*Just Ordinary*

Today is August 1st and sadly I have work tomorrow. Now this may not seem like a bad thing some people, earning money is good after all, but there's just one thing wrong. I lack motivation, my name is Hannah, I'm 15 years old and I work at a ice cream place right down the street from my house. When it comes to life in general I seem to struggle. It's not like there's anything extremely wrong with my life well at least not right now,at least not anymore. I'm a pretty happy teenager just living out my life as I should be,but there's always one thing I lack motivation. I know it doesn't seem that bad but, oh boy it's the worst. I am currently struggling with depression and anxiety. I'm pretty happy right now but there's always that voice in the back of my head nawing at my brain. I can't forget I have work tomorrow from 4 to 7 p.m. ,but once again I lack motivation. You'll probably hear me say that a lot. I'm just a normal girl with a normal life and a normal job. Pretty boring huh? I'm currently dating a girl named Eva and we really seem to have a connection. I'm currently living with my mother, my stepdad, my two brothers. Keeping on track, I HAVE WORK TOMORROW. Here I am sitting at 12:06 a.m. struggling to sleep. I really am pathetic ,and on top of that I really want to jump off a bridge right now not for any particular reason just because I want to. I really wish I could call in sick tomorrow but sadly I have an over motivated mother. I guess I'll just have to push through it, it's not like I have a decision.