When the moon's transit was halfway through the night sky, with a lot of hard work and effort, I could now properly and correctly write the character "Miao".
Bi Qingshen Jun asked if I would still be sleeping tonight, I looked up at the sky and saw that the moon of the Heavenly Realm was much brighter and luminous than the moon of the Mortal Realm. I shook my head, swung my tail and leaped out of the door.
I did not go back to my room, I went to climb onto the highest tree inside Xuan Qing Palace, sitting on the top of the tree with my legs dangling, and watching the moon looming over the palace in a daze.
The night dew was cold, moistening my long hair quietly, my mind was blank, and oblivious to the chill.
Wawa's scared eyes kept appearing in front of me, after a long time, my cat instincts told me that this feeling was hatred, even if she was being respectful, her behavior and actions…..did not hide the fact that she hated me.
Everyone's eyes in Bi Qingshen Jun's manor was the same as Wawa's, they're all smile when they look at me, and flatter me, but nobody likes me, nobody welcomes me…..
Why doesn't anybody like Miao Miao?
This question made me think, but I could not understand why…..
I don't bully people anymore, and I don't fight anymore…..ever since that disaster last time, I've not caused trouble…..
Why doesn't anybody like me?
Is it because Miao Miao is not obedient? Mischievous?
The moonlight softly illuminates the entire sky, fireflies fly about in the air, causing the colour of the night sky of the Heavenly Realm to be exceptionally beautiful, which as well, contrasts with the lonely me.
I begin to miss the days on Luoying Mountain, everyday, me and Yin Zi were fooling around, the tiger would follow me from behind here and there, the black bear would occasionally give me some fish, the white rabbits would flee, Bull Devil and Luo Sha sis-in-law would come visit me and bring lots of toys, their smiles were very happy and sincere.
Although there were no delicacies, nor soft beds, we were very happy and blessed everyday.
Nowadays it's all gone.
Following the destruction of Luoying Mountain by a monster called earthquake, they are no longer there.
Leaving Miao Miao alone here in the Heavenly Realm, looking up at the moon not knowing what to do…..
I was beginning to understand why when I see the destroyed Luoying Mountain, I would be sad, and I was beginning to understand why I liked to snuggle in Bi Qingshen Jun's arms…..
Because he likes me, the only person here who truly like me, who loves me dearly…..this feeling makes me not willing to leave him.
But I'm still not happy…..
How can I make everyone like me? This question is too difficult, a cat can not possibly understand how people think.
This leads to an unbearable pain to occur in my head, and I finally give up on my research, so I go on to stare at the moon blankly…..
My ears feel a vibration in the still atmosphere, I hear a faint cry from the distance, so I jump off the big tree and immediately sprint to the source of the sound.
The place was Xuan Qing Palace's Celestial Lake, in the lake was a bamboo Pavilion with a bamboo bridge attached to it. And the cries were coming from there…..
I quietly enter the pavilion, to see that Jin Wen was crying on the ground in disarray, her beautiful makeup was washed away by her tears, her fine hair was blown into a mess by the wind, and her pretty clothes were used to wipe away her tears…..the original charm she had, disappeared, only crying like a child.
I stood by the side watching her tears flow into the lake, my heart became even more puzzled.
Don't fish not have tears? What is she crying about?
So I walked over lightly, and gave her a pat on the back, with comforting words, I said, "Jin Wen, don't cry….."
Jin Wen sobbingly turns her head back, seeing it was me, she limps to the ground and begs for mercy, "This lowly servant Jin Wen didn't mean to intentionally collide with Master Miao Miao, please have mercy."
I held out my hand, and brought her chin up, carefully looking at her crying red eyes, filled with fear and disgust, which was exactly like Wawa's eyes…..
So I cautiously wait a while before carefully asking her, "You…..do you not like Miao Miao?"
"No! Absolutely not!" Jin Wen kept shaking her head.
"Then why are you crying?" I ask confused.
Jin Wen's eyes became even more evasive, she hesitated and paused for a long time, speechless.
I say affirmatively, "You don't like me."
"I….."
I grabbed her arms, and flatly said, "Why do you guys not like me? Tell me the answer!"
Taking a few steps forward, her bubble finally bursting, she brings her hand up to slaps me on my face, loudly shouting, "Who would like you, you rude monster?! If you want to eat me then just eat me! I won't keep this in any longer!"
Isn't a cat eating a fish a natural course of matter? I gently raised hands to stop her attack, using a little too much force, she was pushed to the ground.
As I was going to help her up, she cursed at me, "I hate you! A complete idiot with no brain! An idiot who won't consider other people's feelings! How can anyone like you?!"
"But…..Bi Qingshen Jun likes me….." I dejectedly grab onto my clothes, wanting to keep my one and remaining position.
"That's why I hate you even more! Since I was young, I've been learning and taught the arts of seduction, in order to obtain a god's favor, I've spent countless time and effort to practice a variety of poetry and arts! How did you, someone who didn't even do anything, obtain his favor? How can you show such an innocent expression and tell me he likes you?!" Jin Wen roared, and after wiping her tears, she continued to scold, "If you've won, then just go and laugh by yourself! Don't come here to taunt me! I've already had enough!"
I didn't understand what Jin Wen meant, I only knew that her voice was full of anger, and this made me feel uneasy, so I repeatedly told her, "Jin Wen…..don't cry…..don't cry….."
"My only ray of hope is gone…..gone….." Jin Wen's angry voice suddenly fades, she sits on the ground and sobs, her mouth saying something incomprehensible, "Little Xian, it's sisters fault…..sister's incompetence….."
"Who is Little Xian?" I pondered.
Jin Wen suddenly jumped up, just like a locust, and says to me, "If I tell you, you can't decide what she wants for her! If you want to eat, eat me only! I will let you eat! But in the future, you can't order me to do anything!"
After speaking, she turned and ran back, I didn't chase her, only stared at her shadow disappearing from my eyes…..
My mind was a mess, no matter how I tried to organize my thoughts, Jin Wen's words were incomprehensible, but there is one thing I understood, I know that my intuition isn't wrong, that they really dislike me.
Understanding this, the pain in my heart seems to feel as if it was punctured by many needles, it hurts so much that I did not know what to say…..
Loneliness swept through my entire body, I suddenly began to hate this place, I hate being here in Xuan Qing Palace.
So I took advantage of the night and quietly left.