SHANA
It did not bother me as I walk out from him in the living room. I was in my bedroom and I am so mad at Colton. I could not argue with him because in the end I will lose. I wish I resign from the time I knew I am carrying his child. It is less complication and less commitment.
Now it is too late to do that kind of thing because he already knew who I was, then the baby thing. I walked inside my room back and forth thinking. I do not know what he was doing after I left there. My mind is a mess right now.
He only wants the baby, our baby, but did not even mention about us. He made the decision without asking my opinion.
After being tired walking around my room which is part of my exercise. I lay down on my bed facing the window. A shed of tears silently rolling down as I caressed my tummy, in my heart was pleased that he acknowledges our baby. At the same time, my heart hurts because it was only our baby.
I should not think about me because we are not an item to call. We are just friends after that incident and now it is complicated heart of mine that involve too.
'Why should I feel this way to him? I should not be feeling like this to him.'
I know I had boyfriends before but that was not what I felt with them. Well, the thing I had with my relationships before was just puppy love and just simple love that we decided to stay as friends.
However, with Colton, it was different. I know it is wrong because a man like him do not do relationship and especially marriage. Of course, I do not want to get marry without love. I sighed. I do not know how long I've been lying in my bed but I already calm.
I startled when an arm wrapped around my tummy. "I am so sorry." Colton said, I did not even notice he came in. My mind was really pre-occupied with what's going on in my life. I did not turn to look at me but my tears started to fall again.
Colton's hands gently turned my body to him so we were facing each other. He wiped my tears away as he stared at me.
"I am so sorry for what I did a while ago. Please do not get mad at me." He said looking into his eyes I can see sincerity with his words.
Just a simple apologized I gave in and even gave my sweet small smile to him. My tears were not falling from my eyes anymore and he wipes it out already.
I know both of us should not be mad with one another because of some petty thing. It was new to us this situation, me, I am not done this pregnancy before and so does he, not done with having a baby in his entire life too.
I know our situation was not as easy as ABC's but like ABC's we have to learn from the beginning and have to understand each other's thoughts.
I should have patience too because Colton is not some ordinary man, I should have known that. To be honest, I am glad right now that he says sorry first. It means that he is willing to give it a chance to work us together as one.
We still stared at each other and our face were just inches apart. I bite my lips when my eyes were focus on his lips. I do not know if it is my hormones but I want to kiss those lips again.
I was not aware for a while but I somehow licked my lips looking at it then my eyes went up to his eyes. I blushed when I saw him staring at my lips too and saw him smirking looking into my eyes.
I could hear my heart was drumming loudly when he was slowly leaning closely towards me. Automatically, I closed my eyes. My heart was still the same. The last thing on my mind was his lips touching mine.
Oh my gosh! I could not help it but to kiss back. It feels so good, you know. It is deeper and even more passionate. I let him take over me because right now my hormones were kicking me in.
He pulled away and I pouted. It seems I was losing my mind when he stopped. I heard him chuckled and I opened my eyes immediately.
"You are so cute doing that." He said as I get frustrated.
Okay I am really mad right now and feeling horny. He just there laughing at me. What happened next is grabbing him as I keep on kissing. The shyness disappeared since he kissed me first.
Ha-ha! I did not know that I was that eager. I saw his eyes were in shock of my being aggressive but hello! It's my hormones were talking about and I have been suffered about it for months whenever he was with me.
Soon enough he responded my kiss and kisses me more. Oh great! I could feel wetness on my underwear and it is not that my water broke. But because of him.
His hands were touching me everywhere in my body. I feel really, really hot not because I have a fever but hotness of something else. You know what I mean.
I moaned loudly I never thought I would feel this again. The first time was not totally because I was a little drunk and the emotions were mixed up.
However, the difference between now was we are normal state no alcohol involve. Colton's lips fell at my ears sort of biting me not hard but I like it.
I could hear our breathing heavier as he travelled down my neck. He stopped for a while to remove my clothes. Biting my lips as I see him licking his lips looking at my nakedness.