Sin
After we made our deal. Nagbihis na ako at mabilisang lumabas sa condo unit niya. I elope his room and he's inside, alone. After I get outside nakita ko si Bryan, my brother. Anong ginagawa niya dito? Balak ko sana siyang lapitan but someone grabbed my hand. Lumingon ako and I saw Xander's existence na galit na galit.
"Sinabi ko bang iwan mo ako?" Aniya sabay kuha sa braso ko.
I'm trying to remove his hand but he's too strong enough to remove it. Wala akong nagawa kundi ang pumasok pabalik sa kwarto niya. I sat down on his stool near his kitchen. He walks towards me and thankfully he's clothed now.
"Sinabi ko ba saying umalis ka, ha?!" Sigaw niya.
I got frightened by his voice. I feel shivers on it.
"Bakit mo ba 'to ginagawa sa'kin?" I shouted at him.
He look at me. I saw his Brine tricky eyes and his usual stare.
"Simple. I want you. You alone." Aniya sabay kuha sa braso ko.
I can't control myself. I yelled at him.
"You want me?! naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo, ha?!" I screamed in annoyance.
He held me tautly na para bang ayaw niyang maka wala ako sa mga kamay niya. My tears are dipping down on my cheeks and I'm started to sob. I feel his arms loosened up in my hand.
"Sorry, I'm just...carried away." Aniya sabay yuko.
I stooped and utter. "Alam mo, itong ginawa natin...this is a sin, a depravity we made of. Ano bang kasalanan ko sa'yo, ha? Bakit mo ba 'to ginagawa sa'kin, sa amin, ha? May kasalanan ba ako sa'yo ha Xander Choi? Hindi mo pa ba rin matanggap na wala na tayo
Are you still thinking na magkakabalikan tayo, ha? Tell me!" I let out.
He sighed at me and trying to look at my eyes. "Oo. I'm still in love with you, badly in love with you. Masaya ka na?" He replied.
I brushed my hair in disbelief. "Then I don't love you anymore." I retorted.
I saw his jaw clenched 'cause of what I'd said. "No! You love me! Even you're denying it. I still saw it in your eyes. No! Hindi puwedeng hindi mo ako mahal. You're mine. Mine alone! Hindi ko hahayaang maagaw ka niya sa'kin." Aniya.
I can't see normally 'cause of my tears dripping out. I can't believe na magagawa niya 'to. Hindi si Xander 'to! And I can't remember if we had a deal about the one night stand thing. Hindi ko alam. Wala akong maalala.
Bumaling ako sa kaniya. "Are you still craving to steal me from my husband, ha? Ikaw ba 'yung dahilan nang pagka disgrasya niya? TELL ME!!" Galit tanong.
He remained noiseless na para bang ayaw niyang pag-usapan ang mga nangyari. No! I need to know because my husband is got involved in his shit.
"TELL ME!!-" He cut me off.
"Oo, ako nga ang dahilan. Ano naman kung gusto ko siyang patayin? Akin ka! Akin ka lang. Tandaan mo yan." Sabay hawak sa braso ko.
"Ano ba nasasaktan ako," I said.
"Masasaktan ka talaga kapag binanggit mo pa ang asawa mong epal." He asserted.
I stood up and go to his comfort room. Hindi niya naman ako pinigilan kaya nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad at sabay pasok sa loob. I locked it para 'di siya makapasok. I sat down the floor and I let myself to burst a cry. I can't believe his cruelty, his dire plan laban sa asawa ko.
As I roamed my eyes. May nakita akong isang blade. I stood up at pumunta sa gawi nito. Kinuha ko ito and I saw down again.
Hon always remember na mahal na mahal kita. I can do anything for you and Fordie. Sana kung naririnig mo man ako wa'g mo akong pigilang gawin 'to kasi for sure alam kong pipigilan mo akong gawin 'to. I love you so much.
As I rub the blade into my hand. Someone broke the door at bumukas ito at bumungad sa'kin si...Androux? Paano niya nalamang nandito ako? Pumunta siya sa gawi ko sabay hawi sa blade.
"Are you okay? May masakit ba sa'yo? Tell me. Bakit may hawak kang blade, ha? Are you taking your life, ha?" Nag-aalala niyang tanong.
