Blue
"You don't use your magic,'' Abaddon accuses me and I don't even have the energy to argue with her because she is not wrong.
I don't use my magic.
I hate my magic but I hate that she sees me and she can tell. I wish I wasn't so obvious. The shame that I am a part of that community is everything I want to let go of.
I know I need to move on from it and accept who I am.
"I don't see the need to right now.''
She shakes her head "Did you complete your training?''
The training.
The one that I did with half a mind. I found my escape when I found out about Jules and I just didn't bother with it. I took that as an opportunity to leave that life behind and now it seems like that life is trying to force itself on me.
"You need magic. It is in your blood."
I don't want to tell her that I resonate more with my Lycan part. That magic was never easy for me. Even with my willed sense.
