"If I'm not like this, then what should I do Karin?" asked Edo, staring at Karin's face.
"Tell me, What should I do if the woman I have loved for years doesn't love me anymore? but love other men?" asked Edo with a sad look.
"DEGG"
Karin looked at Edo with foggy eyes.
"Who told Edo, what is Alea? or Mr. Damar?" Karin asked silently while massaging her temples.
"What do you already know Edo?" Karin asked quietly, staring into Edo's eyes that looked empty.
"Not too much." replied Edo briefly.
Karin took a deep breath, it seemed like Edo was very angry and very disappointed in her.
Karin didn't know what else to say, maybe keeping quiet would be better. Karin gave Edo time to vent his anger.
It was thirty minutes that Karin and Edo were silent with their thoughts. Karin sighed many times. Slowly Karin stood looking at Edo, who was still not moving at all.
"I better go first, if you are still like this." said Karin a little disappointed with Edo's attitude. With a heavy heart, Karin opened the knob and opened it.
"Does he mean more than me Rin?" asked Edo suddenly before Karin came out.
Karin closed the door again, and turned around to look at Edo with a full gaze. Karin saw the sadness on Edo's face. Karin returned to sit next to Edo.
"What do I have to say? even if I say you also mean a lot to me, will you believe it?" Karin asked, looking at Edo guiltily.
"If I mean so much to you, why did you choose it? during our three years together, and for two years I looked for you and waited. Do we have to end up like this? What did I do wrong Rin? I never betrayed you, until you left without hearing my explanation. I'm still loyal to you." said Edo with both hands holding Karin's shoulders.
Karin lowered her face, feelings of guilt piercing her guts.
"I was wrong Edo, you were not wrong. I was at fault for not giving you time to explain. I was wrong, just left without thinking about your feelings. All this happened because of my fault." said Karin crying sadly, really his heart was hurt too. Still remembering clearly the pain she used to be, when she saw the photo evidence that Citra gave her. And for two years with a heart full of wounds, Karin tried to get up again even though her heart was full of hatred and a prolonged sense of resentment. Until Karin doesn't want to know love forever.
"I never blame you Rin, I can only lament my fate. Is this what I have to get? this pain and disappointment." said Edo covering his face with his hands, Edo's back trembled violently. Karin approached Edo and hugged him very tightly. The voice of Karin's crying was heartbreaking, Edo returned Karin's hug and held her very tightly.
"I'm sorry Edo, I'm sorry...if you want to punish me ... punish me for my mistakes. If you want to hate me, hate me Edo! as long as you don't be sad and go down again. You must be happy Edo ... you deserve to be happy, You are very good." Karin said in a choked voice.
"You are innocent Rin, why should I forgive you. Even if you hurt my heart, I will always forgive you. I love you Rin, love you so much." looked at Edo gently with teary eyes.
"What should I do now Edo? I don't want to hurt your heart, and I also can't leave Aska." Karin said in a low voice lowering her face.
Slowly, Edo let go of his hug and lifted Karin's chin for her to look at him.
"Do you really love him Rin?" asked Edo seriously.
"Please answer honestly." asked Edo with a very deep gaze.
"Can I tell it from the beginning? when I left you? I want you to know everything, so you can judge it from the start. If I am wrong according to you, I am ready to accept punishment from you. Just don't tell me to leave Aska." Karin asked Edo.
Edo's heart felt sore, if his heart could bleed he might be bleeding now.
"Tell me Rin, I will hear it." said Edo while leaning his back against the wall of the room.
Karin sighed before telling her what had been going on. In a low voice, Karin told the beginning of leaving Edo with a very hurt heart. How the hatred and resentment in her heart for Edo and for all the men who hurt girls. Until Karin got to know Aska, about her agreement and her contract agreement with Aska. Until Karin found out that Aska had stage four leukemia, his life would not be long. About the beginning of her feelings that did not like Aska, to the events that led to her closeness to Aska. And ends when the arrival of Sonya and Momy Aska, came to the story where Karin began to realize her feelings for Aska and was afraid of losing Aska.
