(The events in this chapter occurred during the time Keitarou was kidnapped)
'Ahh...hurts..'
'How many times is this again? I wouldn't last long...'
She somewhat pulled herself up and flushed the toilet before heading to the wash basin to brush her teeth in order to get the stinky taste that throwing up had left in her mouth.
Getting past that was just the beginning, she stood before her dresser after taking a bath and let the towel slip of her body while viewing herself in the mirror.
'No..its not that bad yet, last time it was worst..the rashes' she thought and rummaged through her closet immediately grabbing some clothes and paying no heed to her distorted reflection. She must not watch it too intently or she would start to feel what was happening to her.
'I'll visit Alec today and have him give me a better medicine' She thought to herself before dressing up, fully covered in layers of clothes, going as far as to fix a hood in that weather. That red hood symbolized her sacrifice.
She left the house quietly enough, besides, there was barely anyone in the house other then the maids and her. Her parents were barely ever home and even if they were they probably would never know.
She ended up leaving in her car and shortly arriving at another lavish house, she didn't need to knock. She grabbed a spare key from her pocket and helped herself inside the quiet house making her way familiarly towards the rooms and entered what seemed like a bedroom. She went through to a door inside and opened it, revealing a staircase that lead towards a certain basement.
"I was thinking who could it be but its just you again Aoi" A man in his twenties dressed in a lab coat came up while Aoi descended the stairs.
"As if anybody else ever visits you Alec" She smirked mockingly.
"Mean as always, well that's something I like about you" He came forward into light, his chestnut brown shaggy hair and big small yet sheepish eyes gave him quite the dangerous look but Aoi walked in too familiarly and casually.
"Oh boy, you don't seem to be doing good"
"You can tell?" She said and walked through the basement towards an old shelf and pulled a book that made the shelf split in two halves like a door, while he followed. Behind the grim door was a bright white tiled room or more appropriately a laboratory.
"Still shady as always Alec" She murmured.
"You should be the last person criticizing me" The guy said and came inside and began to grab some of his tools.
"The medicine, I need more" Aoi stated directly.
"Already?" He raised a brow at her standing against a shelf "No can do Aoi, I'm not greedy enough to kill someone for my research"
"I'll pay extra" Aoi bargained.
"You're too desperate Aoi.. I'm rushing too much because of you already, you should understand it takes time to get all the material I need; especially since it's illegal" He sighed.
"I know already but I have no idea when you will finally succeed in creating the pheromones that are more permanent, I want to transition already..I don't want this suffocating Alpha body..I want to be a Beta already" She sighed.
"You're too eager, researches like that take time especially since no one has actually tried pheromone transitions before, government rendered it illegal decades ago after a few omegas died during human experimentation in attempt to transition them from omega to alpha" He spoke knowledgeably.
"That was different, they didn't consent to it while I'm ready to consent it" Aoi humphed.
"You're ready to throw your life away in simpler terms" He chuckled mockingly.
"What you don't have trust in your skills?" She raised a brow almost counter mockingly and he had to submit afterall.
"So mean, of course I'm not confident in using you as a lab rat. If something were to happen to you, who do you think would be done for here?" He gave in and looked at her from head to toe "You..you're over dosing again aren't you? You've lost too much weight again and from your pallor I can tell you're getting anemic as well, probably throwing up alot too..you're really on a suicidal track here" He frowned at her "Sit down, I'll hook you up on IV as usual but have some mercy AB negative blood is not so easy to find woman" He scolded her while she sat down and took off her hood, folding up her sleeve.
"Hush..that omega boy he would never understand the pain you're going through just for him, it pains even a heartless douche like me" He got up and brought a blood bag from the storage and set it up adjusting the flow rate "How much time has it been?"
"Eight years" She mumbled with a nostalgic look upon her face "He doesn't recognize me anymore..well not that I really want him to either..it was sorts of horrible anyway"
"Sorts of? Hmph, I'm pretty sure that wasn't just horrible on his behalf..imagine a thirteen year old going into his first heat due to his fated pair in front of all his friends and....." Alec spoke sarcastically expecting an equally mean response but she didn't, so he hesitated.
"I know already.. he even wears a collar now...and I'm probably the reason he has no friends at all..even back then, I couldn't.. back then.. if his dad wasn't right at time they would've.." She quietened up with a frown.
"It wasn't your fault Aoi, who could've known you'd crossover your fated pair like that.." He tried to comfort her but she wasn't convinced.
"You weren't there Alec, what I saw...what was happening ..was horrible and I was responsible for it even though he saved me..even afterwards his dad was made to apologize for causing me inconvenience..that made it even worst for me, the world of the alphas, I hate it" She spat full of despair and self loathing.
"Now now, don't go trying anything dangerous again, remember he had it worst back then..He risked his life to protect yours, don't go wasting it" Alec spoke casually.
"I promised him I wouldn't... but he doesn't seem to remember it anymore" She chuckled "He calls me all sorts of silly nicknames now though and he hates my dressing choice"
"About that even I hate your dress combinations Aoi! seriously get a designer!" Alec lost a bit of nerve there "also how can he remember you anyway? You used to be so chubby back then and you keep suppressing your pheromones, what is he supposed to be psychic?"
"Yeah but I'm not content watching him from afar anymore...I'm thankful to your medicine that now I can get closer to him, talk to him and date him without him recognizing me though" She pouted "I was contented just from afar before but when those guys attacked him back at the public train I just knew that I had to interfere..I couldn't watch him from sidelines anymore.. and the more I talked to him, the more I craved to have him..he doesn't have to remember me..they are all horrible memories anyway, I'll overwrite them all.. I'll be a new person, someone he can love.." She spoke emotionally "I can control myself now and I can protect him too..ah he's too cute, I wanna kiss him again" She spoke going in a doting mode "Soon I'll be beta and we can be a normal couple, ah I can't wait for it!" She spoke enthusiastically.
"Date? wait what? what? Hold up right there! When did that happen you devil? you never told me! I hate you!" Alec threw a tantrum hearing only that word and shook her in interrogation.
"Oye stop! my head is whirling! I told you now didn't I?" She smacked down his head "That is why I need medicine for this date! I'm all out and I don't wanna ruin it"
"You should've told me sooner! Let me just fix up some for you! Get me some good pictures, I'm so curious to see that lover boy of yours too, you should introduce us too" He got up excitedly setting up some chemical tubes.
"No way, you're too deviant, I'm keeping a pervert like you hella away from my man" She spoke with a repulsed tone.
"So mean! I'm only spoiling you this time...soon the preparations for your transition will be complete..but I still think you should reconsider, you haven't even tried talking to him, I know he wouldn't hate you even if he remembers..I feel like you want him to remember too but you're just punishing yourself" Alec tried to bring up a topic that he had tried with many times before but failed every time for it wasn't easy to convince her once she had made up her mind.
"It's not about him, I want this...I hate being an alpha" She said "I hate losing control when it comes to him, These pheromones..they make me want to..do things...bad, bad things..you know.. like violate him, possess him, hurt him, make him cry, break his body.. there's a whole list of bad sides that he conjures inside me and I don't want my alpha nature to overtake my affection for him..I must stay in my senses or I'll lose him.. because I just wanna.."
"Hold it right there you sadistic creep!" He interrupted being freaked out a little by her devious intentions "Well..there's no convincing you...but still..give it a thought again and don't use your lower half to think" He advised her, she silently nodded before her cell phone rang and she attended it. Though soon her expression changed and her eyes widened which freaked even Alec a little but he calmed himself.
"What happened?" Alec asked casually.
"Keitarou...Keitarou is in hospital!"