Wil Pov
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" Don't cross the line Wil ".
That's what the tall man said to me.
Ha..ha..ha cross the line? What line? Brother line, friend line?.
Very funny when he was the one who made me cross the line.
" If you don't want me to cross the line then why treat me so well?, ...why help me pay my father's debt which is not a small amount ?..... Why take care of me when I have a fever? .... why are you angry when I'm on a blind date?.... why take me to a fancy restaurant?....and you, the respectable CEO why bother fetch me and picking me up a pitiful gay man from work every day?... Just why? ".
" I thought you as my brother and friend ".
" But I don't want to be your brother or friend "
I'm a human being. I have a heart and feeling when someone unconditionally treats me kindly and gently. How can I not be shaken?
I can never see him like an older brother or friend he gave me warmth, take care of me, he made me comfortable, he saved me many times when nobody does and I felt safe around him.
" We can only be friends, Wil. Nothing more, nothing less ".
Yeah, keep denying that San Tippuchai. Obviously you have feelings for me but don't want to admit it. I don't know what you are afraid of.
Did I just mention his name? Yes,
His name is San Tipputchai, a young CEO of the Sun group. He is 185 cm tall, fair skin , good looking and cool unlike me 174 cm, a bit tan, average looking, and not cool at all.
San likes to wear suits. I really like San wearing white because he looks like a prince with his height from the manga.
San saved me several times, first at the bar from strangers, second still at the same bar from my ex-boyfriend and third you will found out in the story later.
San has a girlfriend named Jann. Jann died 3 years ago because of cancer.
Jann is a beautiful woman, why did I know? whereas I never met Jann? That's because San showed me Jann's photo he still keeps all of Jann's belongings with him. I guess he still can't forget her.
I never thought of replacing Jann's position or anyone in San's heart.
I just hope that San can open his heart to other people even though that person is not me. He shouldn't have stayed in the past.
According to his grandmother, San never brought anyone else home besides me. Can't I have hope? Even though it's only a little?.
His grandmother said San might have feelings for me because according to San's grandmother after Jann died San never cared about someone as he cared about me.
At first, I didn't believe it but along the time San's attitude towards me was very different that's why I confessed my feelings for him today but did you hear what he said ?!.
He told me don't cross the line. To be honest, San had warned me before to not fall in love with him because he didn't like men but I didn't listen to him instead make myself fall deeper into him. I deserve it. I'm so pathetic, aren't I?.
Since he said we can only be friends nothing less, nothing more
I don't think I should hang on the same tree.
Even though I have to sell my body I will pay all my debts then disappear from before him.
You can't just stay in the same spot where it makes you pain.
" If you say so, please do not interfere in my business anymore, even though I die outside, please don't care about me ".
" You know I can't ".
Did you hear that? This selfish bastard.
" Don't make me hate you San ".
After saying that. I took my cellphone and dialed someone's number " Hello P, where are you? let's have a drink tonight I miss you ".
I don't care about the person in front of me, I turn around and walked away and I also don't know how is San's expression right now.
I want him to see how far I can go.
And also
I want him to rub salt into his own wound.
Back in the days.
* Crash *
The sound of broken goods. My boyfriend threw things in our room. heard I did not agree to break up.
I don't understand why have to break up? Our relationship is fine and I always give him money on time.
" Why break up P? ".
" You really don't understand? ". My boyfriend glared at me.
I shook my head.
" You're poor now. Your father's company already bankrupt ".
" But I can work hard to get money for you P ".
" Can you have a bit of pride for yourself? ".
What can I do? I love him. He is my first love and my first boyfriend.
In this life meeting people you love are not easy especially that person is willing to be with you.
People like us don't expect to get perfect love. We just want someone to love us sincerely.
Do you think I want to be born like this? No, I don't want, if possible I want to live like a normal person marrying a woman and having children but I can't choose. In fact, this is the life for me
" Don't you love me P ? ".
My eyes are getting hot.
" Listen to me Wil Wiltiakorn, I never love you, and I dated you because of your money. You are so disgusting, You know? " My boyfriend pointed my head.
My whole world collapsed. Really cruel. The tears didn't stop falling.
" I'm getting married next week, come if you are free ". My boyfriend added.
I immediately sat down on the floor my whole body feels weak.
Then my boyfriend packs all his belongings and leaves me on my condo alone.
Very painful
One week I calmed down, yes even though the pain was still there but life must go on. I can't because of a man I give up on my life. I want to live better than now.
The condo that I live in is given by my father because there are many memories with my ex-boyfriend so I decided to move back with my parents. Since my father's company went bankrupt. We moved to a smaller place.
I just stepped on my foot into the house my father brutally beat me I don't even know what is going on?.
" Mercy, Po " I begged in pain.
My father never lay his hands on me or my mother but today.
While kicking me my father said
" I don't raise you to like men ".
I was shocked my father knew it.
He beat me harder the pain spread all over my body.
" Po mercy please ".
Then my father stopped he throws his phone in front of me.
My vision is not very clear. But I know it is a photo of me kissing my ex-boyfriend.
Who is so cruel sent that photo to my father?.
It turns out that my ex-boyfriend's girlfriend who sent that photo to my father
If that day my mother didn't save me maybe I was beaten to death by my father.
From that day on my father totally changed into another person.
He no longer loves me. He saw me as a disgusting thing. I'm really sad.
I just know people's heart changes so easily.
No one truly loves me Wil Wiltiakorn even my own father.