Zachary
I went to my room in the manor and plug the flash drive on my computer. And click all the songs to play. The first song was I LOVE YOU.
Uh oh, uh oh, here I go again, baby, baby
I hear your name and it's like I'm breaking, aching
You still got that power hanging over me
It's always over but still happening
Uh oh, uh oh, here I go again, baby, baby
I just wanna scream out 'till my voice breaks
Even if the tears fall and my heart hates me
Baby, I love you
Uh, oh, uh oh, don't know how I'm still breathing, breathing
I got this hole up in my heart baby, baby
And it doesn't matter what no one say
Even though it's broken, I love you anyway
Uh oh, uh oh, here I go again, baby, baby.
Was this what she felt all this time? She loves him. There's no lie about it. She wouldn't dedicate a lot of songs for me. I stare at the letter and open it. It was her handwriting, but I didn't read it.
I feel your touch when I'm alone at night
But it's just me who's holding tight
And this life don't feel like you
There's nothing left but these I love you's
And I just wanna scream out 'til my voice breaks
Even if the tears fall and my heart hates me
I just wanna know how I can save me
Even if these three words choke and take me
Baby, I love you
I love you
Baby, I love you
I love you
Baby, I love you
My dearest Zachary,
I write this letter just to make sure that you are fine. I wanted you to know that I've been faithful and loyal to you. Even though I wanted to go with my classmates to bars and clubs and even parties, I thought about you. I don't want to go and party anywhere without you.
Please eat breakfast before going to the office. Feed Taz and pay attention to him. He needed a lot of attention. He's a loyal best friend. He even bit the man's dick and bit the man to death just to save me. Though I know his neck might be hurt, he still pulled out with his strength just to save me.
Don't skip any meal and please, take care of yourself while I'm gone. I don't want to live with the same roof as you. Because I know that I wasn't good enough for you. I know that I love you, but you didn't. I know that you still love her. If you still love her, and if she makes you happy, I'll be happy for you. Though it hurts, I will be happy wherever you are happy because I love you.
I just wish that I don't love you, but I do. I love you so much that it hurts. Listen to my songs, that's all I wanted to tell you all those months and a year with you. I couldn't say it because I'm afraid of getting slapped in front of your truth. I couldn't say it because I'm weak.
I just wish that you love me instead of her. I just wish that you wouldn't look for anybody else and be contented with me. I know, I'm not good at anything. I try hard and if maybe there are chances, maybe, I'll love you more. And I don't want to get to that point that I will lose my sanity.
If ever you come back, I'll be still loyal to you. I couldn't have annulment because I love you. If that moment comes no matter how long it is, I'll still love you, when you are ready to love me too.
There's not much else, my love. My Casanova. My handsome husband. All these words, phrases, and paragraphs only mean one thing. It is to want you to know that I love you with all my heart and soul.
With kisses,
Maeve.
Everything she said wasn't the truth. She's good. She's good at cooking. She's good at sex. She's a good wife. She, Taz, and Grandma is all I ever had, and they left me.
The next song was played was Good Enough. Every song that she dedicated to me slaps me right into my face. I never thought that I've hurt her so much like this. I never thought that the woman that I am seeking for love is just right there and I make her go away.
I look at her ring again. Her beautiful fingers were like pixies. I love the way she smiles. I love everything about her. If I could only turn back time. I will start all over again and seek for her love and to love her back.