She sip —no scratch that— drank the whole wine from her glass, she's mumbling ' fucking love' while eating peanut. She's lonely, she chose wine— she's not that drinker to drink hard drinks.
And wine is for her, it fits her —wine for lonely drinkers. She drinks more. One glass, then second, then third —all bottoms up.
'shit—I'm thirsty!' she said on her inner mind.
"easy" says Bea.
"I'm easy — easy to get! Fuck it!" she said, her voice is now not straight and she can see stars in her head now. 'fuck I'm drunk'.
She's about to drink again when she saw Tina. She's smiling mockingly and walking through their place.
"Oh , the girl - wanna-be of my fiancé is here!" Tina and her friends is at the bar.
She gritted her teeth as she want to pull her hair! Why the heck should she tell the whole world how she ended up broken?!
But she's not that quarrelsome, most especially in public places. She has patience after all.
She's educated too. One thing her father taught her, is to have patience, tolerance in every situation.
So she hold back. Asking God to give her more patience tonight—just tonight.
" So , how's life, miss nurse? I'm happy, you know. And well, just wanna tell you that me and Samuel is going to tie the knot soon.. You're invited!" she said in fleer laughter.
'Tie the knot my ass!'
She just remained calm while giving her the coldest look. She doesn't have the right to quarrel her in the first place. And to justify it, she's the fiancee..
She just tasted Samuel, yeahh.. That's it. She just savior her heart on wanting him, she is just— gratified herself.
" Send me invitation, I will be there! " she shrugged her shoulder, smiled at lopsided and wink.
She can be the naughtiest woman alive if she wants it. 'I can strangle and wreck your nect too'.. She cooed and blows out a little laughter.
then she took the wine glass that she put down few seconds earlier, and motion cheers to Tina —who is just glancing at her with pressed lips— and drink it, bottoms up.
"Send us also, we'll be there!" her friends said Simultaneously, after the not-so-long silence when she spoke to Tina.
She wanted to give her flying kick.. Fuck yeah? She knew karate..! 'Be calm more, myself'
She—Tina —puckered her lips and gave them a mocking smile, then left.
"Fuck that girl!, wrecker of my night! Too nice to mop he face on the floor! What the heck Bautista saw it from her? Shit man, you're even more beautiful than her! Well, she's blonde tho—but heck! Try to color your hair like that, you'll be more looking good than that bitch! " says Ginger in slurping voice.
"Yeah , do it. Drink more to that!" Cathy said. She's too noisy, loud voice and just drinking.
"Fuck yeah! To all heart bleeding!"
Says Bea, while she doesn't name it, glee or shouting voice.
"For my heart,and to Cathy's heart and to all our hearts!" she said, and did a cheers to their glasses and drink her wine.
"Fuck you! I'm not brokenhearted !" Cathy hissed.
"Me too, bitch!" Ginger and Bea said in unison.
" fuck you! You, animal! Don't be so bad like that.. I didn't even know what laove is and here you are, killing my heart? Dont precede my —my heart Mikaela!" says Jessa. And she's grinning like hell.
She wave her hands on the air, and then stood up shouting" I want to break free! "
"Amen to that, you're free!"
"Tattoo it gurl.. It's good!" it's Jessa.
She glared at her, and something crossed her mind. Why not? Fuck being good girl.. Fuck obedience! Fuckin yeah!
"Oh? Why are you looking at me like that?, I'm just kidding man!" says Jessa.
"Fuck yeah!, come on girls, let's do ink!—no, just me!" she said and drag Bea to stand. Bea is the one who knows where the good artist is, she's fond of art. Though she doesn't have any tattoo.
Bea glared at her, then smiled sweetly.
"Maybe much better tomorrow, when you're mind is on sanity" she said in low voice.
But she didn't listen. She wanted to be waste alright. She's to fuckin tired of being a good girl always.
The hell she cares!
Samuel couldn't take away his eyes on Mikaela, she lost it. He knew by heart. He can see it in her actions. And he lost his shit too.
