Alanis
Another week passes by and the pain is even worse. I have been trying to stay strong because I know how much this is affecting Beau. He has been all over the place because of this. He hasn't been able to focus on the pack, he hasn't been able to focus on anything but me. I see it in his eyes, the fear, and the worry.
It's hard for me to stand there and watch him like this.
I wish I was able to control it. I wish I was able to stay strong for him but it feels like my insides are being ripped out. "Hey,'' he caresses my hair as I take deep breaths to control my sudden urge to vomit.
He has been by my side the entire day, I have a feeling he won't leave until this is over. I wish he would because it hurts him to see me like that and I just want it to end because I want him to stop worrying, I want this to just be over with.
