont try to explain, the fact that you got angry when I interrupted you makes it crystal clear what happen. You are cheating its probably not the first but its okay Im not breaking up with you" He look shock on how calm and collected I am saying those words.

"Are you cheating on me?! Is that why you didn't get angry!" He started to shout.

Me cheating on my partner, Ha just the thought of it disgust me "No Im pretty much Loyal to you, too bad you aren't the same though".

"And why should I get angry? I can give you many reason for us to break up right now, First you didn't try to stop me when I left the party meaning you had sex with her. Second You came home late every Weekend and whenever I texted you, you will say that your staying home with a friend to do homework when the truth is you are fucking a girl" He look shock yet again I dont care.

"But Im not breaking up with you, unless you want to break up with me I will gladly accept the offer, Oh and you can continue cheating on me while where in this relationship together, were just been together for 4 years theres nothing worth much losing anyway" He started shaking in anger, I dont know why his angry though, Im only telling the truth.

"What the fuck are you even saying, Do you really not mind if I cheated on you-" Does he expect me to answer that... Okay.

"No, not really if you loved me in the first place you wouldn't cheat, dont you think?" I stated whats on my mind yet again, it only fueled his anger more

"This relationship isn't made out of Love its made out of Confusion and Curiosity, you were curious about your gender to be honest you were never Gay in the first place so its only natural for you to fuck girls behind my back, If you want we could break up I dont mind"

"No, I dont wanna break up with you I'll change I promise Just trust me." Lies to me all your saying are Lies.

"Easier said them done, I cant Love you Let alone trust you, I'd be a fool if I believe every word you say."

"So Let me get this straight you wont break up with me unless I say so? But you will ignore me cheating on you even if I repeat it. I'll ask you one last question Did you even Love me?" Wow, just wow he has a lot of nerve asking me that.

"You wanna know truth, Yes I loved and I still do even if you didn't love me, I love you. You know why? Because your the first person that told me you liked me, even if all of those was just a lie, I still fall for you. Yet you cheated it really hurts me you know but When I saw you kissing that girl I felt numb, I didn't feel pain in your betrayal so I wanna stay with you in this relationship until you get tired of me." I said all those words with all the emotion that has been building up all this years.

I wanted to cry I wanted to tell you that your mine but I cant do that If you dont Love me, The only thing I can do is let go, I'll let you do whatever you want even if that includes you fucking another girl or guy.

Josh Look at me with cold Eyes "You think those words affect me? You slut!" He said with malice as he walk in our room but before he close the door he said " Dont ever come in this room or I'll beat you so bad no one will even bother looking at your ugly face" after that he slammed the door shut Locking it from the inside.

Tears block my vision as I kneel down on the floor crying "As long as you want me here I'll be here and when you get tired of me just throw me away" I said before I went to the Sofa to sleep.

Its cold tonight and all the blankets is in our room, I'll have to endure this for now "I Love You Josh, but my love for you is hurting me so much. Even so I cant bring myself to let you go" I whispered before I was engulf in darkness.

"How can someone so beautiful, ends up being so broken inside" -Xian