the story is written in Alyssa's perspective.

I can't remember what time it is,but it's rather late...I've been living in this 'perfect' place all my life. Trust me...its a nightmare! nobody can have opinions, nobody can decide...nobody can think. nobody can make rules, there is no talk of anything judgemental...nobody as allowed to give an opinion. We all seem as free as ever, but it's all an illusion. but then again, were not even allowed to judge whether it's an illusion or not! I often spend days laying on my bed wide awake, thinking about how many stages of my childhood I'll never go through. I'll never be an emo...my parents wont judge me, they will support me and it'll be pointless...I'll never be a rebellious child because...my parents and those around me will support my rebellions, so before you even THINK about telling me "your town is amazing" think it over. I am interrupted in my train of thought by a loud blast....I cant tell what it was...but I can tell by the screaming, that I need to run...

I can hear my parents shouting, screaming but only for a short second...a strange einging noise drowns it out! I'ts painful...its at a frequency higher than I can stand...I feel as if this is it. I feel as if I must accept it, as if I must say goodbye. when suddenly i feel...different. my back is aching like something is pushing out...its horrible! but my eyes distract me from the pain, everything around me is falling apart. its hard to breathe which is making the pain worse, I can already tell its radiation that is doing this. It feels strange but scarily familiar. I hear my little brother crying. he is only two years younger than me ,but he doesn't act like it... I rush into his room and see that he is choking on the gas...or perhaps something else?...his eyes look funny, I swear his eyes were brown, not bright yellow!