Jenny's Hand, that hold mine for the whole time she was with me in my cage, gave me the courage to live and actually to think about her words.
I closed my eyes as I recalled the words that she told me before she slumbed to sleep, by leaning on my shoulder.
'Your life is going to change from now on. From this day on, you are Mr. Michael's property. The sooner you accept this fact the better for you. What ever he wants he gets so don't even think about rebelling. He's going to take everything from you, he will try to take your dignity. He will take all your first times without even asking. You will be like a toy.
If you let him do whatever he wants he will regard you, by giving you food and a place to sleep and if you do not.... Then you will end up like me... In a cage far away from the other girls.
Those girls I just mentioned... Make them your friends. They're the only ones that will ever treat you like a human. And that's what you are. Don't ever forget that deep inside you are not his property but a human being. Don't you ever forget that. If you do, you will loose yourself.'
Jenny's hair was dirty, she smelled but in this moment I didn't mind. She was the first person that talked to me after those three days and it made me so happy to not be alone in this cage anymore. I can tell that Jenny was a beautiful woman, without getting into here. She still was beautiful if you think all those narbes and dirt away but she was not alive anymore. She lost that glimpse of hope that you could see in every humans eyes whenever you would walk on the streets. The little shine that gave us the right to call ourselves alive.
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I was shaken up only to be greeted by a full awake Jenny looking at me with a big warning in her eyes.
And I could tell why... There where footsteps coming nearer.
"Whatever happens from now on, don't ever loose yourself. And please, for God's sake, listen to whatever he says." her eyes buried into mine, she hold me on my shoulders till I gave her a nod and she let me go.
The footsteps where coming nearer by every second.
"Jenny please, don't leave me alone.... I'm don't want this..."
I started panicking without even realizing, my whole body started to heat up and tremble on the same time.
I shutted up when her hand met my cheek with full force, leaving a metallic taste in my mouth.
"Shut the fuck up, there's no time to freak out or to panic. Those man are our caretakers, you'll see them more than you want!
Whatever happens from now on, this is your new life. This is not you. As soon as you get out of this Cage, you are someone else. Forget your past that was full of sunshine and flowers. Forget your family you'll never see them again. Forget it all. A new reality will start from there on. You will be a slave.."
Her words made me shake even more but there was no time for a second hit as a man approached the cage and halted in front of it.
"Codename X119, Name's Primrose, out of the cage, now!" he shouted.
Primrose - that was me... X119?
My legs moved without wanting it to the door of the cage.
The man opened it up, grabbing my arm forcefully and tearing me out. As soon as a I was fully out he put a chocker around my neck with a rope on it so he could lead me like a dog.
I've never felt this humiliation in my whole life till then, not knowing that worse is yet to come.
He started marching when a loud thud came from behind us, awaking me from my stare. I moved my head to where Jenny was, still in this freaking cage, now holding on the bars looking at me with tears falling from her eyes.
I wanted to run to her but a kick in my stomach from my Caretaker was all it took for me to fall to the floor, crying out in pain.
"Jenny I don't want this. I don't want this. I don't want this." I whispered as tears started to form in my eyes. My hand reached out for my agonized body.
"Silence!" the words came from the caretaker who started to tear on my choker, made me stand up with sheer force.
"Please don't forget me." it was not more than a whisper coming from the cage, but for the caretaker it was enough. He tied the end of my rope on his hand, dragging me with him as he marched to the cage where Jenny was. The nearer he came, the more panic her eyes and face gave away. When the cage door opened she started screaming. He took her out by taking her by her hair.
It was when he took his whip from his belt that I started to see what I didn't want to see.
The painful screams that came, the sound of the whip clashing on innocent skin, bruising it. The blood that dripped on the floor as if a bottle of red thick wine was emptied. Jenny trying to protect herself.
I wanted to look away at this moment but I wouldn't allow myself to turn away. I had to look to realize.
This was my future.
Not the one I always dreamed about, with a caring husband, 3 children, a happy family, but this horrific one.
Jenny's word echoed in my head while she was beaten in front of me.
As soon as you get out of this Cage, you are someone else. Forget your past that was full of sunshine and flowers. Forget your family you'll never see them again. Forget it all. A new reality will start from there on. You will be a slave.
I shut down. My whole mind shut down.
I was no longer Primrose. I was X119.