Gaining sympathy from other as a form of existence as well as outsmarting in return to feel fulfilled.
He casually walks inside the store smile at the guard then brought a basket as if going to shop then picks up the thing he really needs but an urge is silently rising up inside him as if a force that slowly rise up in him strong enough that he can't stop himself.
He picks up an item and instead of putting it in the cart it directly went in his bag that even if how much you look inside there would not be evidence. He slowly calms his nerves and walks away as if nothing happens and this repeated several times until the guard found him suspicious enough which lead for him to be taken to the management office and questioned.
"Good afternoon Mister, our Security Guard has observed that you did theft in our store for so many times and today he had finally caught you with evidence. Do you have anything to say for yourself?"
"A good afternoon to you too Miss but it seems like this Security Guard is just highly suspicious of me and as you have said he did not have any evidence that could prove the theft. Is there?"
"Mister then how would you like to explain this evidence found in your bag?"
"Oh I merely forgot to put them in the basket. I really do want to try this product as you can see today I had my salary return for my overtime so I wanted to buy this as celebration, would you believe if I explain it this way?"
The manager eyed the Security guard as if she was embarrass by the current situation since the thief seems to be convincing enough and look like someone with moral. Unknown to her the thief smile slightly since the woman in front seems to believe and clearly sympathize with him. Showing a slight disappointed face to her and a wronged face to the guard he was release and he paid for his purchase.
On his way out he saw again the Security Guard greeting him but when he was ten steps away he turned back and smirk to the security guard and said "I really did it" then walks away.
This behavior how did he come to be? As someone who grow up in the street it was one of the tricks he learned since the strongest will have to be the ruler same as survival of the fittest in the jungle where the street is the jungle and the whoever is the wittiest that could bring more money means he would have food to fill his stomach for several days and if they could not make it to the quota they would receive no food and a harsh beating.
Lucky for him after he was in detention after being caught an elderly couple took pity on him and decided to treat him as their son. Letting him have their surname and send him to school in which as return for them he work hard and graduated with honors and found a good workplace where he was promoted early due to his hardworking nature. Though some theft happen during those periods of time he was never implicated because of how other view him as well as how he could always divert the attention of anyone doubting his innocence.
He brought flowers and went the cemetery where the elderly couple remains rest then he confesses of the crime he does today just like every time he does something wrong. The couple already knows of this illness as they call it and has always been the one who would always remind him to be disciplined and never let his emotion get to him which would lead for his emotion to out of bound but ever since he they died there is no one that would remind him of the goodness he has in himself and it seems like only both of them seems to have the capability to control his emotion maybe since he knows that they accept him and really love him as their only kin.
No matter how much he suppress himself he seems to be just a monster who was waiting to be unleash under with no one that could understand him and since he was intelligent enough he could not be implicated unless he does an unforgivable crime where enough evidence is pointing directly at him where he would not do since he has been raise properly.
Arriving at his place he relaxed and went through what has been happening these past few days where his consciousness is slowly turning dark and it seems like he could not control his self as time pass by. Looking around the house he decided to have himself check with a Psychiatrist as to have control himself since he promised his parents that he would live a peaceful life and look for a wife who would understand him as a human being with something broken inside. With these thought he asked for a leave in work and made an appointment for a consultation.
In the hospital he learns find hope of being cured, that he was not the only person in the planet who is suffering from mental disorder and the first step of cure is accepting that you are sick in which you need help. He hopes that as human being we should not give up on someone but try our best to be able to understand their situation and not directly judge them as an unfixable broken thing with no use for the society.
Effortless as other thinks but the process they have to undergo to be able to control something that is embedded inside them. Just like stopping someone from talking something that they had learned since childhood which would lead someone crazy if forced or suddenly stopping a smoker to not smoke for a day where most people will experience moodiness and irritability and severe headaches as the body readjusts.
Asking for help is normal since we are humans and we cannot do everything on our own.