This is the first day at my college. I was very fortunate to find two friends on my first day itself. One was Peijing whom I met at the college office room. And the other was Lian, whom I met at the college bus. Finding friends on the first day at college is always special.
The first day was so basic. I sat with Peijing and with two other students in a row together. They were Joora and Yuan. So technically speaking we were five girls together. It was a complete introductory day. We were taken to the operation rooms and various other departments. "A very seamless and calm day", that was what I thought. "May be just to find this peace, I was meant to struggle before". All of these thoughts kept randomly hitting me.
I completely enjoyed my day. All the classes got over, and finally we went to the canteen to have some snacks and to explore more. Everything seemed so good, until a senior called to speak. As we finished having snacks and juice, we headed to the college bus. On our way to the bus, a Senior student of the college called out "Hey blue dress, come here". "Blue Dress", God that was me.
I went near that Senior. "Don't, you know you need to dress up properly to college", she said in a rough tone. "Properly", I never knew what was meant as properly in her dictionary. "What, I don't understand?", I said. "You are no more a school kid, you need to dress up professionally", she shouted at me in a rough voice. Everybody in the campus turned towards me. Now I never understand, what it was meant as "Professional dressing" in her dictionary.
I was embarrassed, totally embarrassed. Imagine, it was your first day at college and someone is messing it up. "I don't understand, what you are talking about", I said in a very low tone. I lowered my tone, so that no one can hear me. That much embarrassed I was. "Look at the way you have dressed up", she shouted at me again.
I looked at myself. I wore a Blue salwar (a traditional, professional and decent dress in our country) and a shawl (a long cloth to cover the salwar top) over my dress. I had a pair of earrings on my ear (Medium sized) and a watch in my left hand. I didnt wear any expensive jewels. No necklaces or no bangles. There was no makeup on my face (I never knew anything about makeup at that stage of my life). I had paired my dress with a matching blue slippers.
Now I had a strike in my brain. "Was it Blue?", Just as my brain was trying to explain the fact to me. "Why are you wearing blue dress with blue slippers?", she shouted at me again. I completely lost my temper. There is no rule in my college that demands "One cannot wear matching slippers and dress".
My brain flushed up with blood. And before I could think of anything, my mouth started uttering these words. "What on the earth is your problem. It's my dress, my slipper and my favorite colour. Finally it's my Dad's money. What bothers you? Mind your own business".
Shhhhhhhhhhhh... A complete silence filled up the campus. Everyone looked at me in a weird way. I felt really pissed off, and lost myself completely. Her face turned Red and she looked around. Other seniors came up near her. I was surrounded by 6 other seniors. They are my immediate seniors. The batch that went to second year of college.
Everyone started shooting questions to me. What is your name? Which Bus are you? Don't you know how to respect Seniors? Ask Sorry? How dare you shout at a senior? I started trembling. I was not able to stand there, even for a second.
I became nervous. I refused to say them my name. I was worried, what would happen If they come to know my name and identity. With no second left, I ran to my bus and sat inside it. My friends followed me to the bus.
Immediately as we sat inside the bus. The bus started moving. I felt little light, when the bus started moving. But I was literally hearing my heart beat. Every beat of it was clear and peak. "My bad, I think I have ended up in a tangled mess".
As I was thinking about these, the bus moved out of the campus. A light breeze, flashed over my wet, panicked face.
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With Love
AuthorTK