Bumaling ako sa kaniya sabay yakap. I let myself sob in front of him. He's my husband and he can understand why I do this all. Late ko lang naalala na may deal pala kami ni Xander to save Androux company.
"Ilabas mo lang hon. I'm just here for you." He said and rubbed my hair.
Nang okay na ako. Inalalayan niya akong tumayo. He held my hand and we step through the exit door. I saw Xander tied by a thread and I can't help but to look away from him. As we continue walking I saw my brother, Bryan. Siya kaya ang nagsabi na nandito ako sa condo unit ni Xander? Possible kasi kung hindi niya sinabi for sure hindi malalaman ni Androux na nandito ako. Thank to him if siya ang nag sabi.
We stopped at the foyer and Androux turned his head on my brother.
"Ako na ang bahala sa kaniya. Umalis na kayo bago pa siya magising." Bryan had said.
Tumango kami and we continue walking until we reached his car.
"Get inside hon." He said.
I nod then I climbed inside his car. It was fresh to me of what he said to me earlier.
Bumaling ako sa kaniya. "Are you still craving to steal me from my husband, ha? Ikaw ba 'yung dahilan nang pagka disgrasya niya? TELL ME!!" Galit tanong.
He remained noiseless na para bang ayaw niyang pag-usapan ang mga nangyari. No! I need to know because my husband is got involved in his shit.
"TELL ME!!-" He cut me off.
"Oo, ako nga ang dahilan. Ano naman kung gusto ko siyang patayin? Akin ka! Akin ka lang. Tandaan mo yan." Sabay hawak sa braso ko.
Kapag naalala ko ang mga sinabi niya sa akin kanina. Parang nanghihina ako na para bang he was betrayed me all the time. He just making me fool para hindi ko malaman ang mga binabalak niya. He's so cruel!
"Hon. Are you okay?" He asked worriedly.
I nodded at him. "Yes hon. I-I'm...okay." I replied terrified.
He look at me. "You sure?" Pangkukumpirma niya.
I nodded at him again. Hindi naman siya nagtanong ng kung ano-ano. He's just focus on driving. I look to the windshield and I saw a man carrying his daughter in his shoulder. I want to huddle in my father's shoulder but how it happens if I don't know my father's identity. Sad but true I am a poor woman with an unknown father. I close my eyes a bit and I let my mind relax. Daming nangyari ngayon and I don't want to recall it anymore. An hour later nakarating na rin kami sa bahay and I saw Philip, my son's golden retriever puppy running towards my son.
My husband stopped the car at our foyer and my son's look goes to us. I climbed down of his car and my son sprint to my direction. I raised my hand sideward and waiting for him to goes to me. While he's running through me he got slip down the floor. I heard him screamed out. I shook my head and I go to him.
"Son. What happen? Are you okay?" I asked.
"I got a wound...mom." Daing niya.
I patted his back and I rubbed his hair. "Don't cry son. You're strong, right? 'Di ba nga ikaw si super Ford?" I asked him.
Tumango naman siya. "Yes mom. I am." Mabilisniyang sagot.
"Then...be super Ford which is strong, bold and can fight himself against the enemy or even wounds." I convinced him.
He nodded at me and trying to stand up but he's too weak enough to fulfill it.
Bumaling siya sa'kin. "Mom. I can't stand." Aniya sabay iyak.
"What mommy told you? Be strong. Don't cry." I wiped his tears.
He tried to smile but he failed because of the pain he feels. As a mother, it is my duty to take care of my child but what did I do? I let him have a scars. I am too careless.
"I'm strong mom. I didn't feel any pain na." He responded.
I smile. Isa lang ang gusto ng mga magulang at 'yun ang kaligtasan at kapakanan ng anak. That's what the mother want's to his/her child. Kahit na palagi kaming nag-tatalo ng asawa ko. I didn't let my child to get involved by our argues at higit sa lahat ayokong iba ang tingin niya sa ama niya dahil lang sa paninira ko laban sa ama niya. I don't want my child to be far from his dad's arms kasi naranasan ko 'yon and it's really bad at all. I want my father but I don't know who he is. I want him to cuddle with but I don't know where he is. Napaka swerte ng anak ko at nagkaroon siya ng opportunity to see, to hug and to love his father and I don't want my child to ordeal what I'd experienced.
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