I thought love is the answer to be happy in life like Daniela. Seeing her how happy she is now it feels a little envy. She got everything she want even her crush before got her heart and now they are engaged. Wow! I wish i have the life the same like her. I so can't wait to met the man i dream.
" hey! hey! " Daniela cracked her moment.
Mariella was surprised and feel a little shame. Her skin face turn into red and she quickly smiled back. " i~im sorry Miss Daniela, I just can't help myself to think how lucky you are and wishing to be like you." she head down and felt so shamed.
Daniela laughed after hearing her reason. " don't worry it's okay and for you to know not only you told me that. lots of girls also wanted to be like me. You'll always thinking that my life is amazing but unfortunately in reality it wasn't like that." her eyes shine fade away and turn into sadness. " I wish i have a simple life. peaceful atmosphere, with real friends, supportive family and " she took a deep breath, " and freedom to love the man i real loved."
I was surprised to hear what she said to me. I started to confuse and wanted to know what her real story behind. " I don't understand, your a famous vlogger and you always shows how happy you are, how people around you loved the way you are to them, especially how sweet and amazing you have in relationship with mr. right." i am very dead to know her real story.
She crossed her legs while sitting in a chair and I'm on her front sitting properly while holding the white folder.
" I don't know but i have a feeling i could trust you girl, can i trust you? " she ask seriously.
"y~yes of course, you can trust me." i smile a little to show that I'm a good person.
" ok!" she smile back and took a very deep breath. " Well, as a Vloger i have to catch all people sympathy to get a million likers and followers and become a famous. I have to show how amazing life i have so my followers won't stop to watch my videos and waiting for my updates everyday." she speak like she's very comfortable to me.
"yeah! and all your videos was very funny, interesting and amazing like you got the full package, in short perfect life. Perfect in family, friends, supportive followers and perfect in love life. What else we didn't know about you?". my voice is no control to tell her how perfect life she has.
" actually,," she took a moment before she continue to speak. " some of it are true and the other was just a lie." her voice sounds so down and she look so sad.
"oh,my!" i was so surprised, I don't know what to say. After hearing what she said we had a quiet moment.
" yep! i have to make a lie to get a lot of likers and get paid." she laugh a little and standing walk in front of the mirror and posing like a model.
My eyes following wherever she walk, watching her on what she's doing. I can't believe that all are just lie for her but still i can feel how sad she is in real life.
" I'm tired of lying in people, I'm tired of reading each of their comments with bushings and good vibes, and I'm tired of~" she stop and look through in my eyes. " to ignore the man i really love and getting married to someone i don't really love." her tears in her eyes wanted to come out but she's holding it.
" sit down Miss. Mariella." she sit near to me. " I feel your pain but you have to make things right to set yourself free and be happy. If you keep it forever you will never be happy. Our life is short we don't know when we will die, do you want to die without happiness?. And If you loved the person you wanted to be with you and he also love you then choose the person who is really in your heart. Your fience might get hurt but he will find someone who could love him back instead of you both live in one house hurting each other every day because your with him but you think someone els and he loved you more than anything but he will get nothing from you. Do you want that life? or do you want both to be happy even though you two are not meant to be? it's on you, your the one who making your own future, You feel pain because that's what you choose right? so it's all up to you if you want to make things right and if you want to be free and be happy with someone you love. Make an action while it's not too late and still early." I don't know why I'm giving her advice, only i know is i feel pity for her and i want to help her to release her pain.
" I really want to be happy " her tears fall down finally. " i want to live in a peaceful place with the person i love and give up what I'm doing now and be who i am. But I don't know how and where i should start and i don't know if i can do it. " she cry like a baby and become emotional.
" You have family and friends who will support you don't forget that. Just tell them and i believe they will understand you and they will help you". wow! i feel like I'm good advising her.