for many reasons I don't feel comfortable to share. I will be dropping this story. I am not in an environment that supports my hobby. My private life caught up and stabbed me. I don't feel the creative urgency to keep continuing this story. I am 100% positive that I will never pick it up again.
So... To not keep you hanging. What was the plot. The main character in his initial world has a condition called DID(previously known as multiple personality disorder), one of the reason why he became a host is to collect his soul fragments which were his other people(?) in him. The ML is just the first person MC fall in love with. This arc was going to talk about how are a person that was r!ped or abused as a child goes through their daily life and how they overcome the trauma. This was also a way for me to tell people how depression and self harm is not cute. It dives in different disorders such as BPD and Anorexia. I wanted to make this arc personal to me as I know how it felt and just spread the message. But now I will not continue. I am not really ready to share why but I will be gone. I feel like I've hit rock bottom and I am pretty sure I won't touch my computer of phone for a pretty long time. This was going to have a Happy ending. I already planned all 10 arcs in my notebook but I kinda destroyed it on a moment of anger and resentment. I am not going to be free, I will be really busy with my life, I just turned 18, I am not in a good age to take care of someone. And in these years I would learn and continue learning but my journey writing this story will end here. I am sorry. I hope you understand my reasons. No this story didn't trigger me it's just some stuff with my family and community I am dealing with.
Goodbye and I hope wherever you are, you will achieve your goal and be happy. I am officially going to delete this account and if I can I would delete this story.
Don't forget to stay healthy and happy
much love
-Kaiji Sasaki