I want to see her, she was my only reason to give freedom to everyone, my only motivation, and a piece of life.
It is impossible not to feel like complete shit when you lose the only person you care about and being in a neutral behavior as before. Everyone checks on you and you are just like nothing is going on, and just work on whatever you gotta work on.
"Where the fuck is Nick???" I was angry because he was absent most of the days.
"He said that would be busy for a while" Remy just explained.
I knew he had her body and I just wanted him to give it to me, so I try to find him and ask everyone, Fred just asked me "Why are you looking for him?"
"That pervert got Estella's body and I want her body with me, so I can dig a proper place for her" I was looking around.
"Maybe you should try using your powers since he is kind of your pet" Fred walked away.
I was so lazy to waste my magic like that but it was true, so I started to track him until I found him inside of a cave "Give me her body!" I exclaimed when I was getting inside.
"Not yet" He looked at me "It is almost done."
I saw him injecting in her body something "What are you doing??!?"
"Calm down, when Aether put her in the ground he assumed she was dead, but she is not and so she was not dead, but she had no much time so I decided to grabbed her with my tail and run away when you distracted him" He smiled at me "She just needs to rest, she started breathing again, she is just unconscious, I already cleaned her internals with my poison and also cured all her injures. I basically saved her for you after what he said and thanks to you!!!!"
I grabbed his shoulders "Let's keep this as a secret, I can not put her more in danger after what happened."
Nick smiled at me "it is fine."
"You can stay with her all the time it needs. Do not go away from her until she wakes up. I will be bringing food for you" I walked away.
I was internally excited and scared, just as nervous, I wanted her to wake up really soon and for some reason, I started crying even more, maybe because I felt it was my fault and I just wanted her to live. I promised myself if she wakes up someday, and she is not mad at me, then I will never leave her side until I make sure she is completely safe.
Every day I checked on Nick and Estella, but she was always asleep, I gave her baths and took care of her for a bit every day.
I did not want to, but everyone decided to organized the castle for me and give it to my domain "We thought you should be Queen."
"I do not want to be Queen" I changed in a man and put some masculine clothes "This is better. I want to be king since now and forgot about who I used to be, Mileena is dead from now."
"We should decide a name for you?" Remy asked.
"Just call me Azrael" I responded.
I asked Nick to bring Estella into the palace and just give her a proper room and just asked a servant to serve her, so he could be the doctor for now.
Everything started to be restored, the kingdoms started to recover and people started to grow.
I renamed the kingdom to the Crown Kingdom. Estella slept for two years and everybody started asking me why I do not get married and even people started offering their daughters and themselves "I am sorry, my heart belongs to someone already and she is still here. I have been waiting for her since three years ago." I smiled.
"She is not gonna come back for you! You just keep rejecting every girl and saying she is the one you love and that you are gonna wait for her during years, if she is not coming then she does not loves you." One of those girls responded to me, but I was already used to it.
"Well, I do not love you and that is enough for me to reject you. I do not even like you, I like her and well, someday she is gonna come to me." I smiled.
Every girl in the town was mas at me because I kept rejecting them "Stop doing that!!! You deserve better!!!"
I was about to say something when Nick shouted "She is awake!!!!!!"
For some reason, I started crying and ran pretty fast, my heart was pumping fast and I was so excited that I even forgot to transform into my girl form "You are awake!" I hugged her.
She was confused, she pushed me away and said "I do not know you, Do not touch me!!!!"
"Calm down" I changed my form "It is me" I was so nervous.
She was surprised and started crying, smiled, got closer, and slapped me really hard "You left me, asshole!!! You left and just leave a letter. You were a coward" she started crying "I came to look for you and this guy tried to kill me, I did it for you."
I was so sorry and started to cry "I did it so I would not put you under danger and I could give you the freedom you deserve, but you stubborn and did everything wrong and almost get killed!"
"I did it because I wanted to know more!!! I was wondered when would you come back to me and every day was killing my chest for you, so I decided to come out for you"
I hugged her "I promise that I would not do it again. I will remain by your side no matter what and I will protect you over anyone and anything" I put my hand in my heart.
She smiled "Then is a promise" she kissed me "Why were you a man? I thought you were a girl."
"I was born as a girl, but I can change into a man because of magic. Also, I am known as the king of Crown Kingdom and my name is Azrael in here" I smiled "You can be my queen and if you want me to be a girl whenever you want, then I will be" I grabbed her hand.
"This looks like a dream" laughed "I got my own man and girl at the same time."
"So you can have the double of fun and so you do not have to ask if we can have kids" I smiled.
