CAMIE'S SOLILOQUY
Everyone agrees that each and every human being have a selfish desire- or not- let me rephrase- every human being has a dark side they desperately want to hide from everyone because of the façade they have already established. It's not wrong- and I'm not implying that it is because it's a human nature we have adopted since the beginning-
But there's no denying that the dark sides of the humans are what leads to destruction and pain because I, myself is a terrible example.
I have been training under a famous agency since I was in first year junior high. Days have been hard- trust me- having to deal with both the rigorous training and my studies at the same time. But I was determined to debut since it was my dream since I was young.
On my second year of being a trainee, I was grouped with two other individuals who were months older than me. Believe me- they were kind because they were only a year level ahead of me. We got along since all of us were completely average in performing, but we were happy- and we trained more than anyone else. We have already established a beautiful rapport and assumed that we were on the same level so we strived to debut together.
However, at the end of our second year on that agency, they called us on the office and announced that another member was joining us. We were surprised though- because from the looks of it, the meek girl who stood beside our teacher was trembling and in an instant, we doubted their decision.
The girl was never trained, and she was lumped together with us- who desperately trained for so many times.
"Uhm, hi. I am Akuji Nerezza. N-nice to meet you." She said and looked down as her chest-length curly hair caressed her clothing. The other two senpais weren't exactly in favor of the idea, but in the end, they just accepted her without speaking against the company.
Little that we know that disaster would happen from that point on.
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"They are pretty spartan- aren't they?" Suzuka said as she and Shiro walked home together with the other first years that laughed so loud the entire school could hear them. They were constantly beaten to a pulp by Mr. Murase as they trained- but that was exactly what they were looking for.
"First years, right?" Satori approached the two of them and displayed his white smile. The two of them greeted him properly- but without an ulterior motive- making Satori flinch for their lack of reaction.
"Yes, Satori-san." Shiro answered and continued walking. Satori was supposed to talk again but Mr. Murase suddenly closed in and told them that he had some business to do at school.
"Are you perhaps checking on Ms. Sana [one of the teachers] , Sir?" Satori said but a light head punch stroke him.
Mr. Murase still left and went to the main building of their school.
"Why are you still here?" he asked as he passed by someone on the stairs. He looked at the person and attempted to leave- but the person held his coat and looked at him with determined eyes.
"Sir, I'm sorry but- where are you going?" the person said.
"What's it to you?" Murase replied and left but the person was persistent and held him again. "Kota, don't pull me."
"Sorry sir- but please don't go on the fourth floor!" Kuu pleaded. Apparently, he still stayed on the building and the presence of Murase surprised him.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"Because the Fix club is right there- right now!"
"Huh- what a coincidence. Hello Sir, hello Kota." Yelda said as she appeared out of nowhere- with her club members hiding behind her back.
"Uh- hello." Murase greeted them back and counted the members. "Aren't you missing someone?"
"Ah- yes! Akuji's not here." Kuu said but the entire club- except Yelda glared at her.
"She's on the club room sir." Yelda answered and smiled. "However, we have somewhere we have to go to- if you could excuse us-"
"Oh, yeah, go on ahead." Murase said and watched the students leave them. Sensing that they were no longer around, he turned to Kuu and gave him a serious face.
"W-why-"
"If you want to go with me, you are very much welcome. But remember that any information you get here should be kept with you alone, no sharing with anyone else." Murase said and eyed him as he went towards the old music room. Kuu followed him, trying to calm himself because it was the first time he saw Murase that serious.
They approached the door of the music room and opened the creaky door- revealing Akuji- or Anonymous staring at the huge window with her back facing them.
"How are you, Akuji?" There was a huge pause on Murase's words, as Akuji turned and faced them.
"The same as usual, Sir." Akuji said and smiled at them, not even faltering even if Kuu was there with him. She was wearing the same straight wig she always wore every time she played the piano, and Kuu gasped, enthralled by her beauty.
"I guess I've already found you." Murase said, holding back the tears that threatened to fall anytime.
"Yeah, you did manage to find me." She said- slowly taking off her wig, revealing her true appearance- and that was when Murase burst into tears. Akuji seemed to have been heartbroken seeing him like that- and she immediately approached him.
"Why are you crying, sir?"
"I'm so happy to see you again. I'm so happy." Murase said, making Akuji slightly teary-eyed.
"I'm happy as well, Sir." She briefly replied and touched his hair, a habit done by Mr. Murase himself whenever he sees a gloomy student. "How have you been sir? I see that you are currently training our school's official band."
"Speaking of that, I will no longer cut the chase." Murase said and held her hands. "Please become my student again!"
"What?" Kuu said, flinching as she saw him weep and bow.
"I can't be a part of Prevail High." She said and looked at him in his eyes.
"I don't care. I'm not planning to let you guys go again. I found Camie- You can be reunited again!"
"C-camie?" Akuji said, but she suddenly turned to Kuu and approached him. "Sorry, Kuu. You must be startled because I wore a wig, right? Sorry I lied to you. I didn't mean to do it. But this certain situation must be a complete shock to you- let me explain. I was a former trainee under Sir Murase's sister's agency and I left for personal reasons, leading the group to disarray."
"You know that what you are saying isn't the truth!" Murase said and stepped in.
"Then what is the truth?" Akuji said as her voice cracked, and tears were dropping orm his eyes, making his shoe wet. Kuu stood in front of her, attempting not to hug her because it would make her uncomfortable.
"You didn't cause the disbandment- I did! I neglected you and didn't find you before things got worse."
"Didn't it cross your mind that you never found me because I simply didn't want to get found?"
"Akuji- you are trying to vent these all in yourself. You don't have to suffer." Murase said, extending his arms to her as she was facing Kuu.
"It was my fault that they acted like that. It's because of me. It's because of my presence. It's because my music hurt them." Akuji said – but lifted her face to look at Kuu, trying to find any disgust in his face. "Kuu- why do you look like that? Why aren't you running away? Why don't you look like you aren't disgusted by my face?"
Akuji was as frail as a bud- and letting him see this side of her made Kuu feel like he was special- but he wondered why she thought like that-
"Why would I feel that way?" Kuu said and tried to hide his blush. "I don't get what you are trying to say because I think you are really pretty. I think you are special- and why would I be disgusted when I adore you deep in my hear- HEY!"
Akuji wiped her tears and ran as fast as she could to leave that room. It broke her heart- having someone she trusted act like that towards her. As a person who only felt pain all her life, being complemented was- to her looked like a lie.
"Did I do something wrong?" Kuu asked, unable to move a muscle after Akuji left him. Murase wiped his tears as well and Kuu helped him on the piano seat. He looked drained.
"No you didn't. Thank you for making her realize that she isn't as horrible as she thinks she was." Murase said, smiling at Kuu as he gasped for air, trying to stop crying. Kuu couldn't see if he was happy or sad or both. "I thought I devised a perfect plan, sorry for dragging you here, Kuu, Camie."
Kuu didn't know that there was someone behind the door as they spoke. She didn't look like a spy because she clearly had no reason to do so. She was a freshman by her looks and tears were streaming her white cheeks.
"I'm sorry sir, I couldn't do anything." The girl said, her hands trembling. "You must be Kota-kun. I'm impressed that you became close to her and that she didn't drive you away."
"Why would she do that- er- why is she traumatized?" Kuu asked and offered her a seat. The girl flinched.
"I guess I should really tell you what happened back then. "