This is my story
No one cares about my story
But I'm going to tell it anyway
I was a young god with no name and no title. Every one was only familiar with the popular gods
No one sang of me
Yet
My cousin was punished by the Sea God
Well not her
It was her mother's punishment but it was taken out on her
That's how cruel the Sea God is
Innocent Andromeda was chained to a rock and terrorized by a horrifying sea creature. Day in and day out
I could no longer stand it
"Is she not your stepdaughter, uncle? How could you punish her so?" I had said but nothing was done
I unchained her myself. I set her free
But the Sea God was not too happy with me
He cursed me. He cursed me double
And then they cursed me
I did not know I was not supposed to show mercy
I did not know I was one of the bad ones
I was judged before I even knew what I was
I was locked in a dark place. My uncle said my punishment would be worse than the one I had saved
My brothers and sisters were locked in with me
We were given names. We were to be the 'bad spirits' Strife, Malice, Rage, Chaos, Deceit, Famine, etc
I was Despair
We were never supposed to be released into the world
Until one day someone did
I was the worst of the worst
I'm the voice in your head that tells you, you won't feel better
I'm the voice who tells you, you're unloved, You're ugly. You're a failure. You're a loser. You're an embarrassment
I'm the laughter you hear when you fail at something
I'm the laughter you hear when you fall down
I'm the one who causes you to break down in public
I'm the one who pushes you to do bad things
I'm the little devil on your shoulder
In your ear
In your head
In your heart
I'm the one who whispers, when you harm yourself "Atta, boy\girl. Do it again"
I'm the one who tells you to keep going when you think you've gone too far in your wrongdoings
I'm the voice who mocks you when you're feeling insecure
The one who kicks you when you're down
When you are feeling positive, I remind you that your cup is half empty
I'm the one who turns off the light at the end of the tunnel
I remind you that things will only get worse
I'm the one who encourages you to pull the trigger
I tell you to give up. Give up all hope
I'm the voice that tells you to stay up all night
I'm known as
Killjoy
The Bad Spirit
Negative Energy
The Black Cloud
Lamentos
Lachrymose
The Bad Seed
The Heart Of Darkness
Debby Downer
Party Pooper
I'm the reason behind the sayings
"No more Mr. Nice Guy"
"How low can you go?"
"It can always be worse"
"Life sucks and then you die"
"No good deed goes unpunished"
"One step forward, two steps back"
When you're falling asleep and you feel that jerk and you jump awake, that's me whispering "There's no rest for the wicked"
When you wish upon a star, I remind you that it's dead. Like your dreams
I'm the voice you cannot silence
So keep crying, crybabies
And remember as you bawl your eyes out, I quench my thirst with your tears