Suddenly, a flash of memory came rushing to my mind.
In that memory, I saw a very handsome boy smirking at me.
We were standing under a tree. There was a swing attached to the tree. It was snowing. I was standing beside the swing.
The snow had covered his beautiful shiny hair. He was wearing a grey scarf around his neck.
His hands were on my face. He held my cheeks gently. His touch was very warm and smooth. His nose was touching mine.
He said softly with a warm and gentle voice " TIARA! ".
I started leaning onto him. I was staring at his face blankly for a while. I seem to have said something but I can't figure out what I said. Yet, I closed my eyes as if it is quite natural for me to do so. Then, he disappeared from that place. There were only snowfalls left.
Whenever I tried to recall that flash of memory, I could only recall his blurry image and I was unable to recall his name or identity. It was just like the dream I had been having for almost a month now.
"Is this really a part of my memory or have I started to hallucinate my dreams in the broad daylight ?"[Tiara mumbled]
"Is it due to my single status? "
I chuckled at my own thoughts.
"Maybe I am thinking too much. I think that this might be due to the stress from my part-time job."
"But I really do enjoy my job since it makes me feel less lonely"
I knew that I was just trying to reason with myself. Perhaps it's because I am a science major. Questioning and reasoning with myself is what I start doing unconsciously.I could only snap out of it after realizing that I started overthinking.
This was all due to my hyper imaginative power. But I don't remember how I got the power to imagine so much.
I always felt lonely as if I was missing someone. But I could not figure it out yet. I could not understand those feelings at all.
Anyways, I felt that it was better for me to do a job where I could witness people smiling happily to forget my problems. They also spoke to me in a very friendly and polite manner even if we met for the first time.
"Maybe it was all thanks to my appearance."
I closed my eyes and chuckled again.
I knew that I was just trying to deceive myself by thinking about work.
I also knew that the real problem started in the past month. I faced anxiety time and again.
It was because of this dreamlike memory. I was unable to confirm what it meant then.
So, I casually interpreted it as a dream. I tried to forget it. But every time I start believing that it's probably just a dream, it flashes into my mind like a memory.
"Maybe I must visit a psychologist. "
I sighed at my lost thoughts. The cool breeze refreshed my mind. I snapped out of my thoughts.