"Did you forget that!!..you are not allowed to love.."
Shiha was slightly trembling.. She mustard a lot and answered.. "I didn't said.. I love him.. I said 'I like the way he cares.' it didn't mean I love him."
Shiha was standing in the centre of the huge hall, which has mirrors all over the walls. She was surrounded by herself.. Her own reflections..
From her behind.. The voice came..
" haaa.. Its good! You know your place. " said one of her own reflection.
The other reflection joint in..
"of course, she knows it very well.. How can she dream of loving.. She don't have that right.."
Shiha turned around.. Only to face her reflection.. She was mute.. She don't know what to say..
From the side the voice came.. "Indeed she don't have that right.. In fact she don't deserve it."
"hnn..she can only be the cause of the destruction.."
Shiha again turn around.. Her eyes were filled with tears..she held her head tightly.. "No.. No.. I also want someone to love me.."
"hnn.. So that! That person either dies or leaves you.." came the voice from her right side.
The other voice followed from her left side.. "Still you are not satisfied.. Still you want to kill more people.."
"hnn..you are so selfish.. Such a selfish person don't deserve to be loved"
"yes.. And they don't have a right to love someone.. Your love is not good for others.."
"Did you forget.. Your love is the bad omen for others.. It will only bring the destruction.."
"you were unlucky and you will always be unlucky.."
"Did you forget.. How people blame you. Held you responsible. criticize you.. You were unlucky for the Tang family."
"you are ill-fated.. You have jinxed everyone around you."
"Don't say!! After destroying the Tang family.. You want to destroy other families too.."
"hnn.. You have already destroyed so many lives.."
"hmm.. That's why.. Either people abandoned you or left you alone.."
"they choose death over you! Money and power over you!! BUT.. They never choose YOU.. Just think about this."
"after all these.. Still you want to love someone.."
"Shiha.. Still you have strength to bear the consequences.."
"you know what will be the consequences of your Love.."
"You are not that selfish shiha.."
All her reflections.. Kept attacking on her continuously..
Shiha kept turning around and around.. Sometimes to her left, sometimes to her right.. Sometimes back..
She held her head tightly.. She keel down.. "Why Me.. Why.." whispered shiha..
The scenario changed..
Shiha was thrown outside of the house..
"Don't you dare to enter this house." said the lady..
Little shiha stood up.. She dust her clothes.. She blinks and try to not let her tears fall down..
"But.. I want to.." before she completes her sentence..her sentence was cut in.
"Didn't you hear.. After hearing those things.. Still you want to be the block to his success.."
Little shiha turned around.. And run away on her rabbit legs. She kept mumbling to herself.. "I got abandoned again... No one loves me.. No one.."
Again the scenario changed into the mirror place.. "Yes.. No one loves you. All the people around you choose to abandoned you. And you have to accept it. All this years you have accepted it."
"shiha you have to face it.. That's what the truth is."
"Truth will never change.. You were abandoned from the day you were born.."
" You were desolate!!!.. "
" You were forgotten!!"
" You were deserted!"
" You were voided.. "
"shiha.. There is no love in your destiny.."
Shiha jolted from her sleep.. She look around, She sat on bed. She wipe the sweat and took few deep breaths. And took look at the wall clock.
It was 3:00 am. Still the wee hours of the morning.. 'huhh.. Again those nightmares.' she took a glass of water from the bedside table. She drank it.
She tries to sleep back.. But! She can't.
At last! She took her laptop and gets online. She read Lin mia's message about the new collection. She replied to her.
Right now Lin mia was busy inside the kitchen. She was preparing the dinner. Just then she heard the notification. She wipe her hands and took her cell phone. When she saw shiha's name.. She took a peek on time.. 'Its eight o'clock here.. Means over there.. She should be sleeping right now. Why is she online right now.'thought Lin Mia.
Mia gave a call to shiha. As shiha answered it.. Mia bombarded.. "why you are not sleeping right now??..what are you doing in the middle of the night?? Don't say you are an owl."
Shiha smile.. "I was not feeling sleepy. So I thought to complete few things and here I read your text about new collection so replied."
"why aren't you feeling sleepy?"
"Just like that Mia. Now came back to business, if your whole collection gets ready let me know. I was thinking to arrange your show over here."
Mia wide her eyes.. "shishi.. Are you going to announce that Bright Wear comes under the Tang corporation." said Mia with excitement.
"ann.. No! Mia.. I just want you to grab the attention here. I know many celebrities and upper high society here are fond of your designs."
Mia pouted.. "shishi.. Its not fair. I want to let people know.. That Bright wear comes under the great Tang empire. I also want people to know.. That! I am friendly with the Queen. The Queen is my besti." saying this Mia gave a video call to shiha.
Shiha accept the video call. As Mia saw shiha's face.. With a surprise she asked.."what's wrong with your face?"
Shiha rub her palm on her face.. "Nothing.. I just wake up so my face is sleepy."
"Naa.. Your face is looking pale. Are you alright shiha. Don't lie. I am worried."
Shiha gave a understanding smile. "i am absolutely fine. Its just I wake up from the deep sleep."
Mia gave a confuse look.. "why?" then something dawn to her.. "shishi.. Again Nightmares?"
Shiha don't know what to say.. Her friends know her very well.. Shiha nodded her head.. "Hmm."
"But.. Didn't you said, from last few months you had no nightmares. The last therapy was quite useful."
"hmm.. It was relief that i hadn't have a nightmare from last few months. And I stopped the therapy."
"why? Did you inform uncle Yu about this." asked Mia with concern.
"hnn.. No! I Don't want him to worry about me. I am fine. Its just yesterday I felt someone's caring nature towards me. So my inner self just reminded me right now in my sleep that don't dream about the fantasy I don't deserve. "
"shiha.. There's is no such things. You know. It's just you have printed it in your mind that's why you feel like that. Otherwise you deserve the love and care. Its your inner self blocking you."
"No Mia.. Infact, my inner self is reminding me. Not to fall again. Because! Now I don't have the energy to go through it again. My inner self is the one who suffers more."
"shiha.. In this matter your inner self is the greatest enemy against you. You have to fight against it not to believe it." Mia tries to explain shiha. She wants shiha to fight against the thoughts and beliefs she had in her mind. Shiha had build the walls around her heart..
Shiha took a deep breath.." Mia.. Its okay! I am use to it. I don't care. But somewhere.. Somewhat.. My inner self is right. I must not dream about stuffs I don't deserve."
Mia don't know what to say or how to say.. She just can't see her best friend in pain.
"Mia.. Don't think deep about this. And don't worry about me. Now go.. Lin chu might get worried. Don't keep your mood down and spoil his too."
"hmm..he went outside to buy some groceries." Mia gave a smile and said.. "Miss you.."
"Miss you too.. Bye bye.." saying this they ended the call.
Shiha went inside the bathroom. She washed her face. And tied her hair.
She walked towards the balcony. She saw the beautiful view outside.. She bend on the railing and looked at the stars shining in the sky..
" you look so close to each other from here but in reality.. Each of you are far far away from each other.." shiha was talking with stars..
After a while shiha took her laptop and sat on the comfortable chair. She gave a call to the vice president of Tang corporation who is handling the company over there.
" President Tang! How are you. "
" Good. What's the situation over there after I left." the Queen mode gets On.
"Everything is going smoothly. After Wang corporation's case.. Nothing major happened. The new collection of watches are ready. Your presence will be needed."
Shiha nodded her head.. "No problem. I gonna make it over there on time."
After discussing few things.. She has something on her mind.
Liam Hui the vice president notice it.. "President Tang.. Is there something bothering you?"