I have completed my course of Reiki and I am practicing that on myself. It feels amazing how my palms get so hot when I do the session on myself.
The visions that I was having every time are not happening anymore. I am feeling more relax and stable with the energies around and inside of me.
But there is a thing that I am noticing in myself. Since I have started practicing Reiki, my interest in occult and other spiritual practices has increased. I want to learn other things as well.
My best friend Brian told me to look for some online courses where I can learn Tarot. But I am feeling more inclined to learn witchcraft.
Not in a bad way. Well I have searched about witchcraft online and it's not a bad thing as long as you don't want to hurt anyone.
I am on my way to the trip with my family and these thoughts are churning inside my mind. Because of my day dreaming I am missing out on such beautiful sight scenes.
I have always been interested in being with nature and watching the sight scenes but now I feel more connected to nature.
Well, I read on a blog that people who are connected to nature more than usual are meant to have energies and more inclined to be a witch.
But that's enough day dreaming for today. Now I am going to enjoy the scenes. It's been a long time that I have gone to a trip with my family. It's a road trip to the mountains and we are going to stay there for a week.
It feels good to be ordinary after realizing all these energies. I like to be ordinary most of the time, without being in the lime-light and just enjoying myself. Slowly I start feel myself drifting into the sleep.
Suddenly my whole body starts vibrating. Even though I am sleeping, my subconscious is on alert. Am I having a dream again but it's been days since I have seen any dream or vision.
I feel like I am in a tunnel and I am moving in a backward direction as if someone is pulling me. One thing that I have learned from recent events is not to push what's happening and go with the flow. So, that's what I am doing. This trick is doing wonders because I am not feeling scared anymore. I know I am safe.
Everything stops suddenly and I am standing in a room. Oh God! It's my old house. I lived in this house when I was little. We are now living in a different neighborhood.
But why I am here in this old house? I guess my subconscious is playing tricks on me today. As I start wandering around the house all the memories from my childhood start coming back like a flood.
Ahh!! It feels so good to remember all the good old memories. I see a a doll lying on the floor as I pick that doll up I realized it was my favorite doll when I was a kid.
I am so happy to relieve these memories. Suddenly I hear someone talking. I follow the voices. There are more people talking.
I reach to the room from where the voices are coming. It's my parents room but the door is locked.
Damn! I can't go inside now.
But as I touch the door my hand passed through the door.
Woohoo!! I am an idiot. It's my dream I can do anything and can go anywhere I want. I laugh.
I try to push my body through the door and
Tadaa!! I am inside my parent's room.
There are my parents talking to someone. It's an old man. I guess he must be in his 60's. And there I am sitting on the floor. I am so tiny. I guess I am around 2-3 years old.
But my parents are having a serious expression on their faces. What's going on?
As I try to hear the conversation of my parents with that old man my body goes numb. They are talking about me and not just that they are discussing to block something in me.
But what? What do they want to block in me?
Suddenly I am not able to hear anymore of their conversation as if my dream is on mute.
Damn!! They are looking at me tenderly now. What's happening? I am sensing the atmosphere of the room is getting thicker and electric.
Everything has started to fade now.
No no no! Let me complete this dream. I want to know what they did to me.
But nothing happened. My dream has ended and everything has vanished.
I shout with all my strength and suddenly someone wakes me up. I am in the cottage and my parents are sitting besides me.
They are looking at me with worry. I am not in my senses right now. My mind is about to explode with what I just saw.
But first I have to deal with the present situation with my parents. They are worrying because of the way I woke up.
I explained them that I had a nightmare and nothing else. They seems to accept my excuse.
I ask them if I could go outside to get some fresh air. They accepted that.
Now I am outside of the cottage. It's so beautiful out here. Our cottage is in mid of the mountains range and I can clearly hear the sound of waterfalls.
I take some deep breaths to calm myself. The air is so fresh unlike the city.
But right now even this fresh air is not helping me in differentiating what is real and what is fake. I don't know the dream that I had was a glimpse of past or it was just a made up story.
At one point I think that I should directly ask my parents about it but what if it was really a dream? They will start worrying because of the nightmares I am having.
Later that day
It's the night time and I just finished my dinner. Though I like to sleep alone in my bed but tonight I am not feeling up to sleeping alone.
I go to my parents room and ask them if I can sleep in their room. Good thing they accepted my out of blue proposal.
My curiosity is on its peak whenever I am seeing my parents. It's getting so hard to control myself from asking the questions which might not be valid at all. I am doing my best to suppress these questions and anxiety coming because of these questions.
Next Day -----
I couldn't sleep last night at all. I kept tossing here and there. So, instead of wasting my time in failed attempts of sleeping I woke up early.
Now I am outside in the garden. Early morning air is even more fresh than yesterday. Sun is about to rise and I don't want to miss it. Birds are chirping and I am enjoying this song.
Suddenly I feel someone's presence behind my back. As I look back instinctively, I see my parents are standing there with shocked expressions.
At first I didn't understand why they are looking at me like this but now I know the reason.
"What are you doing here this early hun?" They ask me
Well I was not able to sleep so I woke up early and came here to see sunrise.
After hearing this my parents joins me on the bench. Finally the moment of sunrise is here. From this location, sunrise is looking even more beautiful. I click some pictures and enjoys it with the company I have.
My parents suddenly ask me that what's going on with me. I am shocked at first that they caught it but after all they are parents they always sense this.
I am looking down thinking in my mind if I should finally ask them or not. After lot of yes and no I look up at them and ask, "did something happened with me when I was around 2-3 years old?"
My parents eyes goes wide with my question. Yes! It was not just a dream. It happened in real. There expressions are enough for me for the confirmation.
"Who told you?" They ask
"No one. I saw it in my dream. Who was that old man and what he told you? What did you wanted to block in me?" I ask all the questions together without wasting any time.
My parents are looking at each other sighing. I ask them again, "tell me I want to know what happened back then."
They finally gather their courage and starts telling me the part of the story which I missed in my dream.
20 Years Ago
I am just 2 years old and my Grandfather's friend came to our house. He is a Reiki Master too but he also have other powers as well. My parents are talking to him and telling him how I tell the events before they happen.
They also tell him that sometimes in the dark, they see some lights around me which scares them because it's not normal.
The old man is listening to them very carefully and after they finished explaining everything, he said that I have some special powers which I got from past life. My sixth sense is working on its peak and that's why I can see the future.
My parents are shocked with this they are asking him if this power could harm me ever. The old man said that I will always be in stress because of knowing the future.
My mother is crying now after hearing this. My father ask him if there is any way to solve this.
The old man says that he has enough power to block these abilities and powers for now.
My parents agrees for that but the old man warns them that these powers are meant to be with me in this life also. So, this blockage will not remain forever. As I celebrate my 23rd birthday the barrier will get vanished because the energies will be strong enough by that time.
Present time-------
I am shocked after this revelation. Everything that has happened to me in the last two weeks are now making sense to me. The first nightmare that I had, the vision in reiki attunement and rest of the visions after that.
All these happened because my 23rd birthday is coming next month and my powers are eager to break that barrier.
Now I understand what happened with me and why.
I look at my parents and tells them not to worry. But deep down inside my heart I am worrying about my 23rd birthday.
The visions were only the glimpse of the powers which are resting inside of me and now they are being restless. What will happen when the barrier will break and these restless powers comes out?
I guess I have to wait until my 23rd birthday to discover that.