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What happens when you die, were does your soul go. Does it just wonder around till it finds its end,or does it die too. I would like to think that your soul gives you what you want the most, which could be love,or to explore forever, or like what I want, to just be able to sleep when I'm dead. But how would I know. like i said when I'm dead I want to sleep...for once. I don't want to be reincarnated, or go to heaven or hell, I just want my soul to sleep. But of course the universe won't let that happen, once again iv been reincarnated into a body that's not mine, I don't even know what my original body looks anymore, I know I was male but that's all. I could live my life however I wanted to, as a Robber, a monk, a transgender boy(I haven't done that though), a dad, a suicidal maniac, what ever it is im sure that lots of people would love this phenomenon to happen to them, but once you live over, and, over and over again for 260 times knowing about it you sort of get tired of it , to be fair I just wanted to sleep in my first life but no I got reincarnated. Imagine yourself going through everything again that you wanted to forget when you died. So I shut down on my 37th reincarnation I gave up on trying to live, or love, or have anything worth living for. I didn't purposely kill myself though, that would hurt to much. So I just waited for my death, didn't make any friends, didnt bond with my parents, I just pretended like I was know one. I honestly don't know why this is happening to me, have i done something wrong, if so I apologized many times befor, but here we are again, my 261st reincarnation. To me it won't be any different then the last life, so I'll just live it hoping that I'll get to see what happens when I die.