It can't always be my fault. No matter what happens. Mom I didn't come over here for this. I'm here to check on you make sure everything good. Well your in my house. Okay so you want to hangout today girls day? sure alright lets go. it's been 5 hours sense I picked her up. we have done all her errands and took care of all her needs and wants. I just don't understand all I do. I could see if I haven't always been there for my mom but I have. You know that saying woman raise their daughters and baby their boys? That's my mom the words she uses to describe me. makes my heart hurt and it's makes me mad. You know how you don't want throw stuff up in people face. no that's just me? ok well i don't. I will do anything for anyone. Well if your holding up a sign on the side of the road. I will buy you food or clothes. It's just ashamed how she does me. it doesn't hurt like it used to. it used to really tear me down. Even though I knew I wasn't selfish, arrogant, conceited, evil,bully, aggressive, annoying, jealous. All of those words don't none of them describe me. well I guess anyone can be annoying at times. I have always had my mom but my brother her pride and joy. Yes that type entire time we are out it's the Anita's ain't shit show and oh my wonderful son. I will be wrong if I would've said but can you depending on him. It's lot when you see someone give their all to one adult kid who doesn't put any effort in. How is that right am I wrong to feel some type of way about that? Wow didn't realize I was crying well at least Tim let me borrow his car so I'm alone. it would be so embarrassing to have to explain what I'm feeling.