What the hell did I do?! What in the living fuck did i do?! She's my boss. She's fucking married! I don't understand this, she seems so happy when she's talking about her wife, she brags about how beautiful she is all the time. I've seen pictures of her and she is stunning, if even that, (but I never go by her name.) So why the hell would she do that? My mind has been swirling all day and I couldn't consider it. My heart and my body just felt guilt, there was nothing else there but guilt. Guilt for her wife, guilt for myself. I am not a home wrecker and I never will be. I don't even give a damn if her wife finds out and hates me, I care because she might not find out, just living with a person who cheated on you and you never know. I would rather have her know and hate me.
God I can't take this.
I was sitting on my bed and just staring off into space. The events that took place last night have haunted me since I left her office. I left without saying a word because I was disgusted with myself that I enjoyed it. I enjoyed every feeling she gave my body, the pleasure she gave me. I hate that I loved it. She gave me something that I never thought I could get back, after Amy felt she also took my feelings. It took me a year but I finally stop crying over her and continue with my life, a life of pain and torture, a life where I will never let anyone in and feel that pain again. I closed myself off romantically from people, and I got terrified when I felt that wall crack when I was with Skylar. This cannot happen, especially with her.
I was supposed to be at work today but of course I didn't go, I kind of wanted to, to prove that I wasn't going to let what happened affect my job. But I was afraid of what would happen if we cross paths, the thought of being in the same elevator with her scared me, the thought of being in the same room with her, alone, horrified me. So I decided to just stay home today. I called in sick and the receptionist my friend Kate who told me to get better. Of course she knew I was lying but whatever she has no room to judge. I just needed time to myself with no one around me but the tv.
Speaking of, I need to catch up on some shows. I got up off my bed and went into the living room. I turned on the tv and clicked on Netflix and started my journey of laziness.
After about four episodes of Grey's Anatomy, 5 episodes of One Upon A Time and two episodes of One Day At A Time I started to get bored. I have been sitting here for more than five hours and I needed to get up. I sighed as I turned off the tv and went to my room to put on some leggings and a t-shirt with a light jacket. It was the middle of August so it was a perfect day for a run. I grabbed my keys and put on some shoes and left my apartment while also locking the door.
Once I stepped outside the August whether hit my face and I smiled. I always loved this season cause of all the leaves. I love how they would change to one color than another. I chuckled to myself as I thought about how a life of a leaf would be. Like the entire tree would be filled with green leafs and then one of the starts to to turn yellow and say 'im gay' and the family is like 'oh my gosh!' And then they start to turn yellow or brown or red. I continued to laugh at my thoughts. I started my run down the sidewalk. Thankfully there weren't that many people so I had plenty of room to do so. Once I got to the park I picked up my pace and continued down the trail. I put in my head phones and let the music take me away emptying my thoughts.
As I was running I felt someone near me but I didn't pay attention, this is a public park. I didn't mind until I felt there eyes on me, after about two minutes of this I started to slow down. I stopped to look at the person. She kind of looked familiar but I don't know why or from where. "Either You have something to tell me or you think I'm really pretty." She chuckled which almost made me fall, my knees became weak and I had to shift my weight to one of my legs.
"Well I saw a pretty woman with a nice ass running so I just had to come see the face. And I'm glad I did cause you are gorgeous." I smiled and chuckled.
"Well thank you." We stared at each other for a while and the more I stared the more the feeling of we have met appeared. "I'm sorry, have we met before. I just feel like we have." She chuckled.
"No we haven't. I would remember a pretty face like yours." She bit her lip and looked at mine. My whole body is on fire right now. "If You don't mind I would love to buy you a drink." She said it in less of a question and more of a you have to choice type of way. Which I loved. I smiled and nodded my head.
"I would love that." She smirked.
"Well then meet me at 'Joe's in a hour." She winked at me and continued her run. The entire time I stared at her ass as she ran, how is my ass nice, I mean it's big but that right there is what you call a 'magnificent round firm ass'. I guess she felt my stare cause she turned around and smirked at me. I blushed and ran the opposite. I guess my run had been cut short.
