Beau.
I am so upset.
I have never been this mad at Lanis before. I thought it was impossible to be this mad at him. He broke my heart with his words and he doesn't seem to care. I just proposed to him. I just told him how much he meant to me and he is not even thinking about me at this second. He is letting fear win. I saw the future. I saw those kids. The way they made him happy.
Now he is acting like they are some kind of punishment.
This is the biggest gift we will ever have and he wants to just throw it away like it means nothing. I don't know if it is a good idea to give him the space that he so desperately wants. I can't face him right now because a part of me wants to hurt him as much as he is hurting me.
