I am 19 now, my life isn't so bad. it's kind of normal now. I am scared of guys and I am bi, I prefer women but if a nice guy comes my way, I am okay with that to. I haven't dated since Chris though not any guys any way, and still a virgin at 19! I live with pixie in a house with 6 other roommates not from our work. 2 basement rooms, the living room converted into a bedroom, a bedroom on the main floor and 3 bedrooms upstairs. busy house but it works. pixie and I work at the large hardware store not far from our place. I have been working there a year and pixie for 3 years. we recently changed manger's. our new manger was a tall 6'4 man European man with a thick accent. I hadn't had a crush on a guy for a long time but this man was it. black hair down to his neck that he wore in a ponytail.
we talked a few times, but he was older then me and I thought I'd never have a chance.
one day he pulls me into the office.
he asks me if I wanted to go for coffee? I told him sure.
we talk and talk. I learn he has a normal up bringing and that he was in the army, and grew up with parents.
I didn't tell him much about myself but that was okay.
as we got to know each other we got more and more loss into each other.
a few months later ...
I go to work I am having a normal day till a crazy costumer starts yelling at me. he and his buddies were just looking for basic white paint, I tried to explain the different brands and they started yelling how a girl shouldn't work here and how I should know what basic was since, I am basic. Our manger Steven comes over and scares them away, telling them not to talk to the associates this way. they drop everything and leave the store. Steven had such a death stare, it scare a monster away. he invited me over for dinner and a movie.
I accepted.
we went to a movie first went out for dinner at a place close to his home. he had a drink so we walked back to his place, we both didn't have work in the morning, he invited me to stay the night. I told him sure.
he pulled out extra blankets and pillows he put them on the couch in the spare room and laid down.
I thought it was for me?
naw the beds more comfy, you can take that.
okay but I thought you were inviting me into your bed with you?
oh no, I didn't want you taking bus home at 1am and I can't drive you after drinking.
I am sorry I read this wrong.
he gave me a kiss on the forehead and told me another time when I can't take advantage of him well hes intoxicated.
I woke up next to him.
his morning glory rubbed against me.
my heart started to throb. I've never been with a guy and now...
he started to groan and wake up slowly smiling at me.
I am sorry you were crying In your sleep, I came to hug you to try and comfort you.
thank you but ummm your ... kind of .... hard against me.
oh sorry mornings.
I was blushing bright red as I rubbed against him.
ohhh please don't do that... I won't be able to help myself.
I kissed him as I purred takkkeeee me.
he groaned as he called me naughty.
he pulled his fingers under my panties to pull them down.
I was blushing so bad and whining that he stopped.
is something wrong?
no.... it's just I've never had sex with a man before.
your a virgin?
I haven't had anyone put anything inside me, no.
I'd really love if you'd be willing to try with me he said asking politely but if you'd like to wait, I am in no hurry to rush you.
I kissed him and he placed me gently on my back.
he slowly pushed himself in. which honestly hurt a lot more then I expected. everything hurt and I tried so hard to look like I was enjoying but he stopped and hugged me.
we can try another time, I can see this isn't comfortable for you.
no I am fine!
Allis, I am not going anywhere, we can try in a few days when you've healed.
I sighed and agreed with him, I only push myself because sometimes the only thing I can feel is pain and I mean at least it's something. but with him, there's a spark! a spark at life I haven't had in a while!