I ran all the way home with a smile on my face. I never did get her name.
Once I got back into my apartment I changed into some white jeans and a purple top. It was simple but hot, in my eyes at least. It took me about 45 minutes to get back so I should probably get going, it's like I don't want to be the last on there but I sure as hell don't want to be the first. I took my keys again and left my apartment for the second time today while locking the door. I decided to just walk today. I live in San Francisco so the traffic isn't the best.
Within ten minutes I was in sight of the little coffee shop. Joe's has always been one of my favorite places to go, anytime I needed coffee it was there for me. I used to work here so the manager knows me and she also has a little crush on me. Which I finally really nice cause when I want to flirt with someone she's always there. Her name is Layla, she's thirty-five and has an amazing body. Not that I care but she is gorgeous. Her smile is what always brought me here. We've never slept together but it won't be too long before we do.
I made my way into the building and smiled once I saw a woman from earlier. She was sitting in the chair that was furthest from the door. I saw that she already had a cup so I decided to grab one too. I walked up and saw a smiling Layla. "Hi beautiful. Finally come to your sentences?" I rolled my eyes.
"Trust me. You keep talking to me like that I will soon." She bit her lip and handed me a cup.
"The usual I presume."
"You didn't even know I was coming."
"It was a feeling."
"At least let me pay."
"People I sleep with don't pay."
"But we haven't slept together."
"Due time honey."
"Fine. But if that was the case your business would be out of order." Her eyes widened and she threw an empty cup at me. I chuckled and made my way over to the woman from earlier. I sat down in the chair and smiled towards the woman. She smiled back but she looked like it was forced and she was annoyed. Did I take too long?
"Looks like you and that woman know each other." I turned towards Layla who I saw glancing at us with a surprised look on her face.
"She was my boss when I worked here. We got pretty close."
"Did you sleep with her?" If I had the coffee in my mouth I would have spit out, thankfully there was none and I also didn't show I was fazed by the question.
"No we have not. But according to her 'it's only a matter of time'." I chuckled thinking of all the times she would say that. Honestly if she even tried I wouldn't deny it. She would always just leave me up to dry.
"Well do you want to?" I bit my lip and looked back over to Layla who was now completely staring at us without a care, pretty sure she's hearing everything we are saying.
"So do you usually run in the morning or afternoon?" She squinted her eyes at me. I dodged the question cause I did not feel comfortable answering it.
"I asked you a question."
"So did I." She crossed her legs and smiled.
"Usually in the morning but today I decided on the afternoon. Which I'm glad I did. Now, do you want to sleep with her?" I rolled my eyes. No way I'm getting out of this.
"Yeah I do." I heard a little chuckle to the side which made me roll my eyes. I knew she could hear us. The woman stared at me with a blank expression. Was that the wrong answer or something?
"Why?"
"Because everytime I'm horny she's there. I think she's the cause of me getting horny matter of factly." That last part was only meant for me but I'm pretty sure she heard it. "What's your name?" How the fuck did I go this long without knowing her name. She started collecting her stuff and pulled out a paper and pen. She wrote down something and then got up. She walked over to me but looked over her shoulder first to where I saw Layla. She slid the paper turned over towards me and leaned down. I didn't think much of it until I felt her lips on mine.
My brain went blank and I started to kiss back. Her tongue shoved its way inside my mouth which made me moan. She pulled away and brought my bottom lip with her. "Next time you're horny, call me." She kissed me one more time and left. I was stuck in place looking like an idiot.
I turned the paper over and saw a number with a name. Melanie. I put the name and number in my phone. All of a sudden I felt my arm being tugged making me stand up quickly. I realized it was Layla and calmed down a little. She pulled me into the back room and closed the door. I was getting ready to say something but she pushed me on the wall and started kissing me. I was shocked about what was happening that I didn't respond. "Kiss me back or I swear to God Madelyn." She growled at me. I moaned at her voice and kissed her back.
We roughly kissed for about two minutes until she shoved her fingers inside me. I moaned really loud which made her smile against my neck. She finger fucked me until I came three times. My body was on fire and my mind was everywhere. But there was only one main question.
What the fuck is up with this week?