You'd think I'd be used to this by now..
But I'm not.
When I project my elemental energy... sometimes ..something takes control over me... like in the midst of the release of my pent up emotions.
I hear it.. that creepy ass raspy little breath calling for me.
It reminds me of ...
thatt feeling ..
you know ..
that euphoric-giddy ticklish feeling ..I feel .... almost high off the seductive calling from the darkness trapped inside my flames.
To be honest it frightens the shit out of me.
I have nightmares about this .. Even Akuma can't help me chase my demons away.
I feel my flames' intensity rage hotter with the endless fuel of my anger. Is that even possible?
Do most people feel a like their elemental power has a mind of its own?
Mine wants to be free... it wants to rage against the world.
And sometimes..I agree.
Fuck yeah.. it should burn everything down to ash under my feet!
My flames .... Ouch I..Damn it fucking flame! I..feel my flame burning ... the air around me! It's.. I .. I can't... breathe...
..
...
Fuck....
'Hahahahaaa'
What the fuck was that!?
Who's there..!
'Hahahahaaa'
It's that creepy raspy voice from before!
'Someday this pain will be useful to you.'
It's ... it's my flame..
It watches me struggling to breathe.
I feel it's excitement..as it chokes me.
I hate that hyperventilating and burning feeling in my lungs as inhale dry air..
Attempting to survive.
My flames flicker brightly blinding me.
...I'm forced to close my eyes.
And
that
darkness ...
heightens my fear and spikes my adrenaline.
I used to be captivated with this little boost of power but now, I feel as if it's grown and taken over me ...it clouds my vision and melts my amazing flame into this ... destructive inferno puddle of magma.
I feel as if ...
I've become a slave towards this exhilarating enhancement of power!
I don't want to lose myself but ...
I don't even like who I am.
How is it that I'm that cowardly and afraid of the thought of losing the very thing I hate ..and regretting it.
'Will being a coward satisfy the need for your revenge?'
Fuck you Creepy Little Flame.
I submit..
I let the creepy little flame take over .. and watch as it melts away my fears...
I float off into the darkness.
"Kiyoshi!"
"Hey you Pig wake up."
"Second Brother if you die.. I'll definitely eat all this delicious meat." A clear and bright voice guides him out the darkness.
Her light giggle was heard in the far distance.
Such a light and beautiful laugh... I want to follow it.
I hate this dark refuge.. I want to go wherever her voice is.
Call out again, so I can find you!
Laughter echos in his ears loudly, confusing him.
No not you again! I want the Little Brat... I want to hear her call me again.
-silence-
No ...no .... noo.
She lost me.
I don't want to be alone again.
Fuckkk..
I hate this darkness, I don't want to hide in here again.
Please call for me again..
I'll answer this time...
Call me a pig again.. or laugh at me
Hell.. dress me like a girl for all I care ...
...just don't ever stop calling for me.
Find me ...
I don't want to be alone anymore.
Please ... save me from this endless darkness.