Raise your words not your voice.
With every newday comes new strength and thoughts.
You don't always need a plan sometimes you just need to breath have faith and trust and let go and see what happens.
Don't stress yor fragile heart and disturb your mind, stay positive.
Who is with me from beginning of the story?please vote and comment.
Yumna:
It was tahajud time(prayer in the middle of night)I woke up a little early hoping Ahad will come today atleast no matter what he did after all he is my husband and I miss him terribly everything in our room reminds me of him I turned my gaze and saw my best friend who supported me slept next to me peaceful surely she's one of best am happy for her and Imran and I hope Imran doesn't hurt her more.
"Best feeling is when you are loved back by the person you love."
I woke up Aisha and we both did ablution and prayed after that we stayed for some minutes and made supplication; I asked Allah to guide me today so we can sort out our issues..I don't even know what went wrong or what was my mistake?he has never ever done something like that since our first day of wedding.
I tried to recall all incidents which might have made him mad at me but failed to understand as we were fine a week ago.
I was removed from my thoughts when I saw someone shaking me abit.
"Just wipe these tears,"She said and I didn't even realize I was crying.
"Do you want me to talk to Imran so he talks to Ahad since you know they are best friends?"She said her face showing concern.
"No let this be between us it might create more misunderstandings,"I told her while wiping my tears and thanking her for being there for me all the time.
"What wrong have I done?"I mumbled to myself but she heard and she explained to me next to which I agreed.
"Don't worry this is a test from Allah, all marriages have ups and downs and this is your first time,"She said and I just stared at her she knew how to put words and make someone calm.
"I know but I hope he comes today I really miss him,"I told her what was in my mind and I do really miss him, his voice, his texts, his kindness and the late night talks we used to have.
"InshaaAllah it will all be over don't take stress all will be well just have patience and talk to him when he comes if he's angry then stay calm you must have heard; two can not be angry at same time and ask forgiveness from him, the first one to ask forgiveness will not become small yeah?She said and I hugged her am so happy Imran got a girl like her who is so calm and understanding she's best for him don't you think so?
"Yeah, you are right to let's recite a little bit of Qur'an and then sleep, "I told her and she nodded.
I checked time it was 6:30 am we slept after praying fajr(first prayer in morning).
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It was the afternoon I got dressed wore a black and blue light long gown just the one he loves did slightly make up all for him, tied matching hijab and waited I had told Aisha to go home as her mum also needed help after a lot of convincing that I will be fine she agreed but we kept texting each other and I made some of his favourite evening meal.
I heard a knock on the door I kept my phone aside and smiled.
Finally, he has come may be he missed me a lot just the way I missed him?
I rushed to open the door I opened and jus4 stood there staring at him he has grown even more handsome, MashaaAllah black shirt with a jacket on top hair neatly combed laptop bag in his one hand and he just stood without saying anything.
That hurt.
Usually, when he came from the office I would take his things and keep for him but now I was a bit nervous to do that.
Maybe he was waiting for me to start first move?
"Assalamualeikum, "I greeted him in a soft and low voice I just hope I don't break out in front of him I will show him I am brave and we both can solve this issue whatever he was hiding.
"Waleikumsalam, "He replied as if replying to some any other guy and just looked away.
What was wrong and how do I start?
"Excuse me you are blocking the way I want to pass," He said in different tone and voice abit raised. I just widened my eyes unable to process this new Ahad.
"We need to talk, "I finally said it and he narrowed his eyes and folded his hands on his chest as if waiting for me to continue.
"Continue as you are wasting my time,"He said and started to move away from the door and entered inside he kept the keys on the shelf and went to drink water from the table.
"Ahad you could have asked me I would have given you, "No need for that I can do my work myself he drank water while sitting on the coach and switched on the tv totally ignoring me.
He didn't even compliment me I did all these for him.
"Tea and your favourite pakoda are ready(an Indian potato dish), "I told him and the next words he said left me speechless.
"I have already eaten,"He said and I was just hurt by his words but I tried to control myself.
"Have you eaten?"He asked and I was shocked.
"Why do you care all of sudden? what's wrong with you ?why are you avoiding me? we need to talk and here you keep saying hurtful words? why are you doing this?"I threw all questions whatever was disturbing me but he looked me with a blank face at first I saw his face showing emotions but then he quickly masked it.
"Am busy now It's not the time to ask me all these," He said as if not bothered about what I said at all as if I meant nothing to him.
I knew he cares maybe he's hiding something.
I saw him standing up and starting to go to his room messing his hair as if he was tired.
No, we won't go today we need to solve this.
I went and grabbed his hand to stop him from going, no matter what he can't hurt both of us like this.
"I am sorry if I have hurt you or wronged you, "I apologized but he still didn't turn to look at me.
He's becoming the person the tabloids said about him arrogant, rude, selfish but why?
I went in front of him but he removed my hands from him and said find out yourself what you did.
"You need to tell me, "I begged him I knew if this continued I might end up on floor crying.
"I missed you so much do you know that?"I told him about my feelings.
"I love you a lot Ahad and I can't stay away from you it hurts please tell me reasons, "I told him and tears started streaming down my face I finally sat on the floor and saw a shadow approaching me.
"Don't cry I hate woman crying, always crying for nothing," He said but I knew he cared he just gave that excuse.
"Tell me the mistake and I will solve it, "I explained him but next thing he just said I wondered.
"Not everything is about you, "He said still standing up and finally he sat on the floor and whispered in my ears the next words.
"It's about me but I can't tell you now got that and stop this silly questions and crying all time," He said and left to watch tv.
This is not over no more crying and now if you behave like this then I will find out myself.
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It was already 11:00 pm we had dinner am glad at least he had dinner at home with me today but I waited and waited for him in our room and soon my eyes were about to close and I heard cracking of door.
So he decided to come I will prete d am sleeping let's see what he will do and I drifted off to dreamland.
I heard footsteps approaching near, I wish I could open my eyes but no I want to know what he will do.
I heard that deep voice which I have come to love a lot and he said: "Sorry for hurting you because once you know what I am hiding you will hate me."I wanted to open my eyes and ask him what? I would never ever hate him....but I decided to give him some space again.
Why did he think and say like that? Why will I hate him? I kept thinking after while opened my eyes and saw him sleeping on our bed but his back facing me.
"I will find out soon InshaaAllah, "I whispered to myself and drifted off to sleep.