Why Are You So Insecure?

Our mother called us to breakfast. Shiki stopped what he was doing to run down to the kitchen like always. I followed right behind him. He sat at the table excitedly. I sat beside him in a calm manner. Mother sat a pork cutlet bowl in front of each of us. Shiki began to shoveling food into his mouth as I stated blankly at it. He looked at me. "Aren't you going to eat?" He glared at me, so I sighed at started eating. The food is even worse than yesterday...like always. He spoke to me suddenly. "How come you're so popular Onii-chan?" I shrugged. " I don't know and I don't care. I only care if you like me, brother." He smiled. " I love you, Onii-chan!" I ruffled his hair. " I love you too." As we finished our food mother took our bowls. "Have a great day at school!" Shiki nodded and dragged me out of the house. "We're skipping school today Onii-chan!" I just looked at him. "Ok." I followed him into the forest. It suddenly started raining after some hours. " We should probably head back..." He pulled me even further. "Here's a tree we can hide in!" The tree was huge and very hallow. It was perfect for the time being. I crawled in after him. He shivered a little, so I wrapped my arm around him. "You're so warm...and you smell so good." I blushed. He put his hand on my thigh. "Why do you smell like this?" I looked away from him. "I-i don't know..." He put his hand under my shirt. "I want more of you, Onii-chan..." I tried to ignore the tingling feeling he was giving me. "W-we can't! We brothers!" He smirked. "You really think I haven't noticed how you look at me? It's plainly obvious that you want me too..." I looked past him to the outside. "Well look at that! The rain let up! We should probably get going." He scowled before heading home. I followed him in silence. Mother was in the kitchen. "You guys are home early! I thought you had a drama club meeting today." Shiki ignored her and went to our room. I smiled at her. "He's just angry because he prepared so much for the meeting but it got cancelled. Oh, and don't worry about dinner tonight." She nodded and went back to cleaning. I went to our room and knocked on the door. "What?" I went in and locked the door behind me. "I wanted to say I'm sorry...I was just scared..." He sat up and stared at me. " I just couldn't imagine you actually having feelings for me..." He continued to be silent. "W-will you forgive me!?" I got on my knees. He got up and came over to me. "Don't do that, Sho. I didn't mean to make you feel like that." He has never called me by my name before...was he mad. "Brother...are you angry with me?" Shiki shook his head. "I sadly can't get mad at you. I love you too much..." I started to cry. "I-i love you..." I glanced up at him with teary eyes. "Don't cry..." He wiped my tears and kissed me. "I just... I'm sorry I messed up your perfect attendance..." I smiled a huge smile. "I would do anything for you, brother!" He ruffled my hair and kissed me on the forehead.