Ardian took a deep breath, with a feeling that he no longer knew what kind of sorrow was in his heart.
"Thank you, Zan, for the information." said Ardian as he closed Zanna's call.
With a hollow heart, Ardian took ablution and performed prayers to calm his heart.
Ardian's eyes closed with a heart that was praying seriously to let go of the pain into a sense of sincerity.
Everything that happened Ardian returned to God who controls every human heart.
After several hours of sitting silently in prayer, Ardian returned to his bed trying to close his eyes.
But before his eyes fell asleep Ardian's cell phone rang, there was Nayla's name there.
Without making Nayla wait for a long time, Ardian received Nayla's call.
"Assalamualaikum, yes Nayla." said Ardian taking a deep breath.
"Waalaikumsalam, Mr. Ardian." replied Nayla there.
"What's wrong Nay, it's late ... you haven't slept yet?" Ardian asked attentively.
"Can't sleep sir, thinking about tomorrow's wedding, have you completed the conditions, sir?" asked Nayla again as if there was a burden in her voice.
"It's finished Nay, I've explained everything to your parents." Ardian replied trying to calm down.
"Then how about a way out after we get married?" asked Nayla carefully.
"I've submitted a request to resign this month." Ardian replied with a chest that felt even more tight when he remembered Zanna's words.
"Why did you have to come out, sir? is there no other way? did you know this?" Nayla asked with fear that her father would be angry with her.
"There's no way anymore Nay, I can't afford to go back and forth from town to village, my condition does not allow for that, your father already knows and leaves all decisions to me as the head of the family later." Ardian explained slightly limply.
"Thank God, sir, if you're not angry, have you eaten?" asked Nayla, who intended to go to Ardian's house to send food.
"It's been this afternoon, not tonight ... why Nay?" asked Ardian, who was forced to not eat because Ummah came home late.
"I went to your house, right? food is still a lot here." said Nayla with a bad feeling because Ardian had to give up his job for her sake.
"It's night Nay, what's not a bother?" Ardian said with a heart that gradually lost his pain.
"It's still eight o'clock in the evening sir, let me go there now, sir." said Nayla then turned off the call.
Ardian stared at his cellphone which had ended the call.
"I don't know what's in your heart Nay? I hope that someday there will be your love for me, even though I'm not sure I can still live or not." muttered Ardian as he put his cellphone on the table.
Ardian came out of his room after hearing a knock on the outside door and opened the door for Nayla.
"Nayla, I'm so troublesome for you." said Ardian after Nayla entered the house.
"It's okay sir, rather than at this food house no one eats." said Nayla while taking out the food box from the plastic bag.
"Just eat inside Nay." said Ardian, taking over the bush under Nayla.
Ardian and Nayla walked into the kitchen which became one with the dining room.
Nayla took one plate and one spoon, then took a few spoons of rice and vegetables with one piece of fried chicken.
"Please eat, sir." said Nayla after giving Ardian a plate of rice.
Slowly and without speaking, Ardian ate slowly the rice that Nayla had prepared.
Nayla stared into Ardian's face, who was focused on his food.
Seeing Nayla staring at him in such a way made Ardian a little nervous.
"What's up Nay? is there something strange on my face?" Ardian asked when he finished eating while grabbing a glass of water.
"Your face is very handsome." Nayla answered honestly, making Ardian choke on his drinking water when he heard Nayla's answer.
Immediately Nayla took a tissue and cleaned Ardian's chin which was wet with water.
Ardian's reflex hands were about to grab the tissue that was held by Nayla, accidentally grabbed the back of Nayla's hand.
Nayla stared at Ardian, on the other hand, Ardian returned Nayla's gaze with a shady gaze.
Nayla let go of her hand after realizing for a moment the hand Ardian was holding.
"Em ... sorry sir, make you choke because of what I said." said Nayla, a little embarrassed because she told the truth that Ardian was indeed handsome.
"It's okay Nay, thank you for complimenting me ... this is the first time I'm praised by a woman." Ardian said honestly because he rarely interacted with women in the sense of being close to a woman.
"Really sir? I can't believe that there are no women who praise you." said Nayla who again felt comfortable when talking with Ardian.
"Almost non-existent, because I have no close female friends." said Ardian honestly.
