Advance warning : - This next chapter is a little harder to deal with, please skip it if you can not deal with reading about violence or suicidal tendencies or abuse of any kind.
There is warnings on all the chapters that could be hard to deal with. This chapter is going to touch a subject that will be very hard to read. If you have ever been sexually assulted please this chapter is not for you.
Reader discretion is advised
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My love please don't do that, we can talk.
I am done talking David, you fucked up when you kidnapped me. What happened to asking girls out?
I tried my love.
What are you talking about? You never once asked me out! You barely talked to me which was fine!
He gave a smile and said it's been awhile but I did try to date you.
Awhile? I barely knew you.
But you knew Chris.
My heart sank, a name I hadn't heard in awhile. Chris??? he's been out of my life forever now...
I was him, but you didn't seem to like him to much.
Ummm yeah! once again you tried to force me into something I don't want. I don't want to be a mother, not now anyway, and you may remember everything but I know myself as Allis, I've only known this life and with this life I found someone who cares for my feelings and not just somebody to knock up because they have to!
We are bound to the end of time and you think I am just going to give up cause you fight me? Your wrong. But if you've thought of some way out of this please do share.
My way out is starting over. If I can't be with Steven I am done with this life. I don't want to be with you! I held the knife I grabbed and held it up against my wrist length wise.
Ahhhhhhh!!! he shouted in frustration. I don't want to start over again, it's just harder and harder as things go on. I just can't do this anymore I just need you to cooperate with me.
I dug the blade into my skin. The blood hit the floor I looked down and then looked back at David.
Anger wasn't the word to use. It looked far worse than anger but he had this look on his face like he wanted to kill everything. He no longer had any color to his eyes, they were pure black.
My love you've done bad. I told you to wait, and you just want it over without fully finishing talking. If you don't care then I'll have a little fun before you do. Then he grinned and held his arm out for me to hand him the knife.
I backed up into the door and started to reach for the handle with the knife out in a way that meant come near me and I'll stab you. He moved up against the blade it went into his side.
My love this will not kill me but if you want I'll leave this body.
I want you gone! forever! away from me.
He put his hand on the side of my face, I had tears all over. I didn't like the feel of his hand so I flinched, he did not like that he moved his hand to the back of my hair and pulled it, he pulled the knife out of my hands. He put the knife against my throat.
This is what you wanted my love? you wanted to die.
I pushed him away from me that cut me a little bit but it made him stumble back and drop the knife.
He lunged at me and my back hit the counter, the pain shot all over my body. I let out kind of a cry or a Yelp.
Sorry my love, I don't wanna break your back then you won't be able feel any of this.
My heart sank. My voice came out in a tone of pain. Feel any of what? You trying to kill me? I don't care if it's painful or painless, just get it over with!
He smiled, oh no. I meant what I am about to do.
My hands started to shake and I just kind of went into an automode flight stage. I kicked him in the nads (balls) and bolted to the door but he managed to grab my arm with his spare hand that wasnt holding his junk.
He slammed me against the bathroom counter and held down my head with his hand. With his other hand he starts unzip his pants, well struggling to pull down his pants. I tried to claw at him from behind and tried to kick him and that's when I felt his hand lift off my head and he reached into his pocket that was half way down his legs and pulled out a ribbon. He wrapped it around my wrist and then wrapped another one around my ankles. He stepped back for a second to take a look at what he had done and nodded this will do. and then pushed my head back against the counter as he bent me over it. He pulled down my pants and then my undies, I whimpered and cried for him not to.
If you do this to me, I won't ever love you, be with you, and to the end of time I promise you I will never have a child with you!
He laughed your not even going to remember this after you die. I've lost track on how many times now I had to force you.
I hate you!
He pushed him self up against my opening. I know you do Dawn.
I am not Dawn! I am Allis! The lights started to flicker.
Hold your breath my love the first time is always the hardest for you.
No, No, No! Then I felt it, him force his way inside me as I cried. He was huge! It didn't feel right at all and no matter how hard he tried he couldn't cum. He started to get frustrated and threw me to the ground.
Stop fighting me all the time Allis and just enjoy yourself for once.
I Honestly shut down. I felt like an empty shell. I had nothing left to my soul at least that how I felt.
He untied the ribbons and I fell to the ground, I couldn't hold my legs up with out the leaning on the counter.
I just wanted to actually die, not die on the inside alone. Now I feel nothing.