"I love you in any way, but during sex I want you to be you or at least the one I met inside of that silly mountain" She smiled at me "I also want to choose your clothes and use them for me, I wanna do your makeup and your hair. I want to eat random food with you, I want to draw and paint, I want to gamble with or against you" She started laughing "I just want to be by your side and have so much fun, and it does not annoy me to see you as a man, but I love your feminine body, I love your boobs, I love your ass, I love your figure or shape, I love your soft skin and touch your hair while touching your skin."
She really made me sighed and thought "What I did to deserve her?" but instead I only said "You are amazing, I love you" so I kissed her. I looked at her and realized she was a bit pale "Can you bring food for my future wife, please?"
The maid looked at me weird, I guess it was the first time into this story about same-sex love, but when she reacted said "Yes, my lady," and ran out.
"You can be a boy inside the castle, but whenever we go out to do something crazy, I want you to be a girl. Basically, you can only be a boy to be a king and maybe certain other things" Estella smiled at me.
I order the servants to treat her as the future Queen that she would be, and just being nice. Estella was like a dream, always being nice with everyone and happy, she was full of life, full of love, joy, she was like a little box filled with every feeling.
I let her have control over the kingdom and she started to make it grow, I was really happy and Impressed with how smart she was, she was really skilled using her mind and thinking about businesses and science, she also knew so much about medicine, and about minerals, she was able to think so much about how to use different stuff to make them useful for everyone. Estella even opened a school, she taught a lot of people to use medicine and how to help each other, she had everything in control but yet letting everyone be free.
I started to control everything around the world, I sent the bird to talk with everyone around, so I would be able to see everything was in order.
The sea was under control by the creatures in there and Chavi took the decision to go into the ocean and started his life.
"It is better for me to go, I need to meet everyone in the ocean and I need to think about what is gonna happen" He smiled.
"I am glad that I helped you a lot" so I hugged him "Now that you are already big enough, you can go by yourself everywhere."
Remy was doing his life with a girl inside the town, but he still did not look happy at all.
Nick decided to stay with us and Owin, as well.
Aether just ran out somewhere and it was the only thing I was worried about, but everything was getting under my control and I was decided to protect Estella.
I decided to study the Bible to get close to what people believe God thinks about our actions and I thought it was absurd. I started watching people getting close to the church and their actions were farther than they believe.
People sometimes fight for absurd reasons and I was tired of it, but Estella was always there to stop people and make them reasonable.
I was feeling like a potato head when I was compared to her but felt like a lucky potato when I remembered she was with me.
Once I saw her talking with another girl and sent a spider to heard what she was talking about until she finished.
I was getting bored with my life, even if everything was going pretty well.
"Why do you look so bored?" Estella asked me.
"Because there is nothing to do and all I do is to rule everything"
"Let's go to rest for a bit, ok?" she smiled at me and I nodded.
For some reason, I started having heavy dreams and cry during the nights. I begin to be more sensitive and when I was away from her I felt completely nothing.
Sometimes when Estella behaved coldly I just started crying, but she was always getting back to me, just to hug me said she was sorry even if it was not true, but she was always making me feel better just right after she said "It is fine, you are just overthinking again. You got this, baby." It was like eating ice cream in really hot weather.
She was always so considerate to me and I was always telling her how amazing she was "You are the most incredible woman on this planet."
"I remember when you told me that you have never been with a girl and I thought that sometimes instead of a boy, you just need another crazy girl," she kissed me "and so I found her"
I was so happy, everything started to be perfect, so I stopped dreaming, and I thought it was all. I thought everything was done, but I did not realize that too many and different people would still hate me.
I did not realize who was the one that betrayed me telling everything I planned to Aether, Estella was already good with everything, but my gut just repeated to me "this is not done."
I started to meditate and asked for answers, Estella was looking at me weird "It is fine, everything has done and we gotta started our life now."
"Baby, it is not done, I have not found out who is the betrayed."
She hugged me "We are together, that is all matter."
"But what if they try again? I cannot afford too many worries. I almost lose you, I was so afraid and everything was painful. I cannot see myself without you"
She kissed me "You can meditate and so do whatever, but you need to leave some time for me."
So, I did. After too many days without a response, they just asked me to get away from everything I have. I did not understand why.
They just started telling me my attachments were pretty bad, and they were a blockage for my soul, so for my destiny. I decided to block myself for Estella, I was not in a position to lose her again.
"You will regret it someday" the pain from my back disappeared "Your destiny will have a change for now" I felt weaker "For now, you will live as you decided and wished" I felt different "We will come back, but you will live normal from now."
I did not understand my dream, but after I woke up everything felt different. I hit myself with furniture and got a bruise "This is not good"
I understood, not until I let go of everything I will not get my powers back. "Is this a lesson??? or a cursed???" I was so confused "I am forced to do whatever you want????" I was shouting out desperately "AHHHHHHH!!! I will not be able to protect her if you take this from me."
"So... You should decide what is best, What you want or What you need."