"So, so far you have never dated?" asked Nayla with a chuckle still in disbelief at Ardian's answer.
Nayla had once heard that one of her female teachers liked Ardian when he was a substitute teacher.
"Never Nay, and why are you laughing?" asked Ardian who felt strange seeing Nayla laugh out loud at him.
"So why is Mr. Ardian never dating, even though I heard that there was an image that you had a crush on you." asked Nayla curiously.
"Because I only love you Nay, from when you were in middle school until now." Ardian replied as he looked into Nayla's face.
Nayla's face flushed red, not expecting Ardian's answer which made her feel guilty because she couldn't repay Ardian's love.
"I really don't believe it sir, how can you love me who is not beautiful and not the same age as you, especially since junior high school I still don't understand anything." said Nayla trying to calm her heart.
"I don't know Nay either, it's not like love doesn't need a reason?" Ardian replied staring at Nayla's face.
"Em, but unfortunately I've loved Kenzo since first grade high school and Kenzo is my first love sir, like you can't forget your feelings of love for me.." replied Nayla trying to be honest with Ardian about her feelings.
"I know Nay, until now you still love Kenzo, and want to live with him, but fate says else we will get married tomorrow, I hope there is still a chance for me to make you love me." said Ardian earnestly.
"About feelings, I'm the same person as you, it's not easy to turn to another love, sir, but I promise you until the next five months I will try to be a good wife, except having sex like husband and wife, because I can not turn away from Kenzo's love, I hope you understand what I mean." said Nayla who couldn't lie to herself.
"I understand Nay, very much." Ardian said softly, burying a heartache.
***
Ardian and Nayla's hidden marriage went smoothly without any obstacles at the KUA village office.
As everything had become God's destiny, Ardian fluently took the wedding vows. And Nayla has listened to everything. All of Nayla's dreams disappear to be side by side with the man she loves, Kenzo.
"Congratulations Nay, now that you have become Mrs. Ardian ... remember that Nay! Mrs. Ardian." said Zanna in Nayla's ear.
"Yes ... Zan, I know .. thanks for reminding me." said Nayla in a whisper too.
With a heart that repeatedly expressed his gratitude, Ardian approached Nayla's parents and asked for blessings.
"Father ... Mother, if there is no obstacle today we will immediately move to a city close to this village, I try to do it once a week for me and Nayla to visit Mom and Dad." Ardian said with a slightly pale face, having missed his dialysis schedule.
"Don't be too bothered Ardian, the most important thing is to take care of your health, not to drop it again." said Sasongko to Ardian.
"And you Nayla, remember what Dad said if you want to reach heaven ... you have to obey everything your husband says, do not hurt your husband's heart, fulfill all your husband's requests including your obligation to serve him." Sasongko said to Nayla, who stood silently in front of her parents.
Nayla's heart raged with everything on her mind, between her feelings of love for Kenzo with her obligations as the wife of an Ardian who has now legally become her husband.
"You didn't hear Nay, what Dad said?" Sasongko asked again when he saw that Nayla was daydreaming.
"Yes Daddy, I heard everything you said." Nayla replied in a low voice.
"OK Daddy, may I ask permission to take Nayla home so she can pack right away?" Ardian asked, staring at Sasongko and Mother Nay in turn.
"All right, Ardian, but don't forget before leaving for the city to stop by our house first." Sasongko replied with a feeling that Ardian could not bear to live in the city alone.
"Yes father, excuse me first, Assalamualaikum." Ardian said to Nayla's parents, then took Nayla's hand and took her out of the KUA office. Ardian slowly drove the car straight to his house to pack up and be able to move to the city as soon as possible.
Arriving at Ardian's house, Nayla immediately went downstairs and entered the room to change into her usual clothes.
Ardian rested his body leaning on the sofa chair while waiting for Nayla to change clothes in the bathroom.
Ardian's face grew paler with his body feeling weak if he was late for his dialysis schedule.
Nayla, who had come out of the bathroom, was a little surprised to see Ardian leaning back on the sofa with his eyes closed.
"Sir, are you sick?" Nayla asked, feeling Ardian's face, which looked pale.
"I missed the schedule for Nay's dialysis, it should be this morning." Ardian replied honestly with his lips already pale.
The pain Ardian felt in his stomach area made Ardian groan in pain.