i leave hand!
he: hum..ok i am seriously leaving
me:(rubbing neck) who want you to stay with you! go fast!
he: fine!
he leave i take deep breath! watching him you can say admiring him. its just difficult to understand my fillings for him
i mean i want him close to me but his presence make me uncomfortable. i want to fill him but his touch make me shiver, i want to open up with him but i am scared of rejection. i want to walk towards him but i am taking my steps backword. i want to love him but still try to hate him.
why i am even doing this. is it because i am just bet? or i am scared to fall in love! ehy i am even like this! (i was thinking while admiring him i only can do this one thing perfectly! until hid eyes met with me and his eyes once met with me (i think its not his just beautiful eyes but its maths test paper for me who i am never able to pass! ) hum...how adorable he is. wow when his lips curved into little right arrowed smrink likr smile he look like masterpiece of god.( wow his still smiling i just cant takr off eyes from him)
but....BUT when his smile wided his smile turned into smrink make me shiver in fear! (like right now)
here....
he: (she was staring at me i can fill that even i am not glancing at her it doesnt mean i am not watch on her or i dont care about her or i am careless about her. i am still carefull about her but her gaze make me shy! and i cant contr9l except make her heart beat increase for me!
i without any idea turn to her with my iconic smrinky smile with playful eyes hey no bad intentiom just want to make her heart crazy! its a good intention okey! its not bad at all!
but she suddenly fall down from slippery road (uff this clumcy girl) i run to her moment i saw her fall down wait yah i am lieing. actually when she fall down i want to laugh but i was worried and mad also! and confused also first i let my mind process and then run to her wanted to scold her but i just dont want to scold now! so i take deep breath and ask her
me: are you fine!
she: hum.. yes its just normal for me (WOW! NORMAL, i selute mind of this girl to say normal to this. NORMAL! lucky her she is not in real world with me! i want to scold her bad but no her eyes just chill down my anger and i forget to scold her ! i again take deep breath)
me: normal? so falling on floor is normal for you? or hurting yourself is normal?
she: well both are normal
( i am slaping myself mentally for asking her this! i dont think hurting will be normal for you! )
me:(while garbing her hand) well just walk carefully miss clumsy!
she: fine now you can leave for your job
me: job?
me: your bodyguard of her go and protect her (girl when i even sign up for job of bodyguard! wait is she jelous?)
me: are you jelious? or angry
she: wow copy paste my quetion on me! and jelious on you ha ha nice joke
me: really so your not jelious
she: not at all!
me: fine you look okey also. okey i should protect her anyways she is beautful also!
me: yah yah she is! go na why your still here
me: if you wish to remove grip on my shirt so i can
she:(realising grab my shirt) now go!
he: are you sure ?(i ask her when i saw her nevrous but sad face maybe wait...sure to be jelious face i am waiting for her answer when she say stay but NO! THIS STUBBORN GIRL JUST HOLD BACK. i stop smileing and turn back to leave but shuddenly i again start hoping she stoped me when she grab my hand but... )
she: hum..
me: ok.
i try to walk but she grab my hand
he: (turn back) hum what? (i ask her with smile but madam is expert in damn HOLDING BACK! i just HATE when she hold back. no one just litrally no one do this with me! my beast won'nt let someone do this! i always got what i want why dont you just accept! who the hell are you huh! but my damn beast melt front of her! agh! i should be clamed! )
she:(releasing) nothing! (whats wrong with her! )( our eyes again met and i forget my anger she can clam down monster inside me. why even my monster want to hide from stubborn girl like her! anyways her eyes can clam me and i clam down i get next to lisa to make her jelious and as i planed i can still fill her gaze on me i again start shy and start controling my smile and turn to her )
but this time with complete smrink and her eyes wided and madam.....