Feiya
Every day is a new beginning, it's what I tell myself, but is it really a new beginning, NO, it isn't a new beginning. I always knew that, but I hoped against that. But today is really a new beginning in my life. A chance to start, a chance to live a different identity, a choice to be better. I would never say best because the best of me already is lost. Today is my first day as College Student.
Hi, I am Feiya, a 17-year-old girl. Today I am going to my college as a student, I never thought I would pursue Bachelors in English Language and Literature, but here I am. That was what my life is about, my dream and my path is always different.
Sitting in the public transport bus, taking the journey of one hand half hour towards my campus. I had gone to my campus once before to take admission with my mother. The class of this academic year has already begun. I am one of the late admission. Joining late in academics is not new to me. But I am nervous this time and I am not complaining, I have my own fear to face.
I have moved to my mother ancestral home to go to college as it is comparatively near to my campus. A one-side compute of 1 and half hour without traffic by bus.
Reaching the campus I welcome my new dream.
I'm nervous
Why am I Nervous?
Am I afraid of Ragging
NO
Maybe afraid of change
NO
I am afraid of the past that may reach here.
Everyone has a past so do I have, buckle up Feiya let's conquer the campus.
I am now a student at one of the best State-owned Colleges, with the best faculty. My new life is indeed great. Walking through the college gates I once more take the breathtaking atmosphere of my lovely campus, the place I'll spend my time for the next three years.
The campus is one of the greenest campuses and it offers a total of 10 courses including post-graduation. It isn't a vast campus, but neither small. There are three ways to reach the campus building from the gate. The path from the gate to the campus is spherical, so it has a way along its circumference and along diameter. I take the way through the diameter. It has a few steps down, famous quotes stand-in display on both the side of the path. I walk and read those quotes, the quotes are mostly about success. I internally think, why again the same life motivational thoughts, then I slap myself for thinking negative. I had decided I'll stop thinking negative about anything. That was one of my greatest habits, according to my mother to think and say negative, I agree with her on this. I do that a lot.
Today I will meet those people in my life that I've spent three years of my life. I know it will be just three years no more if possible less. As they say, you're the only one that stays with you forever, everyone will leave. But in my case it is different I choose to leave all those who care about me. And here I am standing in front of my classroom waiting for a new set of people in my life, whom I am sure I'll have to leave sooner or later.
My life is like others nothing much special, from the outside, I am not talented nor I am beautiful. But I have the ability to invoke mans deepest carnal desire, LUST... I won't say every man I met is the same, as time passes everything will be clear. I am the bad girl to some.