There was a silence in the room, silence so deep I could feel it in my bones. i have experienced this type of silence in my unit but only when we are at the mission. I cleared my throat and said in surprisingly dry throat " ok guys disperse and let Meadow rest for a while, this could have been traumatizing for her and we can't let her health be affected because of us.
There were few groans but I just gave them my silent brooding glare like always it worked like a charm. I looked at Meadow " I am ordering food for us do you want anything". Meadow smiled " anything will do". I went out with the guys. After going for a while I stopped and called Chet, he was our top computer and information guy " verify everything she said from point A to Z".
Zeb groaned " Chief how could you be suspicious of every fucking thing, if she was lying it could not be so detailed". I raised my eyebrows, I never like to be questioned on my orders that's what I always learned in Military every word you speak should be important and firm which you will never regret later. Still I explained them because we were a team and being their head I was responsible for them " I spent last month beside her all day, do you think I want to question her, but we have to be always on alert that's what we learned and that's what we are doing here".
After they left I went to her with some food from the nearby restaurant I chose few things but they were all bland. After drinking some chicken soup and porridge she became silent . I didn't say anything but continued to flip through some stupid magazine. She was quite for a while then said in low voice " can you call over the nurse I want to use the washroom".
I stood up and went to the station but surprisingly there was no one there after asking around I found some patient was critical and they were all there helping him get treated. I went to her " there is no one at their station. If you want I can help you there if you have no problem".
She nodded I helped her holding her hands letting her stand on her own but her legs were clumsy and weak probably atrophied being in coma for one month. After I picked her up in my arms at that moment I was thinking " she is so light I need to feed her and there was another thought which I knew was deep inside me it was "she fit perfectly in my arms like a perfectly matched jigsaw puzzle".
I helped her there there were some noice first probably her adjusting herself and then there was only sound of water running. It went on for a while I couldn't help but knock asking " Lily are you alright".I was calling her Lily naturally that's what she was for me. I continued knocking but there was no reply. Getting anxious I banged on the door and being using force for my whole life it easily opened revealing her sitting on small stool all curled and crying. She was crying badly but there was no sound coming from her throat . It crushed my heart. I crouched down in front of her and gently asked " hey don't cry , you have me with you now, I will never let anyone harm you".
After cradling her for a while I held her in my arms and brought her back to the bed. Letting her adjust. She was quiet for a while and finally asleep. I calmed down after that. I didn't like her so pitiful. After fluffing her bed I didn't move. I put a few curls that were lying on her cheek back behind her ears while involuntarily caressing her cheek. Finally I went back and I let sleep claim me.