Calm down I kept on reciting the same word over and over again in my head
"This is it" i whisper as i turn to the next page of the magazine I've been reading for the past 15 minutes. Today is my entrance exams and if i don't get in i might have to take famira help on getting me that internship. Famira was freaking out this morning which just made me panic more, most of all i knew coming here was a bad idea. mother wasn't pleased by my decision but was she ever? all i know is that i have waited for this opportunity since forever. The truth is after papa left us everything hasn't been the same mom stays in the room whole day feeling sorry for herself i just can't take it anymore. i cannot take the pity stares and the looks of sorrow pass strangers eyes when they learn the truth of my life. I decided to leave not to neglect my responsibilities but because i needed to have a break i will go back because i don't abandon my duties unlike my mother. i am just going to escape reality by studying for a couple of years. i am so grateful famira has accepted me whole heartedly she has been a like sister i never had even with out big age gab difference. she is my gradfathers sisters daughter (on my fathers side) we arre far relatives.
while my mother drowed in her sorrows feeling sorry for herself i had to learn to defend myself yes maybe i failed at it terribly but famira stepped in my life 2 years ago picking me up whenever i needed to be. not that her talks helped much since i had anxiety and most of her talks consisted of religious beliefs which i failed to believe i still appreciated the gesture of her trying to help.
famira has been through alot with her cheating ex husband thank god she is free from that ridiculous relationship or should i say prison.
"Miss Aurora your presence is requested" the middle aged woman calls me from her white oak desk smiling giving be a thumps up "you got this miss just be confident" I give the middle aged woman a small nervous smile and nod as walk towards the door she pointed me towards. that smile was all i could muster up to do my nervousness would not let me say a word. I walk inside the examination room trying to think positive thoughts then maybe a good outcome would be manifested instead my brain decides to think the opposite me.