~~Roses's P.O.V~~
Its times like this where I wish people would stop playing with my emotions. How their words are powerful enough to intoxicate your mind and make you feel things you don't want to.
Its times like this where I wish someone would look me in the eyes and tell me that my smiles, my laughs, my words, is all in fact, just an act. An act to stop the questions from being fired at me.
Its times like this where I wish someone would understand that I'm a human and that I also have feelings. Feelings that are sensitive and easily damaged.
But then, this life we all live in, is like a wild game. You either win, or lose.
And at times, doing the right thing, following the rules, isn't always going to make you win.
Sometimes, you have to break the rules, to win.
Some may call it cheating. But others, call it survival.
No one is a saint in this life. We've all done bad things to which we may or may not regret doing but what matters the most, are the consequences. Was it all worth it?
And to know that Kyle is messing around with my emotions whilst he sucks face with my best friend, is like suffering through a narrow maze full of long, sharp thorns.
One little wrong move, and the thorn cuts you deep. You're wounded.
And even though the cut will heal, the pain and damage will remain. Almost like an invisible permanent scar.
I begin to wonder why I'm falling for the same old trap again.
Yeah, Kyle isn't who he says and portrays himself to be. A badboy. But he plays his role so well, only those who act and pretend all is well, are able to truly see that there is something different about him.
What scares me most though, is what if Kyle begins to develop and become this badboy character and lose his real identity.
All for what? For the sake of staying alive?
"Rose please open up. I will stand here another thirty minutes if I have to! I even went to pee before coming because I knew this would happen." Lewis' soft voice comes from behind the door, interrupting my thoughts.
I sigh, getting up from my bed and walk over to the door. Opening it up, I was tackled unexpectedly when his arms held me in a tight embrace.
"Uhm...Lewis?" I tap his back.
"Oh sorry, you just seemed so hurt when you stormed off." He says worriedly, scanning my face for signs of anything.
I smile, appreciating his worry. "Lou, I'm fine. I had time to think for myself." I shrug walking back to sit on my bed.
He followed after. "He's not worth it, Rose. You deserve someone much better."
His words came to me like an unexpected slap. "Wha- I don't....Like him." Sighing, I explain. "Its just that I get confused when ever I am around him. He's like a puzzle that I can't solve and it infuriates me how one minute he's seducing me, luring me in under his hypnotising spell. Then the next, he's flirting and kissing someone else right in front of me."
Lewis scoffs and nods his head in understanding. "Its funny isn't it? The ones we develop feelings for, are the ones who don't see it. It seems like everyone else can except the person."
As cliche as his words were, they were true.
Whilst someone looks at you adoringly, you are too busy admiring someone else who happens to be kissing another.
Life is such a complicated headache.
"Yeah." I agree, then suddenly realise something. His words... 'The ones we develop feelings for, are the ones who don't see it....'
"Oh Lewis! Who is she?" I question, my curiosity getting the best of me.
"What? Who?" He replies back with a blank expression but I knew very well he was indeed playing dumb.
"Don't play dumb Lou, who is this girl you're crushing after?"
"Me? Girl? Crush?.....HAHAHAHAHA....HA..." Lewis says, then starts coughing. "Sorry uhh...there's...well I accidentally swallowed...my saliva?"
Confused, I stare long and hard at him. "How do you 'accidentally' swallow saliva?" I question sitting closer to him.
I watch as he visibly gulped. "Rose..."
"Yeah?"
"What's your favourite brand of pencil?" He says awkwardly then as if realising what he said, he stands up, rubbing the back of his neck.
"Are you feeling okay?" I ask worriedly as I stand up as well and put my hand over his forehead, checking for any signs of a temperature.
He closes his eyes and sighs. He then grabs both my hands and places them on his chest, where he looks at me with a serious expression. "I want you to promise me one thing, Rose."
I stay silent, not knowing what to say. How do you promise to something you haven't been told yet? But I nod to tell him to continue.
"I want you to promise that you wont fall for Kyle. It pained me to see you all broken from your last break up and he will only do the same thing." He says with a sad expression.
I sigh. "Shouldn't you tell this to Laura? She is your twin after all."
"I did and she went wild for 'telling her what to do' and so she didn't give me any pizza as my punishment." He pouts, remembering the tragic moment.
I laugh shaking my head. "Oh man! That's really depressing."
"Yeah, I know! I mean...No pizza....why?" He exclaims bewildered.
Leaving my last class with an exhausted sigh, I make my way to the library in order to find some books for my history project. I currently knew nothing about Greek Mythology except some dude in the sky or cloud named Zeus or something. I really don't know...
Skimming through the section the librarian insisted, I scan every book, trying to find one about some guy or was it girl, named Aphrodite. It sounds like a rock with a fancy name honestly.
"Aris....Apollo....Ah here it is. Aphrodite." I scan the book, the front cover not very attention grabbing and I could feel my motivation for this assignment decreasing. And let me tell you, I am one heck of a nerd so doing assignments is like doing a hobby.
"Hmm, Aphrodite huh? Suits you." A deep voice says from behind, startling me.
"K-kyle? What are you doing here? You scared me!" I say angrily, trying to find more books. He just looks so out of place in the library.
"You're my Aphrodite, Chi Chi." He says with a smirk but I only stare back in confusion.
"I am your Greek person?"
"No. Aphrodite was the goddess of love, desire and beauty. Apart from her natural beauty, she also had a magical girdle that compelled everyone to desire her." He says licking his lips. " She also represented sex, affection, and the attraction that binds people together." He explains, leaning closer.
"Uhm...As much as I'd love to be the goddess of love, I'd rather attract someone else than you." I snap irritated, continuing my search for more books on this so called love goddess.
If I didn't have to research on her beauty ass, I wouldn't be here.
I heard Kyle chuckle. "Oh you never fail to amuse me."
"Well I wasn't hired to be your personal entertainment!" I say angrily, feeling my blood boiling as he takes more steps closer to me, trapping me.
Why did the history section have to be at the back end of the library?
"Aphrodite was depicted as a beautiful woman, just like you, my sweet Rose." He whispers, his face merely centimetres away.
Sweet Rose? Really?
He continues as he twirls a strand of my hair. "Although Aphrodite compelled people to desire and love her, you don't even have to try. Everything about you is...beautiful. Inside and out. And if someone were to tell you so otherwise, then they'd have to deal with me." He continues to whisper until his lips are now brushing against mine, causing sparks to course through my body.
I grab hold of his shirt, urging his lips to be closer, yet at the same time, my mind is yelling. Its warning me.
This is wrong.
Don't do this.
Don't betray Laura.
Don't break your promise.
My body said yes. But my mind scram no. I was in an internal battle with myself and I lost myself at Kyle's next words...
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