When I put down my arms, I immediately reached for her hands that were holding mine and immediately hugged her. I can't explain how I felt. I was shaking and suddenly weakened. I feel like a dog that wants to be petted so bad. I look like a dog who can't hold the eagerness of smelling it's owner.
I am longing for this. I am so eager for the warmth of the woman I love. I knew it.. I was right. She's still here.
" Cess! I missed you! I missed you so much! Where did you go? How are you? Do you eat well? You didn't answer any of my calls and messages."
I immediately cried when our bodies had a contact for a moment. I have been waiting for this for a long time. For me, a day that I haven't seen her is worth a week long.
Cess:" Ohhh! babe! Why are you crying again?" she said as she laughed.
"What do you think? Of course I'm ok. And we're okay. You don't have to worry about me. The important thing is, we are together now.
"What!? I can't help it! Every time I see you, I just can't control myself but to cry. Did you know how worried I was? Not a second had passed that I wasn't thinking about you! Everytime I take a shit, I was thinking of you! Everytime I were taking a bath, I was thinking of you! There was not a second I didn't think of you. Just why did you suddenly disappeared ?! "
This time, I hugged her tighter. I felt that she also hugged me back tightly. It was as if we were glued to each other.
If only I could have the ability to stop time at a moment like this. I want to feel the hug of the person I love even if it takes a few more years.
Cess: Babe! Didn't I tell you, no matter what happens, you wouldn't lose me! I am just here next to you and I will watch you over for the rest of my life. I know you are having a hard time and It is also hard for me, but we can't do anything with our situation. But please always remember that I will never leave your side, I promise.
"Thank you cess ... but .. Why did you suddenly disappeared? I wanted to visit you to apologize to your mom and dad for what happened. How are they? I think they're still mad at me. Just like you, I also lost contact with them and they never spoke to me since then. I was worried that they might do something to seperate us" I said as tears run down my face.
Cess: "Pau .. don't even think about that. No matter what happens, I will never go out of love with you. Don't ask too many questions, okay?"she said with a worried face. "You're drunk and you're being talkative! Come here, I wanna hit you" Cess said jokingly to lighten up the mood.
Cess immediately let go of the hug and pulled me to the passengers seat. I forgot that I was shaking so I suddenly fell down. I got weak not only because I drank so much but also because of the eagerness to feel her warmth again.
Cess: You're drunk and you can't drive so I'll do it. 4 bottles are your limit and you are aware of it! And why do you keep on drinking? Look at you..You can't even handle yourself.
I laughed at what she said.
"Wow! What do you think of your boyfriend? Weak? I can even drink a few more bottles! I wouldn't even get drunk" I said knowing I can't really do what I just said her
"Ok fine, you drive. Just be careful, okay? I'll haunt you when you get us into trouble.
After I spoke, she didn't bother to answer. I just stared at her as she was getting ready. Why is she so beautiful? I can smell her perfume every time she parts her hair. Her long eyelashes that ants can even live there. Her eyebrows are thick and natural. Unlike to those who draw their eyebrows. I'm lucky that she chose to love me.
Before the car starts, I couldn't control myself and immediately grabbed her hand that was holding the gear and spoke.
"Cess?"
Cess: What is it, babe?
"You know how much I love you, right?"
Cess: Of course babe! I would definitely know as you already told me that thousand times already in just a day. I love you so much!
She answered me accompanied it with a smile. Shit .. Why is this person so lovely? I no longer want anyone or anything over her. I can even sacrifice myself just for this person. Let's just say that I love her more than anything else.
"So maybe, you can now tell me what's our situation is, exactly. Why is this... Why are we like this?"
I couldn't finish what I was saying as she suddenly squeezed my hand and slowly put her face closer to mine.. I could not move. She began to tighten up the gap between our faces until our lips were almost touching.
She smiled foolishly and spoke
"I love you"
I was surprised and would have answered but she suddenly started kissing me ...
The moment our lips met, tears immediately welled up in my eyes while my heart was pounding heavily.
And when our kisses got more intense, I was getting weaker and weaker. I was shaking and can't even move. I just let her kissed me. This is exactly how I felt when I had my first kiss. This is how wild the Cess I know. I missed these kind of moments so much.
I closed my eyes
And for some reason ...
Instead of joy and excitement, I felt so much heaviness on my chest. It was as if my heart had been trampled on.
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