Karin told everything without anything to hide anymore. Karin lowered her face again when the story was finished. Edo fell silent, Edo's face seemed to change, His eyes began to cloud with something on his mind.
"What do you think Edo? what should I do now?" Karin asked, venturing to ask Edo, who was still silent.
Edo looked at Karin's face, In his gaze Karin's eyes were fixed. There are thousands of love in Karin's eyes for Aska, not for his anymore.
"If you ask me...what do you have to do. If I tell you, will you do it?" asked Edo in a low voice.
Karin nodded her head resolutely.
"I will, as long as I don't tell me to leave Aska." Karin replied seriously.
"Take care Aska, give him happiness and love that can make him eager to fight his illness." said Edo without taking his eyes off.
Karin looked at Edo with tears already pouring down. Edo's words were like a beautiful day dream.
Karin sobbed to hold back her joy. Really, the heavy burden she felt in the last few days began lifted up. Her heart was so relieved. In her arms, Edo's body was very tight.
"I don't know what else to say Do, besides thank you. I am very happy today." said Karin between her tears.
"I have to thank you. If you don't visit me, I don't know anymore ... maybe I'm going crazy." said Edo with a smile.
"I am indebted to you and to Alea. You two are always there for me, always accept my ignorant flaws. If I had listened to you, you would not have reached this hospital." said Karin with regret.
"Ssssttt...What do you say? if it is like you say, you will never meet Aska. The man who loves you so much. Do you want to be like that?" said Edo teasingly.
Karin's face flushed red.
When Karin was about to respond to Edo's teasing, Karin's cellphone vibrated.
"Drrrt... Drrrt...Drrrt"
Karin saw Mr. Damar's name on her cellphone screen.
"Edo, I'll take the call first." Karin said while receiving Mr. Damar's call.
Edo nodded his head casually.
"Yes Mr. Damar, what's wrong sir? Aska is fine, right?" Karin asked with a pounding heart.
"Mr. Aska is awake Miss Karin. The doctor was just here, Mr. Aska was advised to immediately undergo chemotherapy again, while Mr. Aska's condition stabilized." said Mr. Damar explaining at length.
"When is the chemotherapy, Mr. Damar?" Karin asked seriously.
"Now Miss. Soon Mr. Aska will be taken to the chemotherapy room." Mr. Damar answered anxiously.
"Fine Mr. Damar, I'll be back." said Karin while closing her call Mr. Damar.
"Edo, can I come back now? Mr. Damar said Aska wanted chemotherapy now." said Karin asking permission to go home.
"Go Rin, You have to be beside Aska this time." said Edo with a smile.
"I promise tomorrow I will visit you." said Karin earnestly.
"Accompany Aska your most important duties Rin. I am alright, if I get out of here tomorrow I will definitely visit you and Aska." said Edo sincerely.
"Okay, I'll go first. Take care of yourself well Do." said Karin before leaving Edo's room.
***
In the chemotherapy room Aska's body was lying weak. Chemotherapy a week ago was very painful for Aska, I don't know...for now whether he can go through it or not.
Especially now that Karin was not by his side. Aska's mind drifted away, I don't know what Karin and Edo did.
"How Aska? is ready for us to give chemotherapy injections again? this injection is getting the higher the dose because yesterday your body experienced a decline, so it will hurt more." explained Doctor Irwan.
"Doctor, can chemotherapy today not use injections, but use another method?" asked Aska nervously. Aska is very afraid of needles.
"This chemotherapy is safer Aska, previous chemotherapy also used injections right??" Said Doctor Irwan with a smile.
"The problem was that someone accompanied me yesterday, Doctor. And now..." Aska didn't continue when Karin suddenly interrupted him.
"And now please Doctor can inject it, because I'm already here. I will accompany my lover." interrupted Karin with a smile on her lips interrupting Aska's words. Aska looked at Karin who was walking towards him.
Karin kissed Aska's forehead, without any shame in seeing Doctor Irwan and two other nurses. Aska's face flushed, between embarrassed and happy.