"Lily may we come in?"asked her biological parents
I did not want them to come in, but I wanted to know the reason why they treated me so badly? Why couldn't they just love me and why were they crying so badly in my funeral/wedding and regretting everything?
I hated them for hating me, I hated them for not showing their love for me, I hated them for destroying my view on family, I hated them who tortured me, I hated them who cursed at me, I hated them for not trusting me, I really really really HATE THEM.
Yet why were they crying in my funeral/wedding! Why were they blaming themselves? Why were they looking so regretful? Why couldn't they show me their love earlier? Why did I have to suffer if they love me? Why? Why? WHY?
Even if they were regretful, guilty and sad, I cannot forgive them for causing me childhood trauma.
I control my heavy emotions and said"come in"
They came in and directly hugged me but I felt pissed off.
"Don't touch me!" I said with a cold tone
They looked so sad and were super guilty.
"Why are you here, Mr Vean and Ms Carlin?" I said with a poker face
They were even more guilty when I said that.
"Lily, we are really sorry for what we have done to you when you were a child, at that time we were not in a good state."said both of them with sincerity.
I give them a mocking smile, they expect me to forgive them with just an apology.
"I don't know what you mean Mr Vean and Ms Carlin, I don't ever remember you guys, you don't have to waste your time and words, because I will not be able to accept your apology." I said in a calm tone
"Lily, we are your parents, even though we have made some huge mistakes, I would like you to call us as your mom and dad."said Mr Vean
You think that those mistakes was something that I can forgive you for? Well I will not!
"Mr Vean, you are thinking too much, I have never consider you guys as my parents, my parents are the King and Queen, they are MY FAMILY! I will not be able to call you guys my mom and dad since you were never there for me, you never love me, you never wanted me, I am a reminder of your hateful relationship, why would I dare to call you my parents?" I said trying to withhold my emotions
"Lily please forgive us, I know that we are in the wrong, we really want you and your forgiveness."said Ms Carlin
I totally ignored them.
"Lily, please try to forgive them, I know that they were in the wrong and would like to knock them out, but they had some sort of unfortunate circumstances, if you cannot forgive them well we won't force you, but please listen to their story before you decide to forgive or not."said my adopted parents.
"Mama, Papa, if you say so then I guess I will try to forgive them. Well if only the pain I suffer was understandable." I said
I know that my adopted parents loves me so much and hates those things that causes me pain and suffering, so if they said that they had some sort of reason, I believe they had, since my adopted parents would be the first one to speak up to them and have a fight with them.
"Mr Vean and Ms Carlin please clarify your reasons for those inhuman things that you have done to me." I said
They looked so guilty and sad at the same time. But I didn't feel anything.
And so they started...