Three months ago all of that came to an end. He went form my protector to my predator. It was around 11:00pm when Brad got in an argument with his girlfriend who was back home in Virginia. He called me and asked me if I would take a walk with him around the campus so he can clear his head. So I went he was one of my best friends we told each other everything.
He was there for me when I was going through a problem I wasn't able to solve on my own. I wanted to repay his kindness and be there for him also. We walked around the campus until we got to the student support center which was in the middle of the campus. It was cold at night in the wind was blowing so we went up underneath the doorway.
We sat down and he talked about his problems and I listened. The time seemed to race by.
It was getting late. Brad I think we should head back in now. He slowly leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back. His lips were soft and warm.
I could feel him pulling my pants down. Hold on Brad I'm ok with kissing but, I'm not trying to have sex. I've only been with one person and I want the next person I give myself to, to be my husband. I'm sorry for moving to fast Nicole you just got me caught up in the moment. Just let me rub it that all I'm going to do. Is that ok with you? I nodded my head slowly.
We started kissing again and he began rubbing on me for a couple of minutes. Then I felt a change he was still rubbing on me but, it wasn't his fingers any longer.Brad stop I don't want to do this. He himself pushed into me, and said it'll be ok I'm only going to do it for a little while. Please stop please I don't want this. I started crying as he continued to thrust himself into me. I tried to push him off of me but, I couldn't.
All I could do was cry and wait till he was finished. When he was done he leaned over and kissed me on my for head. I'm sorry Nicole I couldn't control myself. You just felt so good. I could hear him talking but, I was in a daze I didn't fully understand what had happened. What did I just do?
He said that would be the last time, and twisted it like it was my fault. Sadly I believed him and poured all the blame on myself. I was too a shamed to tell anyone what happened. It wouldn't find the courage to do that until years later and when I realized that it wasn't my fault. I was finally able to call it rape.
After that he would just take it when ever he wanted it, and saying no only made him more forceful. All I could think about was how I could make it right. There had to be some way to fix what I had done. I didn't want people to think that I was a slut or that I was easy. He wasn't even my boyfriend.
That's when I made a decision. I would be his girlfriend that would make it better right? I mean He was just going to take it from me whenever he wanted it anyway. Fighting him only made things worse. When he gets what he wants he can be really sweet and I'd rather deal with the sweet side of him.
Plus who would believe me everyone loved him. He was fine and all the girls were chasing after him. Why would he chose to take something from me. When he could get it from any girl he wanted willingly. The last time I went to school about a problem they didn't believe. I didn't want to be seen as the girl who called wolf.
That's how I ended up here In a truck with a guy who had a crush on me and the guy who wants me to kill our child. If I knew back then what I know now I would have never made that choice.
Is this the place ? Chris asked Brad. Yeah that's what it said on the directions. We pulled up to older looking building that didn't have the name anywhere on it.
Chis turned to me and said are you sure you want to do this? Do you really trust this place. Yeah I'll be fine thanks for bringing us here. He seem very hesitant to let me go but, what could he do I had already made my choice. Me and Brad got out the truck and walked up to the door.