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Chapter 62 - 23-A

Jimin: no it is not because of that…. it is because at the end of the day no matter what I do, whenever I try to trust you and be close to you, I end up like this.

Jungkook: I may not understand the pain you are in but give me a chance I here right share it with me.

Jimin: share it, how can I jungkook when you are the reason for that pain, for all this.

Saying this Jimin turned away from jungkook avoiding his eyes.

Jimin cannot control the tears building up in his eyes; he pursed his lips trying to hold them back.

Jungkook: so are you saying we can't be together, and you are going to give up on us and marriage without even giving it a try just because you are afraid of getting hurt and going through pain.

It's killing him every question that is coming out of jungkook's mouth, every answer he is giving literally they are eating him up inside, Jimin took a deep breath controlling his trembling lips.

Jimin: I am not giving up because I am afraid, I am giving up because I already know the answer, and it's foolish to try when I already know what will happen to us.

Jimin close his eyes and tears slip out, tears can't stay in those eyes….. Not anymore, there's no place for tears left in them, because those eyes are already filled with someone's love. Someone standing behind him someone he can't look.

Jimin opened the door and came out of the room he didn't even look back at jungkook he can't.

Leaned back on the wall with his hand on ^his heart, hammering against his chest without his will and tears slipping out from his eyes without his permission^

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Jungkook really don't know what to say or how to convince Jimin, it's really hard for him….is it only him trying to hold on to their relation, do they really have any relation at all?, because jungkook is the one who confessed his feelings all this time, he don't even know what Jimin feel about him ….he never told him, does he really mean all those what he said just now?, are they going to be strangers again? Can they? Can he? Can Jimin…..

He is thinking all these walking before he stopped in front of L's room.

He knocks the door and opened it.

L was sitting on the bed she seem nothing like L all the pleasantness and all the zeal it's all gone.

L smiled at jungkook the smile is lovely and full of life as usual but L is not.

Jungkook rushed to L holding her hand "L what's wrong? Why...why are you like this?"

L: I am okay jungkook nothing to worry.

Jungkook: L please you too…..your words say something and I see something else.

L: "you too?" What do you mean? Who else is saying things that they don't mean?

Jungkook: L it's not the point now, just tell me what the hell happened to you?

L: Jungkookie I am really going to be okay, it's just…

Jungkook: it's just?

L: it's just the pain curse.

Jungkook: pain curse?

L: hmm, we are twins jungkook... hyung and me, we share a connection so a small part affects me too….the pain.

Jungkook kept looking at L with glistening eyes they are so moving, that made L finally speak about their past.

L: "It happened when we were 10, we went to a park it's our first time in the human world" she gives a small smile…..

"it's really amusing …the park, we were playing at the park I was teasing him I took his necklace and hid it, but ended up losing it. He got angry at me and left alone, we are supposed to go back by evening and I started to cry as it is getting dark, thanks to my necklace my mother could hear me, they took me back but hyung He couldn't leave me alone, hmm he came back for me searched for me, he blamed himself for leaving me alone".

"Then they got to him….Epione took advantage of his guilt for leaving me alone, he used the pain curse on a 10-year-old boy, he tortured him and we couldn't get him back because I lost his necklace, finally our parents found him as we share the connection and I could feel a part of him".

"But it's too late; it's too much for a 10-year-old boy he lost the beautiful smiles and all his childhood was filled with those memories instead".

"After what happened our parents sent us in different ways to keep us safe, I gave him my necklace as a memory but hyung always blamed himself for leaving me alone and not being responsible he thinks that it is his mistake that, I had to feel even that little pain because of the connection. But what about him what did he do? What is his fault? Is it his fault going back for me searching for me? He is always a good brother, he is always responsible. It's not fair jungkook he allowed be happy he has every right to love and be happy again".

Jungkook looked down saying "yes he has".

L: Jungkook I know, I can see it he is happy with you, he is smiling again. Everyone else may not but I can jungkook, I can see what you two feel, what you people mean to each other.

Jungkook: maybe not L, maybe we don't mean that much to each other.