"Hell big bro! You're drinking like the whiskey is just a water!" says Joshua.
"he lost it yeah? He's losing his shit Joshua fuck!" it's Jake.
He is just looking at Mikaela who is busy drinking, he even saw Tina a while ago.
Good thing Tina doesn't know that he's here too—at RR's bar. And he couldn't even come near her to defend her from Tina's bullshits.
" I'm dying —hell! " hi hissed and drink again.
"More days, and you can have her again big bro. Tina is so fuckin genius. I need more evidence that's why I can't send her to jail" says Roderick.
He sighed, Tapp the table and stood. Hell, he needs to talk to her now or else, he will be insane in just lookin at her —losing her sanity!
It hurts him, so fuckin painful seeing her like this. Seeing her lonely and sad makes his heart ripping out to pieces, tightening from her pains that he caused.
"Chill, don't you dare go near her. Tina is here, remember?" it's Geoffrey.
Good thing his cousins is always here beside him. If it's not, then he will go to some institutions for losing his sanity.
"I can't stay like this! Fuck her!" he said, clenching his fist the punch the table. Fuck her for sucking his sanity, fuck her for making his babe like this!
"Don't you dare wreck this table! It's thousands of money— I'll double the price when I see there's even just a single scratch on it!" RR said in threatening voice yet grinning.
The four cousins of his just gave him a deadpan look. Shaking their heads and saying 'fuck love' simultaneously.
He glanced at them, "You will know what I'm going through the moment you found the one for you—or else, you will more experiencing heart problems than I have now, God forbids, but yeah— I hope you will not.. Fuck, it's so hard!" he said, in a very painful voice.
RR, who just looking at Mikaela and her friends table downstairs, just shrugged his shoulder and sigh.
" Amen to that" Geoffrey said.
"I will not fall in love" Adrian said and grin.
He gave him a flat look, "Don't say those words if you're not there yet— life is full of unpredictable things, young man!".
"I'm gay" Adrian said, Geoffrey scoffed, RR is now coughing because he's drinking when Adrian said that. Good thing he swallowed the poor beer and didn't disgorge it to them.
He's on their front for Christ's sake!
"Says the man who is so horny as hell for having how many woman in one month like changing his fuckin' clothes !" Jake hissed.
"Not anymore" Adrian shrugged his shoulder and smiled lopsided to Jake.
"Yeah, yeah and the cats can bark, moron!" Geoffrey said.
Mikaela is living like a doll for a couple of weeks now, she's like drinking when she's thirsty, eating like a cat, no lively life at all.
She's fixing her self, mumbling and snorting when she saw her tattoo, it's still fresh in her mind when she did it— just 3 weeks ago after she had ink it. But she liked it.
It's a feather tattoo, with flying three birds on the edge of it. From the base of the feather, inked the word ' stay strong'.
Stay strong. She has to be. Her tattoo reminds her how to stay strong every single day in her life, it's hard — so fuckin' hard but she must live. What? Its been 1 month? Yeah.
One month and no Samuel. But she decided to let him go. She doesn't want to begged. She's not like that. She's a woman with pride and dignity.
But then, it's still hurts.. It's not easy. The more hardest time when the night comes. When she remembers those nights, nights that's full of Samuel's memories.
'Ahh. Till when I'm like this?'
When she remembers how he kiss her, how he caress her body, how they made love.
'Oh God, heal me please'
She misses him so much that it hurts. The game of love knocked her down—Big time. And She lost..
She finished fixing herself, she's wearing her uniform, yeah she stayed working. She couldn't leave her work just because of her heartbreak.
She's losing her mind alright, but work is different from her personal life. She shoud work, in order to, even just the whole day— she can be in her old 'her'. She must do it.
She can be in her old days oh her, when she was still living in a life full of hatreds for man. In her old 'she' who doesn't believe in love — who doesn't want anyone to enter her life, to own her heart.
She stepped out from her apartment, and the last thing in her mind, is to have a peaceful day ahead.
Little did she not know that thinking peaceful day is the last she could think.
'fuck this!'