Mataman kong tiningnan ang simbahan sa harap ko. The pain I'm feeling is too much. Masyado akong kinakain ng takot na maiwan at sakit dahil nga iniwan ako.
I lost my Mom when I was thirteen. I lost my Dad just when I was about to received my college diploma. I lost the man I truly love. I lost myself.
But I found it the moment I heard the first cry of my son. I found my purpose the very first time I held him in my arms.
Life is like a rollercoaster ride. It twirls my personality up and down. It molded me to become stronger.
I am not a religious person. Funny how I am standing in front of this church in the middle of the night.
I wiped my tears away.
Lord, alam kong hindi ako malapit sayo. Ang kapal ng mukha ko para tumayo dito at manawagan sayo. I am once again lost. I'm afraid I might get the wrong away again. Gusto ko lang maging malaya. Malaya sa sakit at takot na nanunuot sa aking dibdib. Gusto kong maging malaya sa lungkot na bumabalot sa aking pagkatao...sa galit. I want to be happy again. Please give me a sign...where should I go?
Kinalma ko muna ang aking sarili bago nagdesisyong bumalik sa condo. Sa tabi ng daan, nakita ko ang isang pamilya. Tanging mga kariton lamang ang nagsisilbing higaan nila ngunit nagtatawanan sila. Mukhang masayang-masaya sila. Hindi ko mapigilan ang mainggit sa kanila.
I have money. I have a nice home. I have Simon. But we don't have a complete family.
"What? Anong nangyari, Andy?" Hindi ko alam kung maniniwala ba ako sa lalaking ito. Birthday pa naman ng anak ko!
"I need help...I'm sorry, Donna. I need you right now." Andy has always been there for me. Kinabahan ako ng marinig ang paghikbi niya.
Nagpaalam ako kay Gab. Babalik din naman ako bago mag alas tres dahil sa ganoong oras ang start ng birthday ni Simon.
"Ano bang nangyayari?" Nasa plaza si Gab at kalmadong nakasandal sa kanyang sasakyan.
He apologetically looked at me. "Pinagtitripan mo ba ako ha, Andyriano?" Nagpameywang ako sa harap niya.
"Akala ko kasi napano na ako! Ang sakit kaya ng tiyan ko kanina. Akala ko kailangan ko ng iconfine! Tae lang pala!" He awkwardly laughed. Kinurot ko ito sa kanyang tagiliran.
It's quarter to three na! "Magsstart na ang birthday ng inaanak mo!" Mukhang nakalimutan niya iyon. Masama ko siyang tiningnan. "Don't tell me, you don't have any gift for Simon?"
Agad niyang dinepensahan ang kanyang sarili. " Na kay Charm na." He said and drove fast.
Nag retouch muna ako bago lumabas sa kanyang sasakyan. Bakit nakasara ang gate? Dapat ay bukas ito nang sa ganon ay maraming bata ang dumating.
My jaw dropped the moment the gate opened. Sa unahan ay mayroong pari. Naghihintay na si Gab sa harap kasama ang kanyang pamilya.
I looked at Andy with confusion. "I'll walk you to your husband, Donna. What are best buddies for, diba?" He whispered that made me shed a tear.
"Maybe the reason why my Dad peacefully left me because he knows I have you." I sincerely told him.
Huminga ng malalim si Andy bago ako sinamahan mg maglakad palapit kay Gab.
I didn't expect this! Umiiyak ang mga tao sa paligid namin. Mom, Dad, if you're watching me...I am very happy now.
"Hija! Welcome to the family!" His Mom told me.
Niyakap din ako ng Daddy ni Gab. "Give me many apos, hija." Humalakhak ito bago nilingon si Simon.
Pinapakalma ni Ady si Simon dahil umiiyak din ito habang tinitingnan kami.
Anak, finally...we'll be having our complete family.
"Thank you, Gab. Thank you."
Every pain is worth suffering for. Every pain, every heartache, every tear has it's reasons.
I am Mrs. Donna Alexandria Pascal-Lacson, RFT. I am now beyond happiness with my husband and son with me.
I put everything to the Lord. Now, everything is on it's proper place.
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this is the end for GabxDonna! Thank you so much for reading Wild Tigress! Hoping to see you on the third installment of BSU Series!